- Well these things always seem to happen... 2011-03-16 23:54:37 I've made my amvs, publish em to sites so people can enjoy and view them. Then comes along the assholes who start shit just to be greedy and get money. Let's face it, we all work hard, but for you to say we didn't make that amv when it took us days to finish working with it and tweaking it. We didn't steal videos. Hell I even went to japan to buy the blu-ray version of one of the shows i wanted to see. I worked hard for the money, even harder to make the video blend seemlessly with your music. that should be a compliment to them cause now they're getting even more recognized. but the arrogance, ignorance, disrespect, and hypocriticism that was shown to many of the videos that many of us create being shut down or destroyed just because we had and i "QUOTE" third party content. If that was the case then why bother even publishing? If it wasn't even for some stuff for the internet you wouldn't be able to do shit. if it wasn't for the elite few who could ultimately turn something into a world wide phenomenon would you screw them over and deny their existence or efforts? To deny one's ancestry or past is to deny oneself themselves. If they only knew that so much shit they have from all over the world was not possible without either stealing, trading, or invading. then they would know the cost but no. it becomes a little issue they get paid recognized and the originator of the stuff either gets some or barely any credibility! then when it goes down to some people qwuitting there is always that line: It is due to the matter of copyright and other well made statements that has caused me to realize that i am unable to continue what i have done and have been doing. From here on in I ask of you why? is it all because of money is there no sense of the word of gratitude to the one who helped publish, make, and edit it so people would recognize, help, and sponsor the music, anime, manga, cosplay, items, etc!? this is not only my issue. many people have had this happen. my reason why i hate it is this. you're not letting people get creative and guess what. if they're not creative and then one day are angry with something. guess what happens. A disaster! Someone gets killed, hurt, injured, or missing. emotional stress and so forth. i do not blame you for what he's done but i blame you for what he couldn't have done all because you wanted an extra dollar in your bank account! I made my amvs, gmvs, fvs, and other stuff just to show love and appreciation what do i get? Denied access to one of the things i love cause of third party matching content. I worked hard on that cvideo. I got raws. I bought the dvds when i could get them and now i get screwed over. Just because i made a video straight from my head and heart. then everybody becomes a bitch. they all want credibility. ok then let's start talking about credibility. Don't be naive nobody in this world would not be living without their own interpretation of certain stuff like let's see martials arts- animals. come on you people. do you really think that everythings gonna be original. no it's not cause imitations are the basic necessities of referencing and design of artwork and creation!
- Making something... 2010-08-27 12:39:03 that i seem to make or remake gets harder because i will not have the same feelings in it or i will be lacking something. in other senses i might improve but somethings aren't gonna be the same. I accept the criticism and try harder but the feelings of what was then will not be there as i begin now. I cannot continue something that has never begun. I appreciate the help of opinins you guys give me. I just hope i don't turn cold from all this and forget my purpose for making amvs. I don't even know why but i lack a lot of resources like money for anime and music. it sucks though that i don't have any good songs anymore. i lost 3-4 computers already. I don't know what to do except rise up. yet here i stand nothing can be done. I work very hard but i think it's time i took a break to clear my head if not i'm guessing i should just revamp my whole style of doing things. i'm going to college and trying to meet expectations of my family. as well as trying to get a job. i still take time to work on amvs. i manage to finish my homework early so i could do this amv making. now i don't know if i should even like my amvs anymore. i know people can do anything if they have what they need to do so. Yet i'm feeling i'm losing my grip from this computer as if my soul and spirit is being drawn away...
- Well to explain a little about my past.... 2010-03-03 20:29:12 I worked on amvs for a bit of my life. I went by the name of animeotaku717 on youtube till the day i got banned by one of my friends for posting something without my consent while i was away. Discouraged and mortified i quit making amvs and kept the computer to myself. Dealing throughout the years of being transferred from place to place in the same state for schools, I found just a little bit of me getting more creative with my drawings and editing skills. i didn't make real good ones till later. i was still just a kid but still am sort of., anyways i was transferred 7 times due to many reasons. The reasons are: misunderstandings, taking my words out of context, threatening, fighting, and just some stupid reasons like me being different. Yeah i know hard to imagine right? but this is how it went. I was an asian kid/filipino kid. I was stereotyped against, bullied, and messed with until one day i had enough. I was part of the soccer, basketball, and possibility of football team but that all ended when i got expeleed for bringing a weapon to school. i know it was my fault and action but even if this is an excuse i was just a kid who didn't fit in much. can you believe though that was in private middle school. I was hated and disrespected by my teachers. My family was always fighting due to many reasons. I escaped into my room and died a little every night. I was transferred then to another school for a month then transfered to a public school. There i felt more at ease and manage to graduate. Then going on to high school, I was once again as usual stereotyped and messed with until i made threatening comments under my breathe. Then I was reported transferred and sent to another school under the high school's district program or whatever. I was alrite there until one day some guy threw something at me and i got mad that i started a fight and it took all the staff a few cops and a fireman to hold me down. good thing nothing bad happened but then i was hospitalized. I was hospitalized 4 times. Depression, Suicide, and Anger. Don't get me wrong i was a nice guy just messed with too much, misunderstood, and influenced. I was sthen transferred to another school that was a tech and trade. i was there and the school was funded by gov't and thx to that many of em slacked off and didn't care wtf happened. Only until drugs or weapons came into the picture. After all that 2 weeks into it i was sexually harassed, messed with, and threatened. I was then hospitalized. I got a lawyer ready to sue the sschool because of the lack of supervision and control of students. it is thx to that i was transferred to a better place more relaxed. I was there but still got into fights. it was a nice break but i coped. Until i was sent to the afternoon program so that way i could be away from everybody. I wasn't gonna bring no weapon they knew i'd do that only if i was tempted with something very traumatizing. In the end i graduated early thx to my credits and here i am. back to making amvs. i did make amvs in my spare time but not enough of my emotions were put into them. I'll make more but this is basically a bit of my background so you can see what type of history i have with in some terms of people and where my inspiration for some drawings, amvs, and stories come from. Alrite that's my story for the hellish childhood-teenager. So what can i tell you. It was tough and without a family that supported me, friends, and influence of some anime to help me relate to situations i was able to survive. i'm glad because now i can work with more time on my amvs.
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