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2002-03-13 15:54:12
Absolute: I don't know too much about the actual lit - all we're working on right now is Authunn and the Polar Bear, which is a cute story, but we're only halfway through it. Supposedly we get to do some violent epic towards the end of the semester...
Scooter: I think that most people can't stand their roommates. The secret to life is to live alone but with people nearby so that you can see them when you want to and leave them when you don't. It's even better if you have THE place people come to hang out at - full control over who comes and when =)
Right, on to studying the French Revolution! -
the tick tick booms in my head continue to sound..
2002-03-13 15:23:35
I can't drop norse. I want to, but I can't. I need too many upper level credits.
This is what they told me at advising today. I'm rather unhappy with this news, as I hate norse quite a bit. I've got so many things that I want to work on but can't because of school. Of course, those things won't pay my bills once school is over. I wish I could just win the lotto and be a student for life. *sigh* that would be far too easy.
So my schedule for next semester will be heavy again and looks to be consisting of:
The Decline of Britain after 1914
1950's Culture (Reading seminar)
Military History 1400-Napoleon (which may not be offered...more below)
Gay Philosophy (Hey, it fit my schedule and didn't have prereqs)
German Composition and Conversation I (also more info below)
National Security Forces in Contemporary American Society I (through the ROTC program...I guess they are good for something.)
As far as military history is concerned, I'll be foaming at the mouth if it's not offered - the professor's been offered a full professorship at the National War College, which is great for him, but bad for me - he's one of my favorite profs and the only one who teaches military anything through the history department in the entire fucking school.
German may be moved to the advance level depending on whether or not I get into Austria. I've got all the letters and transcripts now, time to hack out the essay and get my check made up.
I have an exam tomorrow in French Revolution, an exam Friday in German, an exam Monday in Nazi Europe, and an essay due Monday, again for German. Did I mention that I have to time LoGH 51-52 this week as well? And that I have a dubbing meeting scheduled for Sunday night? Yeah, like I know what the fuck I'm doing anymore. And spring break? What's "break" mean? That's when I have to go digging through the archives and libraries.
Shit, just realized that I have to do a bibliography for my writing seminar. I hate that fucking class. We had a library orientation on Tuesday (my fourth one since I started here. I now know how to use all the online resources just as well if not better than the library staff) and he kept interjecting and correcting the librarians on names and places and telling them where their collections were. What an ass! I *really* don't like him. The fact that he plugged his own PhD for me to read three times during my paper conference doesn't make me like him any more.
And norse....it's more about playing games with the symantics of the linguistics than producing anything workable or useable. I don't give two shits about what he drones about in class, and there's no benefit to me staying there other than it's 3 GPA wrecking credits if I get below an A.
I'm hating my roommate more and more by the day. Once a tiny crack starts in a relationship between two people (plutonic or otherwise) it grows into a rift very quickly, and the rift's becoming a canyon here. He's just not bright enough for me, plus he constantly has the TV on (tho headphones more often) and his phone rings nonstop with his 16 year old cybergirl from tennessee calling. He'd been hoping to go visit her over spring break, I hope he does. It gives me some time away from him, which I desperately need. He also uses my cookware without asking, doesn't put it away, and does a poor job of cleaning it....and uses metal forks and such on the nonstick pots and pans.
What's worse is that he has so few friends of his own that he feels the need to try and latch on to mine as well. He's been pestering one a lot and she's really getting pissed about it, today I mentioned that someone would be coming over to pick up CD's and it was as if he was gonna jump the guy and force him to sit down for a couple hours, and he's too fucking stupid to realize that this is not cool.
I'm not burnt out, but I am stressed out, and for once sugar isn't helping. Ranting isn't really either, but it at least lets me get SOMETHING off my chest. Of course, who reads it is unknown to me - I usually read BBT, KZ, Kusoyaro, Rae, Omni, Ze, Amidazi, and a couple other peoples' journals, but I've no fucking clue who reads mine. There's a couple thousand hits there so clearly someone does, but I never get replies or anything. This is especially annoying as right now, more than anything, i think i just need someone to tell me that things are going to be ok.........tick, tick...boom. -
These are the sounds in one man's head.
