JOURNAL: Arigatomina

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  • i don't get it... 2003-12-08 04:07:17 Is it because I made the warning explicit to get rid of the easily squicked fanboys, or just because the site attendance dropped by half so fewer people downloaded the vid to begin with? My new shonen ai YYH vid has a high star rating. Oh, I know it'll drop, that's not the problem. It's that I haven't gotten one of those since I first started putting up my shonen ai vids and didn't announce them - only shonen ai fans downloaded those, so the flaming scores were low (and fewer amv makers downloaded them since I was unknown). I'm not sure how to take this early high score.

    There are a few possibilities:
    1. The warning did it.
    If this is the case, I'll go back and add shonen ai warnings to all my shonen ai vids. This *is* the first time in a long while that I've actually given the definition of shonen ai (or yaoi) for those who don't know. If that's the difference, then I feel bad for not having warned since my early vids. It's not that I don't want people to know ahead of time what they're downloading, just that het vids never warn so my giving repetitive warnings is rather unfair. But I *would* rather have the warning there, that way if someone flames he can't say he wasn't warned ahead of time and downloaded anyway.

    2. It's the OT deletion.
    I'd be an idiot if I didn't notice how attendance on the org has dropped. The few posts on the forum are inane, a couple of newbs, one or two bored rants, and desperate people starting new threads that get few replies because the majority has gone elsewhere. That would make a big difference for those announcing vids (a good one in my case). If this is the problem, then I don't mind. I hadn't planned to announce this vid in the first place because it *was* modeled for the shonen ai fans - I know few people will be able to look past that to enjoy the video itself.

    3. It's the anime.
    Heh, I don't like that a certain vid creator has been making lovely yyh vids lately. His quality is better than I'll ever get with my editing equipment (unless I can find a way to join the various wmv files into one). But unlike the random action vids, my recent yyh vids have been story vids so there really isn't anything for me to worry about. And I must admit, I love seeing great quality action vids for this anime now that it's being distributed and shown to a wider audience. The number of fans in the 'amv' world is increasing daily, and so (I'm sure) is the number of K/H fans who know about amvs. This means good business for me. Even those who don't like shonen ai tend to be fans of either Hiei or Kurama, and with their relationship in the anime itself, it isn't *too* hard for them to watch my light Kurama/Hiei vids - most can see it as close friendship and leave it at that. I've *definitely* seen a sudden rise in downloads on all my yyh vids - and the Kurama profile in particular seem popular, with Hiei a step behind. It makes sense that this new vid (shonen ai or not) would recieve good scores if it were downloaded mainly by fans of the characters (if not the pairing).

    On that note, I really want to make another Kurama/Hiei action vid - not a romance vid, just the two of them being cool together. I haven't done one of those since my 'Beautiful People' vid, and the song there is one that turns a lot of people away. My 'Nature's Child' vid is actually getting more attention - dispite the horridly small capture and slack editing. As much as I love the anime, and these characters, I see no excuse to not have done another yet. The main issue is the song choice. I can't seem to find one that would lend itself to mindless action without tempting lyrics to lure me into storytelling. And I'd really like to do a spot of mindless action. ^_^; It's been a while.

    I'm currently working on my Kuwabara/Hiei/Yukina vid (again - I know...I want to finish it but Kuwa just isn't my favorite character...). I don't know if I'll finish (finally) or shift for this action idea. I'm also caught on the 'Wild Wind' duet. The remix is so fun - lots of sound effects that would make for some playful color changes, which I do so love to do. But I really want to have two vids for that - one for the original chocked full of lyric sync and action sync, and then the remix using the basic outline of the first and twisting it into a dance/action vid (to fit the different music style). The problem is that I'd have to do the original first to get the scene choices (doing lyric sync for a Japanese song is not easy for me). And what I really want to work on right now is a mindless action vid - it's not mindless if I have to plan out the scene according to translated lyrics.

    And then there's my YYH/DBZ crossover vid. I *have* to do this vid. Just the thought of paralleling Sensui with Brolli is too tempting - and the footage lends itself to that. It would be horribly easy to to match Sensui torturing Yusuke (while the others watch helpless) with Brolli attacking Goku (while the others watch helpless). Not to mention the useless retaliation in both anime - Kurama, Kuwabara and Hiei are as useless as Trunks, Gohan, and Vegeta. And then there's the 'giving energy so we can win' part, and of course we have that in DBZ and the cute scene of the three guys powering up (pretty lights ;p ) in YYH when Yusuke comes back - the two would parallel perfectly. This must be done, there is no question of it. The only problem is the song. I have the video idea (scene choices) in mind already and I know finding a song that will allow this is going to be hard. I can't just use a random japanese song without lyric sync now - I'd feel cheap. And my lyricless music is rather limited. I'm at an impasse until I find a workable song - left wanting to start on it but having to wait. Rather sucks. 
  • heh... 2003-12-07 00:14:25 I've never been on a forum without an 'introduce yourself' section before. I can't wait to see the newbie threads that should be popping up all over the place. ^_^ 
  • Sympathy: A True Story 2003-12-05 20:51:23 I went to highschool in a small county. We had teachers who were all related to students in the top of their classes. No one got through the school without falling into one of two groups. Either they were related to someone or fucking someone who was related to someone and therefor cool, or they were nobodies. I spent two years there before I saw two exceptions. One was the pregnant girl. The other was Eric.

