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• Member: Vaeryn
• Title: Hope Of Mourning
• Premiered: 2020-01-06
• Categories:
  • Action
  • Serious
  • Sentimental
• Song:
  • Icon for Hire Hope of Morning
• Anime:
  • Laughing Under the Clouds (TV)
• Participation:
  • Anime Detour 2020, Anime Detour 2020 AMV Contest (2020-04-04)
  • Middle Tennessee Anime Convention (MTAC), MTAC 2020 AMV Contest (2020-04-10)
• Comments:
  
  Warnings --------------------------------------------------------------------
  
  Spoiler alert for the anime Laughing Under The Clouds. This video contains flashing images and may induce seizures for those with epilepsy. Watch with earphones/headphones in a well-lit area for maximum viewing experience. Avoid viewing if you have a migraine or other headache-related ailments.
  
  Technical Information ------------------------------------------------------
  
  Software: Vegas Pro 16.0, Adobe Photoshop CS2
  Time Spent: Approximately 1 week
  Original Resolution: 1920x1080
  
  Comments -------------------------------------------------------------------
  
  Alternate title: Hope Of Morning
  Anime introduced to me by: UnicornTamer (elder sister)
  
  A tribute to a hidden gem of an anime. This video is my blood, sweat, and tears. Literally. I think I might have actually teared up at some point whilst making this.
  
  Lyrics -------------------------------------------------------------------------
  
  My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast
  Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
  The last mistake, the choice I made
  Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
  Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
  Nowhere to hide inside my mind
  I'm scared that you'll compare and I'll look a lifetime past repair
  I second guess myself to death, I re-solicit every step
  What if my words are meaningless? What if my heart's misleading this?
  I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
  Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company
  
  When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
  I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
  And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
  I will not be giving in tonight
  
  When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first,
  I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
  Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
  Like never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental health
  Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track
  I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
  Nowadays, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves
  Straight up made up epidemics, pass around prescription pills
  But my disorder can't be cured by a bottle, blade, or dose
  Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
  But I don't wanna let you see that, I don't want my friends to know
  Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
  
  When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
  I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
  And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
  I will not be giving in tonight
  
  Try as I might to keep it together
  Why is recovery taking forever?
  Fool the whole world, just until I get better
  I'm terrified I'll be faking forever (Faking forever)
  On and on, I wonder what went wrong inside my head
  I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did
  All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
  All the secrets silenced by the shame
  Don't make me say it
  Don't make me say it
  Don't make me say it
  Don't make me say it
  Don't make me say it
  Don't make me say it
  Don't make me say it
  
  When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
  I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
  And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
  I will not be giving in tonight
  
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