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Confusion
2003-07-31 14:59:46
Well I finally got two of my videos on the donut. That's something to be happy about. But now that I have nothing to do, it just gives me time to think and that's not really a good thing.
I'm actually starting to scare myself. I've been thinking about reality and how I stay away from it. I've just been thinking. What if everything that I'm seeing isn't real? What if I'm not real and this is all just a dream that someone is having? What happens when the person wakes up? Do I just die? What is death? How do we know that people don't actually die? What if we just choose to forget about them and they disappear in our own mind? Is there a God? What is heaven? What is hell? Does everyone have a destiny? Does everyone have a purpose in life?Why do people act the way they do? Why must people be so mean? Is there a reason why everything in my past happened? Did I just draw the short straw of the bunch? What if reincarnation is real? What if there really are people that have special abilities? How much time do I have left in life?
I really need to stop moving into deep thoughts. I think this could be bad for my health. But who knows? What if everything I believe is true and none of us are real? - Birthday 2003-07-25 11:39:32 Jeez...what a atart to my birthday. My computer repearedly shuts down on me and takes my new amv along for the ride. I swear I'll never get this thing done. Oh well. Another boring day alone is all that I see in my future. At least I'll have time to work on the vid. Hopefully, it'll be out soon. If the stupid program cooperates!!!!!
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