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• Member: CrackTheSky
• Title: Shards
• Premiered: 2021-11-06
• Categories:
  • Drama
  • Serious
  • Sentimental
• Song:
  • City Girl Ellipsis
• Anime:
  • Mawaru Penguin Drum (TV)
• Comments: It's been over a month and a half since I completed this video and I've been contemplating what I want to write here but everything has seemed inadequate. I'll do my best. Back at the beginning of 2017, a very close friend of mine passed away unexpectedly; she was a few years younger than I was and it came as a complete shock to me and everyone who knew her. It was one of the few times in my life where I've been confronted by grief that seemed close to overwhelming me. I remember the breakdown I had the night I found out -- never have I felt quite as desolate as I did in that moment. It was terrible.
  
  Things have gotten better over the years, but every so often I'll be hit with a memory of her out of nowhere, or she'll be in one of my dreams, and it all comes rushing back. This video is not about Jenna, but since that time I've been wanting to make an AMV that communicates even a fraction of what it means to grieve the loss of someone close to you. You'll find an (admittedly somewhat abstract) exploration of this concept here -- although I didn't like Mawaru Penguindrum while I was watching it (like, at all), almost all the characters in it had lost someone important to them at some point in their lives, and a lot of the anime was showing how they worked through the grief of that loss. This was one of those videos where, as I made it, I felt much more sympathetic towards the characters than I ever did while I was actually watching the anime. Take from that what you will, but the anime ended up working really well with this concept. The video itself is very moody, and a bit looser than it probably could be from an editing perspective, but that's very much how I wanted it to feel.
  
  I'm really satisfied with the way it came out, but even so this is one of the saddest videos -- to me, anyway -- that I've ever made. I hope you still enjoy it. Thank you for watching.
  
  Technical notes:
  Edited in Sony Vegas 8.0 in about 10-15 hours over the course of three days.