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2006-05-28 03:23:43
I also have to say that I feel sometimes that I'm not special. People pay more attention to the other world and leave me behind of it. It hurts to make that happen.
Yes - I know I am making my feelings public but this is how I truely feel sometimes. There is nothing good really when it comes to this.
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T.T
2006-05-28 03:14:57
I feel hurt. Not only emotionally but physically with that also. I've been beaten up by girls and thrown around by them to a point of bleeding and the only thing that they do is laugh. Laugh at me and my stupidity for saying something.
My mom says their just flirting but if they hurt me then that means that they hate me. Theres no point into stopping such matter - I take myself into my own hands. This is a reason why I cut myself sometimes. Its because of all this pain and how girls have been treating me. Not only that but that I bleed. Bleed because of my spazzy ways. I have no purpose on this Earth. If I do - I'll only get hurt by the ones who I think who are my friends.
They think that Boys suck and for that - The girls are rational. They do not like me and they will do anything to hurt me.
Think about it - I am more emotional than your all when it comes to pain. It makes me cry whenever I am in pain.
Sometimes I think to myself should I commit suicide or not but I have not. I also say to myself that people are starting to hate me for who I am and I am afraid that they will neglect for who I am. Not only on the inside but on the outside.
But now - Things have started to die down. I still am emotional in some cases but nothing bad has happened.
Thank God.
And PLUS! I am thinking of a new AMV but it requires work and I am usually on Youtube alot so you can see my videos there.
And as always - Now since you know who I am inside - Dont hurt me, Please.
- Matt -
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2006-05-25 19:29:59
Speedcore Wit it. I must say that its the best gerne out there and I guess that means that it also means terror.
I want to say I'm sorry to everyone for not comming on for so long - I've been occupied with Youtube for a long time. I have my own. Search "Gargole" on Youtube to get my videos. LOL - I was once called Jessica Hilton who was 16 and was a female. LOL.
XD
- Matt -
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2006-05-15 17:15:36
Hey all... I am currently working on my own forum so I wont have much to an y time yo be here. And hey, AEtherBlue.
- Matt -
Schweetie
2006-05-10 21:30:40
:( Poor you. I am Christian myself and I pray. Although I dont go to Church as much I go there every Tuesday where I go to school. I'll pray for he/she as soon as I get bed. I wish the best for you over the obsticles in life.
- Matt
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