- Motherfuck... 2007-05-22 15:22:50 Someone broke my mic headset. Whoever that someone is owes me $30. I am pissed right now |:<
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2007-05-22 03:29:48
Have you ever been dating someone, but all the while had a small crush on one of your exes? And then that feeling gets stronger and stronger? Yeah, that's what I'm going through now...it sucks, and I'm feeling pretty emo about it, because I'm the kind of person that wants to go and tell my ex how I feel just to hopefully get myself some sort of peace of mind, even though doing so could potentially mess up so many things.
I don't know what to do, and I feel extremely guilty because I'm dating someone and I love her, but this feeling just won't go away. I've had it ever since I met this girl almost (or over?) two years ago. We got together and broke up a year and a half ago (it was a short relationship, long story I don't feel like getting into), and ever since then I've continued to have a thing for her. Nothing major, just a little crush that was easily avoidable because I've been at college and haven't been in contact with her much. But now I'm back home and I'll probably see her at least once a week (as she goes to the same church I do), and she'll be on my mind much more.
I've held these feelings in for over a year now. And I feel like I need to tell her. But like I said, so many things could go wrong. I could end up ruining the relationship I have with the girl I'm dating now, I could end up pushing away my ex (as we're still friends, although I have a sneaking suspicion she feels the same way I do), or both. And there aren't many benefits to telling her, other than potential peace of mind. I'm not going to break up with my girlfriend for my ex, so it's not like there's any sort of relationship in store for me if I tell her these things.
But it's gnawing at me. Gah. Maybe it's just a temporary thing, but I doubt it, since I've essentially felt this way for a while. It used to be latent though, now it's completely at the forefront of my mind. I hate it. I HATE IT.
Well...I'll report back on what happens. I didn't mean for this to be an emo entry, it was supposed to be about this fricking hilarious "Breaking News" story I saw on CNN today, with this whole relationship story as just a blurb, but I guess that didn't happen how I wanted...
Oh well. I'm going to go to bed soon, although I'm not looking forward to the next few days. I'm going to be an emotional wreck :/
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*yawn*
2007-05-19 18:41:35
I got two ops done today! Horrah! Now I have two more to do...I think...I still need to op Kiki's video and Kenka_Wolf's video...I should've had those done back in like February (:>) Goes to show how reliable I am. And maybe I should op some of Wes's stuff, like I said I would ages ago...*sigh*. I hate giving opinions now. They take up so much time.
Ugh...well...hmm. What should I do? Perhaps I'll see if I can get Roller Coaster Tycoon: Corkscrew Follies to play on XP. And then if that doesn't work maybe I'll fire up Independence War 2. And then if I get bored with that perhaps I'll read. Or play N64. Or something :|
-sKy- -
(:>)
2007-05-18 20:19:58
http://www.animemusicvideos.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?p=1003480
Didn't see that comin', did you?
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Being home isn't all it's cracked up to be
2007-05-17 03:22:44
Being at home kinda sucks. It turns out I can't hook my own computer up to the Internet, so I'm stuck using the friggin' family computer, which is slow as hell and can't play and videos very well, meaning I have to put everything I download here onto a flash drive and transport it up to my computer upstairs. Seems like a pretty minor thing to complain about, but it IS a nuisance, especially when most of my computer time is at midnight or later and everyone else is asleep.
This also means that I won't be on nearly as much since I have to share the computer with three other people, most of whom want to use the computer between 5:00 and 10:00 PM. So I have to wait until they go to bed to get on, and usually my girlfriend is over until about 2:00. UGH. It sucks because my AIM/Skype schedule is all messed up.
Blah. Well...meh, I dunno. My ACen video will be released on the 27th...but it WON'T be under the Rokujinshou Productions tag because I wasn't in RP at all when I was making it. And I'm a stubborn person like that. I have a good reason waiting to until then to release it though...not that it's any good. Meh. It'll be good to at least have everything regarding that video done with, I have other things I want to do.
So...yeah, hopefully I can get on Skype more over the next few days. I told Kiki a couple days ago, but I'm planning on going to AWA this year. I didn't think I'd be able to until I'd talked to like Gina and others at ACen, but now it's almost a definite and I'm super-excited.
Besides that, I have nothing exciting to say. I think I'll go finish up Stratos 4 now, like I should have a week ago. Toodles.
-sKy-
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