- @AimoAio 2012-03-26 15:23:41 The Pancake Games. :'D
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@Everyone
2012-03-14 11:36:00
I have ALREADY said in both my journal posts that I over reacted when I posted that journal and me admitting that is something that seems to be ignored.
But, one thing you seem to be doing is acting like you've never over reacted about anything ever when you've felt emotional and frustrated, even if it was something small. I'm only human.
Another thing, like I said I don't care about people not liking the video, as I've stated previously, I just wanted to edit out my emotions so I wasn't thinking of an actual concept or anything like that. Seriously, all this acting like I got upset because they didn't like my video, that wasn't the case. I accept everyone has their own opinion, it's only natural. I was just really upset lately. All that hurt me from Gote's post was him saying I used my friend's death as a defence to why the person didn't like my video or as an excuse to why people wouldn't like it. Seriously, that's what hurt me and made me feel worse. I never meant for my journal post to come across like that. I was just really upset. Like I also mentioned previously, I don't know how to speak to people and I also already apologised for any offence I caused so I hoped that would be that.
I'm not the type of person that likes to argue or speak anything like this, especially at a time like this and I feel like I'm coming across as this cold vindictive person when I'm really not. I try to avoid stuff like this because it's not what I want to do. Also, please leave Niwa and everyone alone, they were just defending my points just as you all defend Gote and his opinion. So, please can we just leave it? I've already apologised for any offence I caused and I've said I over reacted in that journal post. Please, can it just stop because I really don't want to talk like this any more, I really don't. I'm not this type of person. I don't know what I'm meant to tell you all to make you realise that when I've already tried. Again, I am really sorry. -
@Gote
2012-03-13 21:16:19
Everyone gets frustrated. I got frustrated.
You don't seem to, and will never understand how I feel and how I felt in that situation.
Like I did say in my journal, I probably did over react but it's called being emotional. To me, when I was editing that. I went to work, came home, edited. The same routine. I did not use his death as an excuse. You can say and think what you want, but to say something like that, you have no idea how much that hurt me.
I understand were you're coming from when you say what you're saying. Though, you're saying I'm a bad person for saying what I said in the post, but you're saying I used my friend's death as a defence to why a person didn't like my video, don't you think that is wrong?
I'm not going to sit and argue my points across to you because, you don't know me and you don't know anything about my friendship with Magnus. I have never experienced the death of a person I cared for so much in my life before, so I don't know how I'm meant to feel or what I'm meant to do. I just know it hurts and I'm frustrated.
Like I said, I probably over reacted but in the end, you don't know anything about how I feel and why that comment got to me and I don't think you will ever understand. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and of course I accept yours. My opinion on editing is that it's a hobby and perfection in my videos as long as I put my feelings into them isn't something that I focus on. Lets face it, nothing can ever be perfect.
I'm not going to reply to any more journals. I made a video for my friend who I miss every single day. I saw a quick comment for that video that got me frustrated. I came to vent in my journal, because that usually helps.
I won't bother doing that again though, because every time I do, people always think I'm wrong for feeling what I feel. So I give up, you win.
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@Gote
2012-03-13 19:39:38
so please stop using that defense
First of all, I like criticism and I welcome it. But, I was merely pointing out that when I was editing, I wasn't thinking of a 'concept' or about 'failing' or anything perfect like that. I NEVER. think of perfection when editing videos that have some form of importance to me, because if I stopped to do that and fix every little detail, it wouldn't be me just editing my emotions, it would be just another video. Why make a 'perfect' video when my emotions are far from perfect? The only reason I announced it on the org was because Magnus wanted me to announce videos more and so I did.
Don't you dare say I used it as an excuse that is the most insulting thing anyone could ever say. I would never do that. I am not that type of person. Nor would I ever feel obliged to make him something. Here is why I made that video, since you know, I'm coming across as cold.
Magnus loves Sigur Ros
I had a 6 hour VC with Magnus throughout which we discussed how much he loved Anohana and how the story was planned out, and how it ended.
We planned to make an Anohana collab.
I couldn't speak with people because they kept telling me how I should feel, so I really could bear it and couldn't accept that he was gone and I threw everything into that video.
I just thought, if you're going to leave that kind of comment on a dedication video you should at least leave your name or even think about it before you write it, it's not something I would do. I don't expect everyone to like my edits, in fact I don't expect anyone to like what I edit. I edit because I want to.
Also, the reason I got so annoyed was because some people are so insensitive about it. How would you feel if people who didn't even bother talking to you before kept coming to you saying they're sorry. Or, people who didn't even like your friend come to you and act like they were super close with them, that it's super hard for them and suddenly pretend to be your best friend because they want to know what happened? Or, tell you that what you're feeling is wrong and that you shouldn't be so upset? Or, even telling you, you shouldn't have used that anime because Bokura Ga Ita was his favourite? I'm just fed up with people just being that way. I'm fed up with being told how to feel and fake people.
Yeah, I probably shouldn't have reacted like that, but don't tell me I used my best friends death as an excuse or a defence to why that person didn't like my video. You have no idea how much that hurts me. Magnus was like a brother to me. I never felt like I had to make him something. I made him something because I felt like it was all I could do for him.
Sorry if my post offended you in any way, it wasn't my intention to do so. I was upset that all some people can see in videos is the technical side, that there is nothing more to a video than a concept.
Again, sorry if I offended you. -
@QC
2012-03-13 12:03:28
2012-03-12 19:04:25horrible song, tried to do a concept and it failed right away with your clip choices
Yes, because when I was making it I sat there there thinking: 'I NEED TO MAKE A PERFECT VIDEO EVERYONE WILL LOVE SO MUCH THAT IS SO PERFECT AND AMAZING.' Actually, no I was thinking about crap like that at all.
Sorry, my friend just died, I needed to vent, I wasn't thinking about a damn concept, I didn't think about 'failing' or whatever. I just needed to edit something. >_>
Oh, I forgot there are people out there who are so insensitive about everything and all they care about is a perfect dedication video.
Oh, I see you left no name. Nice. >_>
Jerk.
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