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2003-11-15 00:16:07
As i steped out of the car slowly i began to realize that my feet were still swolen from my boots. soon i began walking towards my front door, in which i barely was able to insert my keys into the door. finally inside the warmth of the room over took my body and made it feel completely utterly alive. my blood had aparently been frozen and now ever flowing...
hmmm wait maybe i should start from the begining of all this....REWIND!!!
As i started getting ready to go to the regis dance, i called soapi and told her i was comming over. so i was at soapi's and there was joel and james....all i can say is WOW...long time no see. they both walked us to the train, soapi being selfendulged as usual lolz(drama queen). we eventually got to lexington in which we waited for a VERY late laura. she came with her bf 'ken' and his best friend maxum, they were both really kool (ken really seems like ken lolz) and maxum was just kinda the odd one. really i guess the best way to describe them is to say, we met up with there friends in which consisted of the upper classmen and yet NOT! basically the type of ppl whp have all this cash in there bank(rich kids) and all the do is sit around and smoke up...FUCKING MORONS!!! sadly i envy there cash, but not there brains...what a waste.
We finally made it out of the freezing cold by draging laura with us to regis. when we got there it was about 8pm and kinda boring, so we chilled a while with the rocker ppl down stairs(basically the band), basically listening to music and getign our coats checked. eventually started dancing to alot of white ppl shit, which im sry for once i was too hispanic, that was just to dam white for me. eventually things started really heating up and i got my ass a dance partner...sorta lolz guys just 'appeared' lolz!! so danced a bit with this guy and eventually ditched him for my soda and the girlz(i coudl tell he was a hoe). after so many guys and so much soda, and such white music eventually we made a big line of grinding pplz which was funni cuz soapi was ALWAYS in the middle lolz, between me and laura. so kinda met soem guy named chris, kinda cuteish not sure on age, just kinda got his number and he has my celly lolz. eh got four other guys numbers, but gonna toss those away sry he got my attention.
After all that eventually went home, we met up with the rest of them again, and got followed by the cops which was soo dam annoying!my feet hurt, it was cold, my hair WAS pretty thank god for hit's hat or else my hair would really be shit looking(lolz tough girl look, who wouldnt resist the girl who stands out saying basically she has 'crule intentions' about u lolz), and i just got home its about 1am so whateverz lolz GOOD MORNING!!!!!! so anywayz im out to sleep and probably wake up tommorow afternoon, laterz
Simply Lilly -
The Sad and the Hopeless, the Lost and Confused
2003-11-03 20:24:37
multasking is one of the only things in life that is fast. most things in life never make sense and some do. now the question is why is there always soo much to choose from? old friends new friends they're all the same except for one thing...memories. persoanlly all my friends have a place in my heart but soemtimes its time to let go and be gone. theres this guy i once mentioned in here, basic idea is i have a thing for him, but noticing the circumstances i doubt its gonna happen. some ppl od on those thigns and really piss me off. i really wonder if he really cares for me or fi tis all his friends fault. love is a devil that must be fought, and life without such evil is non existing..
Simply Lilly -
love, hope, and new beginings
2003-10-12 17:07:10
I've never seen anything that has motivated me more than 'shakespear in love', 'dungens and dragons', 'down to you' and finaly 'four feathers'. they are so not alike and eyt have one main thing in common, love, friendship and the belief to be happi. sadly then all end up in tragity and all because of lies and jealousy. doesnt it eventually point out that lying is NEVER a good thing, but then again when u wanna save ur ass and really ur ass is the only important one, then u gotta.
After all the teen movies in the world u begin to realize theres WAYYY more then 10 things i hate about you! i wonder if its actually possible to fall in love with someone by only kissing them? lolz yep me and my most random thoughts ha~.~! life could never be better without me(yes a major ego)
laterz
simply me -
The Morning After, paula's second day...