    The pregnant girl was what even the nice people would think of as 'white trash.' She was unknown, but her first days at the school she flashed herself in the boy's restroom twice, shoved Mary's wheelchair over while laughingly saying she slipped, and took pleasure in waving her hair at people and showing them her lice. She was a very unliked person, by everyone - the 'somebodies and the nobodies.' Until she announced that she was pregnant. After that, suddenly she was somebody. She was the poor unfortunate girl who spread her legs one time too often and was now forced to carry a baby for nine months. Everyone loved her. When she shoved Mary around and someone yelled at her, the person would fall under instant attack for yelling at the poor unfortunate expectant mother who'd done nothing but spread her own legs and sleep with so many boys that she had no idea who the father was. She was a victim, and they loved her for it. She let them fawn over her and touch her belly, and they let her do whatever she wanted so long as she sniffled occasionally and reminded them how unfortunate she was. I had no sympathy for her. She openly admitted she had sex willingly, never used birth control and was happy to tell any who would listen that she could have all the sex she liked now that she was already pregnant. But she was a victim, and I was a bad person for not feeling sorry for her and protecting her from the heartless masses who didn't live to gush sympathy for someone they couldn't have cared less about before she got herself pregnant.

    Then there was Eric. We have his picture on the first page of our senior yearbook, a dedication to him, the first person in the school to have killed himself. Everyone shared love and cried over Eric's death, the school shut down and people lined the streets to go to his funeral. They comforted each other in the halls for months after over the loss of that beloved fellow student. And I hated them for it. All of that care, all of that sudden love, and they treated him like shit when he was alive. Why? Because, he wasn't a victim until he died, they had no reason to care until he was gone and they could show how humane they were to mourn his loss.

    I knew Eric. I sat behind him on the bus to and from school for four years. I watched him and my neighbor shoot down cats with their guns, chase dogs and little girls off the road with their fourwheelers. I shined a flashlight on him after he set fire to the bushes next to the church across the street from my house. I testified to get the restraining order against him after he shot my sister with his BBgun. I knew him, and I didn't like him. But I had more contact with him than anyone at that school, even more than the ones who hit him in the locker room. I talked to him when his father broke his jaw after his mom left, and helped him get the glue off his schoolbooks when the basketball players pranked him. I didn't like him, but I knew him. And I didn't go to the funeral. That make me heartless. I should have gone with the countless strangers and enemies and gushed over someone I didn't care about, because that's what good people do. I should have given love to Eric's memory when I withheld it from the boy who desperately needed it while he was alive. Because that's what sympathetic people do, that's what good people do.

    I never claimed to be a good person, or a sympathetic one. Consider me heartless, that's closer to the truth. But one thing I am not is a hypocrite, and the one type of person I hate most in the world is the hypocrite who gives love to the victim he couldn't have cared less about in the past, the one who coos and cuddles the person he brushed aside on a daily basis. The only type of person who comes close to the hypocrite in my mind is the willing victim, the person who accepts that knowing it is fake and meaningless. Real friends are there before and after the tragedy, and they don't play sympathy games to get false love from strangers.

    When I think back of the pregnant girl and Eric, I know I liked him more than her. She never attacked me in particular, never injured anyone I love, but I detest her. At least Eric was honest to the end. I'm sure that he'd roll over in his grave if he knew all those hated people went to his funeral. To me, that's the biggest insult that school ever paid him, degrading his death to some pity party, pretending they'd been friends with him all along and painfully missed him. And the yearbook picture is the final insult. His father gave them that picture since Eric never attended when pictures were taken. He rarely attended on a steady basis. He would have failed had he lived out the end of the year. But because he died, on purpose, he is a martyr who has been immortalized in the class of 98. People do so love to encourage the victims, and they live to give sympathy to them. The only way for a girl everyone hates to become popular was to play the victim, the only way for a boy no one cared about and most disliked to get remembered forever by his classmates was to die. Society pushes this, young people encourage it, and I hate it all. 
  • inspiration is fun ;p 2003-11-26 20:54:15 Yep, ready for the next vid. I think I'll finish this one, really. So much fun. It's a 'pop' song, so it's quite different from anything I've worked with so far. But oh, it's so fun so far. A nice mix of effects (not too many, just a bit for the guitar echoes) and stills. But it *won't* be action. Has to be 'dance' - meaning it's more character shots than actual scenes. Should prove interesting.

    [YYH for those who are curious. ;p ] 
  • love... o.o 2003-11-15 14:19:23 I love Loveable Neko Kyou. 0.0 Does that make me a lesbian?

    I finally found the zip discs with my old vids on them (downloaded before the carrot) and I had forgotten exactly how many of her vids I love. And I hadn't checked her profile in a while so there are even more that I just *know* I'll love the moment I get them downloaded. It's just so nice to have a set of vids that I can watch over and over and still get pleasure from. She's a 'must' for shonen ai fans. ^_^

    And she's the main one who made me fall in love with amvs - one of the very few to make beautiful romance vids to the pairings I watch anime to see. Ah...yes...I'm in love. ^"^ 
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