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Alisha:
2003-11-10 12:40:18
I might be taking your advice after all, I'll explain later.
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Smiling
2003-11-09 11:52:29
I'm smiling right now, why you ask? Because I just read Alisha's journal.
^_^
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Reasons Why...
2003-11-07 14:08:07
The main reason why I haven't spoekn to Amy about my feelings is because she said to me that she wants no more relationships until university. She said this at a time when, even without saying, it was pretty obvious how my feelings were for her and, even though I'm pretty dense at this kind of thing (:P) I got the feeling she liked me too.
As I told my best friends one-by-one they started to hang around her more, y'know to see what she's like and stuff. I told 'Chelle first and she said yo me that:
"When you're there it's like there's no-one else there: she only looks at you."
When I told Francis He simply said that she's a good looking girl and nice too.
However, when I told Sam he said pretty much nothing, but then procceeded to spend every free moment he has with her. When I'm with them both I feel uncomfortable and so I come to the part of my journal where I have to say that I will not be taking you're advice (even though I WANT to very badly) Alisha: you see, even if me and Amy were going out Sam would not stop this...even though mostly everyone says that I'm more attractive than him, I'm certainly less secure.
Although today I got to talk to Amy Sam-less and there was still the same spark that I felt when I used to talk to her a hell of a lot more...the kind of feeling that makes me really smile wide!
thanks for your advice, if you think I shold still go through with it....please say so.
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Back Into The Shell
2003-11-06 14:46:10
I've noticed that i've started to go back to being my old self who keeps everything in, doesn't tell anyone how I feel kind of thing. Half the reason is because ever since I told sam that I fancy Amy he's always trying to spend time with her, I mean ALL the time and when it's just us three he takes centre stage and makes sure I barely get a word in.
Also, he keeps on at 'Chelle about how me, him and Francis have always been the best of friends, even though he's trying to steal-no that's the wrong word because me an Amy aren't going out-well, he's certainly making it hard for me to talk to her, let alone have any time with her.
God! I've felt like shit on and off so often since starting to fancy her, but when I talk to her and I don't get interupted or I don't say something stupid I feel so happy that we're at the very least friends...I wish it was more, even if was for a fleeting moment, maybe I should just come out with it to her...I mean 'Chelle found the courage to tell the guy she like(s/ed) so why can't I?
Well, half the reason is that I see her every day and a rejection is something I couldn't handle right now and the other half is that if we did go out, what if Sam didn't stop what he's doing now? I'm sure that he wouldn't...although it would give me an excuse to smack his face in. Damn, emotions conflict, thoughts fight against the winds of adolecents, intelligent buildings is where we gather every day. Why do I have this problem that doesn't exist?
Hmmm, I wonder what that means....
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To Alisha: Taking Time
2003-11-03 15:59:38
heheh :-)
didn't see that last bit coming ^_^
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