2003-08-05 09:21:30
today i wake up to the shear thought of yesturday being a one night stand. as i watched one of my bests get ready to go to work, me no moving what so ever the thought hit me 'i just had a one night stand with my two best friends'.
ok let me bring this story back to the past, first off i'd like to say none of us are les. Audrey(she lives around the corner) has a bf for almost a year now that she loves, paula (now lives with me) is going through 'The fling of her life' with some guy with pigs tails lolz, and then theres me. o yes my life has been quiet strange since birth, but we arent going that far back now. -
10 years and counting...
2003-07-06 00:46:24
today was as usual one of the best days of my life, thanks to a best friend named audrey. for some odd reason we are drawn to each other not just as friends, but maybe lovers in a past life. her bf is kinda jealous of the fact that we are so close, but we dont care.
i dont completely understand why , but i have to admit that when u turn 16 u tend to think ALOT! time as usual travels very fast and sometimes wayyyy to slow. at age 16 i've realized that theres alot of things i never trully saw until i met all the friends i have now. its of the recent that i made such friends, and i dont know why but im drawn to them as a kitten to mice. for some reason we are all very close and its only been a short time.
today as one of the many realization days i've realized that there are some ppl that u can telland u can feel in ur heart that u will not see again for a very long time. then there are others u feel that u will always be close too. in 10 years what do u ask urself? u wonder about the future as in jobs, friends, family, love and so on. u kinda wonder what u would look like and how ur attitude would be. i once spoke to my other best friend soapi on the subject, basically stating the fact that we can sense that after high school we will no longer see one another. its undescribable but yet foreseen.
now truly what i see in my future:
i see a girl changed to a true woman of the golden heart. i no longer see hurt, pain and any other cruel features. after many years i see myself with a completely different aspeck of the world around em and everyone as such. my personallity will be very much altered and on top of that i would not entirely look the same. my features would be very mature and very serious with a slight childish streak. my hair will be back to its orginal color(no i hjave never dyed it, but ur hair changes all through life) a light brown with the same slight(really SLIGHT) golden streaks underneath all my hair. i see my body grown semi taller at a good weigh, healthy and not screaming as a immature brat.a simple and quite beauty of raven hair and loved her friends as her true family.
many would say they would be rich and powerful, i find that me myself would end up working for a job i decently loved and respected. most likely something keying into my past and with that something relaxing. soemthing like book publishing or maybe working in a magazine. or maybe writing stories and publishign others works.
i think my taste in art, music and all of sorts would be very much refined. of course i will still love my rock and manga books, but most likely i will have great interest in other feilds.
next i dont entirly see myself with children in 10yrs. i see myself maybe in a long term relationship of atleast a year with someone i truly love. im probably living with audrey in an apartment or a house of some sort in manhatin(yes i no very expenseive but i think we might make it). a beautifully simple house with some rooms of extreme coloring and decor, over all a house that when u get to seems so at peice.im a very tranqual person when it comes to how i live, im really pretty easy going in life. not like everythigns gonna be in its place...forever anyway hehe.
family- i dont see myself very close to my family. i've never been very close to them to begin with, but still i dont see myself calling them up to much. i dont entirely like my family tho itis very small in size. i see myself only speaking to my mother on oocasion, most likely to my sister every once in a while, maybe my brother and to see my nephew, and lastly my aunt cucha but thats all. my family was very close to me so in 10years i see myself alot having changed and them a little confused of such change.
my friends, i believe that we will be very close. considering none of my friends are very close with there families except maybe audrey, i see us all having x-mas at audrey and mines house. in one dream i had, i had a vision of my closest friends and i celebrating x-mas all together on x-mas eve. i seriously think byt the time im 26yrs old me and my friends will have grown soo close it would be like a family. well hopefully we all are.
and finally i hope wishes do come true because i have wished very much for soemthing and i hope it does happen. and all that i have written i wish it all coems ture for the shear fact that i think it will and it should. all in life u wish a majority of half will come true and please god let this come true.
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