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2003-06-13 05:06:58
Everything is a lie
Nothing is real in my eyes
If I were to believe what I percieve to be
would be living a lie
But I choose this lie over the truth
I choose to live a lie
I choose to die as a lie
I choose to be empty as a lie
nothing is real un less I percieve it to be
Nothing is real period..
This is all a dream where warm things exist
This is a dream where everything should fade
within without and no longer..
do those words mean anything -
to live to die to fade to fly to die.. I don't care... just.. dunno..
2003-06-13 05:04:54
Won't someone just kill me already? I'm not worthy of life I'm not a person in other's eyes.. I'm watched as though I were a doll.. I'm like something that you watch on tv.. you watch as she fails and is slowly trying to make everything the same as that empty failure.. but she continues anyway,, because she needs to.. because she has to.. If she were to die.. everything would be too plain and simple.. but to live would be making everything worst and causing as much havoc as possible.............
The peaceful life... is better for everything.. this piece of chaos will never appear again.. this piece of insanity shall disappear as it was meant to in the first place.. this heart and soul.. is no longer needed..
I wish to fade.. I wish to be empty I wish to not feel.. I wish to run away.. alone.. No one needs me.. it would be so easy to.. It's best this way.. As it was in the first place.. -
*sighs*
2003-06-12 17:51:23
everyone's always taking me too seriously
^^"
RO!!!!!! WHy U THInK I aCTUaLLY MEAN THose THINGS?!
eh well.. no one understands me humor... eh well... - Kupo 2003-06-12 04:03:11 could I use U as a pillow? ^-^
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How long?
2003-06-12 00:57:27
how long till the skies awaken?
how long till the days words be spoken?
how long till the words are heard again..
This dream called reality
I've awakened to each day
This thing called life
I've been taught to love it
so many words to say
so much to do
but its all jes gay
who am I anyway to question ur words
who am I anyway to say whats absurd
I'm existing now for the self,and its true
its not for u but for me and pikachu
its wrong eh that I needed something to rhyme
but hey
I jes wasting ur time ^-^
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