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Beware: Depression Level High. Be Advised
2003-08-04 08:16:54
This is a poem I wrote this morning as soon as I got to work. I put it on the site with the rest of my poetry but I thought I would share this one.
(If anyone would like to read my poetry you can go to www.trupoetry.com, and look under tyrone Jones. Last name first Aka Salvation's Curse)
What happens when you run out of answers? Answers for yourself, for the people around you, for the world?
What happens when you realize who you are is nothing more than an illusion. The same as life...nothing more than an empty moment in time, we all fight to make our own;
What happens when the tears won't come anymore. The tears you hated, and despised. The tears that make you weak. What happens when you want to cry so bad but you don't know how anymore;
What happens when everyhting inside of you dies. When you finally realize, in a dark corner of your room while watching late night cartoons, that one day you will die;
One day you will die, and nothing will exist for you anymore, except what is afterwards. Is it Buhdda, Jesus, Allah, or perhaps nothing at all;
What happens when the reality of your own mortality shakes you to the core, and the tremendous fear you feel begins to kill you a little bit at a time;
What happens when you look in the mirror, and the face there doesn't look back. You smile and it frowns, you cry and it laughs. When it truly begins to be someone else staring back at you;
What happens when your next door neighbors become your enemies, because of stupid actions by the government. Or you become there enemy, the lost of civilization swimming in the shallow depths of your eyes;
What happens when this describes your life? Simple. You are dead. No words will change that, no actions will take that back. You may still be walking around about your own merry way and you may still be talking, but the truth of the matter is, you are dead, and your body just doesn't know it yet.
Life is an illusion. This is all it is. When death overtakes us he will show us our lives and they will seem but a brief moment in time. an empty moment in time, where nothing matter, and everything matter all in the same breath. Something to think about for all of you.
I know I will be htinking about it until the time my body realizes the truth. -
Honorable recognition for today
2003-08-01 10:57:21
okay.....yestser day I downloaded two videos that I must admit were quite extraodinary in design. The first vide was a video done by premonition studios. The video was called anime cheerleading remix. This vide though graphically could have been better the concept was beautiful. Set to the short mix from the movie bring it on this was well put together indeed. The timing was beautiful and the use of certain scences was superb. My rating this video recieve an overall 7.25. For a video and a beat that will make you wanna dance find this video. trust me, I know. I had my co-workers laughing at me because the watched me dance to this video through the window on my door.
The next video I chose was also from premonition Studios. By a Sierra Lorne the video entittled elvis vs. anime was great. Whebn I saw this video I began to think about how much work must have actually went into this. imagin a cast of your favorite charaters seperated in their own boxes with a sixties fill doing their own little thing. From some dances, to some poses, with a few kicks, and a funny pommeling....this video hit the spot. Should you ever want a reason to listen to an elvis song this would be it. This song is definitely on the play list EVERYTIME I turn the ol' crystal ball and calculator on. Judges say.....8.50!
More honorable metions to come later.....Enjoy the shows that the creators have constructed for you....they work hard to make you happy....and in the words of my fav con....Fans come and go.....Fandom is forever! -
A word to the plague man....
2003-07-31 08:24:45
Confidence can be hard to come by because I have somewhat a similar problem. Herte is a solution. True you will never have the oppurtunity you spoke....unless of course you make it. Tried hanging around where she is inconspicously. Then when nobody's paying attention ask her if she can help you with something. Perhaps you want help pickin something out, or the game took your money...anything just think of something....you will never be totally alone, but this is better than nothing. When you are out of ear shot of majority of people ask her...just simple ask you know..."I asked you over her for a second to ask you...." But I will give you this warning first. If you have not done so already make sure she is not seeing anybody...I would hate for such a wrinkle to appear for you....try to find out somehting she likes and use this as common ground, but never let her know you have been secretly preparing to put the moves on her....and one more thing....pick a game that no one ever really plays....that is the game that should take your money.....get it?
GOOD LUCK AMIGO! -
Apologies
2003-07-30 12:54:43
Ladies and gentlemen....I have to apologize....I have not been a most considerate person in the past month. I have been enjoying the work of these great AMV creators and I have not been having the decency to at least commit and rate the videos but this post is to let you know that it will not happen again.
I declare that from now on whatever video I have veiwed I will comment on!
And also when ever the video is damn good I will give it honroably mentions when I make a post. So for my first honorable mentions....
(keep in mind I have downloaded these videos today)
Marduk productions who created to have lived and lost with hellsing material. I will say that this indeed is a video with honorable mentions in my book just because hellsing is now one of my favorite anime ever. They way the songs went together and how he painted a misleading picture was beautiful.
The next is When words fail by sporkster using Azumanga Daioh! Another great! Another fav anime as well. I must admit this video brought tears to my eyes because of the feelings that it drudged up about my life and friends. Bravo indeed.
You may be wonderedin why I did this. well before my comp went up I used to create videos as well. I used to spend day and night on them and I didn't have the luxury of a video card but I pluged on anyway. and the most important part was knowing that the fews fans I had aquired enjoyed the worked and gave my ideas on how to improve.....and you creators deserve the same thing.
rock on AMV creators....Rock on rioghteously! -
A new day....and no problems?!
2003-07-30 11:14:49
That's write ladies and gentlemen!.....No problems....I am loving it...::blinkuu:: well okay.....I lied....I do have a problem. This time it is real....it's not losing my job....its not death in the family...it's more serious than even that.....I...I.....I can't Find a reliable place to order the volumes of naruto ::echoes:: Oooo....hmmm.... Is that really a problem....you decide. Man I wish my aim worked....aw hell...I wish my comp worked....guess I shouldn't have bothered it after all.....::whips smoke of his face::
Ah well.....on to bigger and better things....and as my good friend all ways says.....
TO INFINITY.....AND BEYYONDD!!
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