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Sudden change! WTH? o.O
2007-04-10 21:37:51
Well found out that my grade in English is REALLY bad...Need to pull that up soon...=/ Or else I wont get this new hair style I have been dying for! Dx
Well in my last entry, I stated that my boyfriend was going to college, he still is but I relized that Im moving to North Carolina sometime after next year so there would already be a semi-long distance realationship...And the distance thing never really did work out for me. =/ I usually ended up leaving whoever for some other person or that person did that to me. -.-; Besides, we'll probally break up by then. *But I hope not though. o.o; *
And recently, I have been talking to a friend and we used to go out for sometime (Girl...And Im a girl...NO I AINT SOME LESBIAN! I was Bi back then...Now me ish straight...Or at least I thought I was. o.O ) but the broke up. Well anyway, we wernt friends for about a month or so (Maybe longer. Cant remener. To much studying. x.x) and we recently become friends again. Im glad were friends again because she is a nice/great/smart/funny/HOT person and the feelings she had for me are gone (Maybe...I dont know...She is going out with one of my friends..A GIRL!) but the weirdest thing is...I still have feelings for HER! WEIRD! >.O
I thought I was straight but I guess Im still Bi. xD ...Okay...Confession...I am still Bi but Im keeping it a sercert from my friends and everyone else I know IN REAL LIFE! Dont care if people know about it online. If my boyfriend finds out...Something bad will go down. o.o; But its still weird. >.<
Im not saying that I LOVE her or anything...I just have feelings for her still. I mean, COME ON! She is so smexy! <333 Since my BF doesnt know about this site...And neither does his friends...Im safe here...But if any of my friends find this and tell him...I'll be so dead...And so will that girl....To keep it at ease, I'll give her a nickname...Uhh...I'll call her...Kitty...I would call her foxy because he LOVES faxes but that sounds a little weird. Dont you think? xD
Anything else weird...Uhh...Nope...Not a thing...Well Im gunna wrap up this journal entry...Thanks for reading! =D
-Moe -
No! This cant be true!
2007-04-04 15:41:57
Hey guys,
Im in a venting mood right now. Its not for any bad things...Well...Bad for me...But not the evil stuff like bullys and this and that of what he/she did. Its not that. But its for those people who have someone dear to them. (I.E Boy/girlfriend, friends, family, ect)
Today, just around 8:00 Eastern Time, I found out that my boyfriend is going to Arizona for college. Now I know college is good and all, but its SO far away from me. =( I cant bere the fact that I am going to be alone once again when he does leave. Its like loosing a part of you. Ever have this happen to you? Than we share something in common.
See, the reason why I dont want him to leave is because when I was little, I was alone up till I met him. (Which was about 2 months ago. So about....14 years of being alone. =( ) He opened a door that was locked to me. He introduced me to his friends and I wasnt so alone anymore. So the past two months have been really important to my self-esteem. (I know what your thinking. Your thinking that I am Emo. I AM NOT! Goth yes but NOT emo. Even if they do have great hair. <3 )
The thought of him leaving will close that door he opened for me and I'll lose everything that I gained. I cant depend on my own "friends" (Not really) to do anything for me. (Stuck-ups. =/ ) So once he leaves, I'll be alone once again.
I want him to stay with me forever, but then I would be selfish when I really want is for him to be happy. And he'll be happy once he goes off to school. So its a win andlose situation. But the worst fear I have, is that since I wont be around to see him, he might cheat on me! T-T
Im in a real mess. Im sure we'll figure something out...But its driving me mad! D; Im gunna go make a sad AMV now...;-;
-Moe -
My life?
2007-04-02 20:42:57
Whats my life about?
Nothing really. All I do is go to school, go to my Boyfriends house for 3 hours *And what we do is none of your buisness. xD * do homework and make AMV's. Boring. I know. I would include being on Gaia most of the time but I quit that website for a month. I want to see if I can get a life within March 30- April 31. No one says I can do it. BUT I WILL! BWAHAHA!
Nothing else really to include in here...Uhh...Pizza? I got nothing. -_-;
-Moe
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