2002-03-11 10:27:01
As I prepare to embark on this year's Otakon submission, I have to wonder if it's really worth even trying anymore. Pyson said at Katsu that he wouldn't have voted to put either of the vids I'd sent there in the Otakon contest, which makes me wonder if I've even improved at all in the last year or so. It's not a pleasant feeling. TICK
Schoolwork is starting to pile up. Midterms are this week and next week, Spring Break is for research, and then I've got three 10-15 page papers that I get the joy of writing by May. TICK
I need to find an apartment. I need to find a one bedroom or efficiency. I want to beat the crap out of Eric. I can't stand living with someone that much stupider than I am anymore. It's one of the few things that I agree with which my mother said - you really can't stand living with people who aren't on your intellectual level. TICK
I have four episodes of LoGH to time, 2 amv's for the anipara project to make, my Otakon submission, and do all the editing on the TAS fandub by may 15th and haven't started any of it yet. TICK
Unless I run like hell I'm going to be late for class. BOOM -
This is just a phase, like girls and horses....
2002-03-04 17:10:04
I haven't written here in a while. This is a recurring thread in things.
Well, 2 of the Katsucon videos are online. There's the two short pieces that I did for the panel (one of which didn't show) and the things keeping me from putting them up only stop halfway at laziness.
The truth is, neither of these are very good. One of the vids will go over OK with people, but it's not great, and I know it's not great. I don't need people to tell me so.
Likewise, the other video is creatively nice, but some of the shittiest execution I've ever done, worse than my first video, and since it hasn't really been screened (it did go out on the Katsucon AMVs) I don't know if I really need to post it.
This is me whining and complaining.
For some good news on the AMV front, I have ordered the DVD for my next project, and it should be coming soon. Having to pay full price sucks, but getting the unfucked edition of this dvd is essential for the nature of the project. I'm hoping to work on this a lot over my spring break, but...
School really sucks this semester and I really need to reevaluate this real life thing. Time in general is flying (it's March already?) but my classes are all dragging so much. I'm really disappointed in my schedule, this has ended up being a "kill requirements nothing fun" kinda semester, which has led me to not enjoying most things. I've got two boring professors who read their pretyped lectures, another professor obsessed with changing consonants (which is a pity - his class on chivalry was damn fun), and another who has a fetish for topic sentences. At least my German teacher this semester is cool. That reminds me - must email her for a recommendation to go to Austria this summer....
*back*
So I've got lots of homework in things I really don't want to deal with, a paper due Thursday on british philosophers during the french revolution, a presentation wednesday on the holocaust, and midterms the two weeks following.
At least I get to go see Tommy on Saturday. I'm very much looking forward to that. Friday night I'm also getting to see a speaker on campus, and following that I'm going to be timing LoGH 49-50...or at least trying to get through as much of them as I can. Then I'll just have 51-54 to do and can hopefully get someone to bitchboy for me and do the prep work (putting who said what at the beginning of each line so that SSA will recognize the comment and my life timing is made simpler.)
In the meantime, I'm off to have dinner and finish another page on this vile paper. -
back to life, back to reality
2002-02-19 22:43:04
yup. the con's over. i won nothing, and don't even know how to describe the con. i'm glad i saw the people i saw and did the events i did.
classes are really sucking. i just have no motivation to go to them anymore. i actually ditched french revolution to come home and sleep for 90 minutes today. part of it is that my back's acting up again and part of it is that the sore throat i was starting to have before the con has gone nova and is now pretty full blown. i feel like i've been physically falling apart lately, and my mind's not in such good shape either - i'm drained and burnt out, not just on classes but on everything. i've read maybe 10 posts on hpforgrownups since the con's ended, haven't watched any anime, haven't really done much of anything.
i need a rest and i'm not going to be getting one for a long time.
"sunlight through the window
across from your bed
beauty - still can you see it?
What more can you want?
Is this real life?
Is this real life?
Heartbeats of your children
Asleep in the next room
Trust - so still can you hear it?
What more can you want?
Is this real life?
Is this real life?
Why do we seek out ecstasy in all the wrong places?
Why is it hard to see that heaven can have simpler faces...."
--tick, tick...BOOM!
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