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--envision-- by theatre of tragedy
2002-03-23 03:36:52
he tries to see , although he can't
he tries , but doesn't understand
he calls on a different phone-line
no one that he knows
an out of focous acquaintance
speaking in a silent parlance
...remember me " , breaks the silence
a recurring line again
he's looking for something
can't see that he's stranded
he's just moving somewhere
he just can't stand this feeling no more
he feels the blood run through his vains
tries to get up , be young again
his face in the bathroom mirror
someone looks at him
his undisputed kind of self-love
weaker than it used to be like
...don't forget me " , breaks the silence
a different life begins
he's looking for something
can't see that he's stranded
he's just moving somewhere
he just can't stand this feeling no more
looks in the mirror , feels the snag
packs his bag and picks a map
...don't forget me " , seems inapt
he doesn't want to know
...don't forget me "
he's looking for something
can't see that he's stranded
he's just moving somewhere
he just can't stand this feeling no more
he's waiting for something
becoming a vision
he's just going somewhere
he just can't stand this feeling no more
- i got in too deep and i'm running out of oxygen 2002-03-22 10:06:57 how can you get love out of you...do you just cut your wrists and wach it flow out of you drop by drop? i just can't think of another way right now
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reunion days
2002-03-19 01:43:09
saturday 16/3
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after an 8 hour trip i finaly arrived in koropi (my hometown) at 5:00 in the morning . 5 hours later i was with psycho in the first bus to athens (who needs sleep anyway) . There i finaly got ghost in the shell in dvd (only had it in vhs) , about 20 spawn comics that were not in my collection and ofcourse the new purgatory:heartbreaker series . The rest of the day i spent with psycho playing metal gear and watching anime in his ps2 (it certainly got my mind off of things) . i even got to read "ultra gash inferno" a manga that was forbitten even in japan . i'm telling you it was the most sick thing i've ever seen . i loved it ^_^
sunday 17/3
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My great grandmother died today at the age of 90 . i went to the church just to look at the faces of the hypocrites . Relatives crying like they were going to miss her...i of all people knew that she was just an extra weight on their wallets...crying so that they can look good in the eyes of a god that excists only in their head and to some townspeople that can only judge others...hoping that they will not be judged . It was all so pathetic..."we pray to our lord to put her soul to rest and bless all those people that gave us money"...i hardly kept myself from laughing . Later on we went to the cemetary so that we could have her burried . So many familiar faces there...my grandfather that died 5 years ago , my friend costas who died 3 years ago at the age of 17...trying to find a better world inside this pile of shit and my cousins father...yeah i could see my cousin standing alone gazing at the crosses , i quess he misses his father...i miss him too , he was only 44 when he died and we were just little children...i can still see the day it happened...just me and tasos...when the phone ring i thought he didn't understand but he did...i guess we both try to burry things inside...definately a man deserving an afterlife (if there is such a thing)...may their souls rest to the hands of whatever god they believed in . for me ? they'll always live in my head and memories
monday 18/3
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i finaly met with all of my old friends today . we went to alleys and just got crazy with cars and later on we just drifted from bar to bar . they still look so much changed to me (not in the wrong way) or maybe i'm the one that has changed...anyway i'm glad i met em and i had lots of fun . i'll probably have even more over the next 6 days ^_^
tuesday 19/3
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i have a princess in my head
i have a princess in my heart
a princess i can neither touch nor hear
a princess i can't see...but i know is real
cause in the darkest times...i swear
i can reach out and catch her falling tears
cause she brings light to my world
cause i can picture her running around at her home
as i chase her...but i fall back and wake inside my own
and the light turns to darkness again
cause it is then i realise none of it was real
but in that dark hour...i swear
i can feel her touching my own tears
and there is light again
there is a princess in my head
there is a princess of my heart
i miss you - going home 2002-03-14 18:55:41 tomorrow i'm going back to athens . i'll get to see my old friends and psycho again and get to spent all that money i was saving for anime and video games . metal gear , evangelion perfect collection dvd box set and vampire hunter d : bloodlust are a few of the stuff i'll get . i should be probably shining from happyness right now but i know that by leaving here i will have to leave a big part of my heart behind as well . Anyway i'll just go have fun and come back and be whole again . till next time ^_^
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how much you mean to me
2002-03-12 16:16:09
By: TigerEye
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Theres something about you,
I don't know what it is,
But it makes me feel so good.
Maybe it's your smile, or the twinkle in your eye.
Or maybe it's the way you talk to me,
With such sincere and kindness.
I never met anyone quite like you.
I never thought i ever would.
But I'm glad I did.
Your friendship means more to me,
than anything else.
It means more than life, money, or family.
More than words can express.
I don't know what I'd do without you.
I don't know what I'd do, if you left me for good.
I don't know what I'd do,
If i never saw you again.
You mean everything to me,
And i just thought I should let you know,
How much you mean to me,
How much I love you.
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