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How to narrow down my choices
2008-03-13 07:02:26
It's a bad idea to make an AMV that you're not really interested in making.
It's also a bad idea to have no clear gameplan for implementing an AMV idea.
I need to pay attention to what I once said about 'Bustin: that I judge the worthiness of my concepts by their originality. Why should I make an AMV that a) looks/feels similar to others or b) someone else could easily have thought up? Unless I can make an AMV that's sooooo much better than its cousins, it just feels kind of like a waste of my time.
That said, struggling over which song to use for my Gankutsuou AMV has made it abundantly clear that I'm not in love with any of the three concepts I have for that project. Put another way, I'd BE in love with my concepts if I was sure I could pull them off. But I'm not, and I don't want to attempt a project unless I'm confident I can see them through. This is why "Jenova's Brat" was never made, I realized around the time "Sephiration Anxiety" crash landed on me that I didn't have what it took to make J.B. I could now...but I'd like to play around with something other than Advent Children for a change.
That said, it looks like I will not be making a Gankutsuou AMV in the near future. Instead, I'm going to redo my FF7FM "Relax" track and try to get that released in a hurry, then tackle an MOHS AMV (or two) that I've been wanting to make for quite some time and, listening to the music again, I'm pretty sure will turn out nicely. -
You'd better believe I did!!
2008-03-10 18:51:28
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
I'M GOING TO ANIME BOSTON AND SO IS MY AMV!!!!!!!
I've been waiting four years to say that. No, that's wrong. I have not been "waiting" at all. I have been scheming, plotting, planning, agonizing, struggling, fighting, clawing my way to this moment for over five years. But even that's not right. I've been doing all of that simply to CREATE an AMV. Last year this time I was fairly sure I would never be able to make an AMV, that it was something that - no matter how much I wanted - couldn't be accomplished - no matter how hard I tried.
But now I'm a finalist at Anime Boston. 0_o Within the space of eight months I managed to fulfill the New Year's resolution I made back in 2004 to finish an AMV and ENTER it in AB. And not only did I finish an AMV...I made two of the wretched little buggers and one of them GOT INTO THE FINALS. And not by accident, or by default... 'Bustin got there on its own merits.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D (etc.)
I'm going to go take a cold shower now. -
I'm just full of sharing, aren't I?
2008-03-10 09:21:47
Hrm, funny experience yesterday – I got offended when someone carded me while buying beer. The woman actually apologized when she discovered I’m nine years over the legal alcohol limit, saying “Oh, I’m sorry, you looked so young!” I was like “oh, that’s ok!” but what ran through my head was HEY, WHO ARE YOU CALLING YOUNG?? I’ve been waiting to be offended by people NOT carding me, so far it hasn’t happened (me taking offense, not them not carding me) and it looks like I’ve got quite a ways to go.
AMV:
Apparently I'll find out tomorrow night or Wednesday whether I fulfilled my four-year-old dream of making it to the finals at Anime Boston. That means at least one more night of not much sleep. Great!
More AMV:
Started pondering my next AMV project. The next big one, anyways, I think I am going to try and make my FF7FM "Relax" track into its own AMV since it really does need to be shared and it won't take me months and months of work to put together. That'll mean I'll definitely get another AMV released this year and that's good, even if it's not as splashy as the last one...I think it will still be something interesting.
Next big project targets Gankutsuou. It will definitely push the limits of my abilities, as with 'Bustin I'll be attempting things I don't know how to do (but have some small inkling, enough to try, anyways). The biggest obstacle at the moment is a) finding a CD with the song and b) if I can't find the song, deciding whether to ditch the entire project or go with an alternate song which is much more readily available.
*sigh* I am definitely going to need a new computer. -
Onwards and...onwards?
2008-03-09 12:37:17
Yesterday the screening for Anime Boston's AMV competition took place. Consequently, despite the fact that I've kind of given up on making it to the finals and am surpisingly calm about the whole situation, I had not one but TWO ... nightmares...I guess you could say...last night about getting confirmation that my AMV had made it to the finals. These were nightmares primarily because I was quite aware that they were not really happening and that this is possibly the closest I'll ever get to knowing what it feels like to get INTO the finals. And in each one of them, the "yay you got in" announcement was followed by an avalanche of criticism, negativity and general ill will towards me and my AMV.
Trying to analyze both dreams, I'd say that I'm still unconsciously strung out over the matter (for many, many reasons), I'm not calm about it at all, and my unhappiness with my own AMV is such that I see more bad about it than good and don't want to have to admit I made it in public.
Oh well! :P
Worst part of this vague dread that's building may be my sister (Genni, are you reading this? :D). She's actually said she'd like to attend the con - for no other reason than she wants to see the AMV competition (she used to be an anime hater, but AMV Hell 3 converted her, at least to AMVs) and check out "All the weird people." Good thing for her I'm not cosplaying this year, hmm?
Unfortunately, she puts a lot more faith in my AMVs than is warranted and likes to make all kinds of embarrassing statements about both them and my skills. The worst one is "You're so much better than the other editors because you're a graphic designer and they couldn't do this stuff."
Er...pardon me while I flee the country before the mob arrives to tar and feather someone.
Doesn't matter how many times I've tried to explain the situation, she seems to be of the opinion that I'm inherently better at making AMVs than 97% of everyone else because of my job. Yeah, I WISH. It's going to be 100x worse if I make it to the finals. Knowing my sister, she will stand up and yell "GO LAUREN, WOOOO!!" right after my AMV plays. Jeez...I don't wanna sit with HER!! :/
I guess that would be her way of getting back at me for flaunting my geekiness in front of her non-geek friends. Makes sense...and proves I really am a geek, otherwise I wouldn't be embarrassed by someone acting like a normal person. -
OMG, the poor puppy!!
2008-03-07 10:42:32
I didn't mean sacrifice, I meant give up. Corgi puppies are valuable little things, at least $1,000 per pup...and my dog is a much sought-after color, so if she ever had had puppies, they might have been worth even more.
So what I meant was that if my dog had had puppies I would have been giving away $1,000 to get into the finals at AB. @_@ Not as a bribe, just in terms of...its value to me (I loooove animals, so handing someone a puppy is a huge deal. And they'd have to really want it, understand the responsibilities of dog ownership - not to mention the peculiarities of corgis - and in general receive my stamp of approval as a good pet owner)
:/
ok, I totally screwed myself over on this one.
I once remarked that the most disruptive thing I could ever do at a con, given the general level of crazed disruption going on anyways, would be to whip out a corgi puppy that was the spitting image of Ein. I strongly suspect fangirls + an adorable corgi = a whole new level of insanity. And I think a lot of fanboys would join the mob. Probably scar the poor dog for life. No way I'd ever do such a thing, but in theory it's fun.
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