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*yaaaawn*
2004-02-03 16:47:01
today i woke up......i was bout to get a shower and then found out school was cancelled......
then i slept again and i woke up at 1.....then i cleaned the kitchen and watched the matrix reloaded...again.....and now...i just got done talking to my love.....the one i love....the only one.....grrrrr why does it have to be this way.....damn it...heh....she never loved me and never will...she doesnt even really like me....she just feels comfortable around me....i wasted my past few weeks....i know what it feels like now to love someone who does not love you back.....-_-' ......she wants me to get over it....she wants me to change......well.......one thing to say to her......FUCK YOU LUV! .....i'll die loving you or i'll be banished to be a demon eternally........probably the first cuz i dont believe in demons...i just wish i was one - grr 2004-02-02 19:16:44 i've been on effexor for a little over a week now......i feel my mind comming back to me.....i dont know if its good or not....my feelings about ashleigh havent changed....not one bit....and it saddens me....to know i can never be able to do anything for her........i feel like a ghost that hovers around her like an unstable guardian....that didnt help today though.....the person whom most aggravates me took her to his house today.....it worries me now......and i cant talk to her today....maybe tomorrow.....no...maybe not....i cant even roleplay right now......*sigh* damn the luck
- hmm 2003-10-06 18:17:37 wow its been a few months since i wrote in this heh...well i just finished uploading a vid....and i am getting strep throat...i dunno why.. damn.....so much stuff is going on...i have mixed feelings about a lot of people and things....its so weird ugh.......larissa wants me to stay a weekend with her one week...but as of now it will be a while before i can cuz of the accident last wednesday when i got totally smashed and..my parents found out...cuz i came home like that.....its sucks o well, i'll get over it
- confusing 2003-07-02 18:32:27 well, i broke up with my g/f 2 days ago, before i was gonna go to otakon with her....but now i am not so sure...i think it would just be very awkward...i'll probly end up not going, o well, this summer has sucked...i been gone most of it and haven't seen anyone, plus they took trigun off adult swim...replacing it with reign the conquerer..HOW CAN THEY DO THAT REIGN SUCKS!, o well i'll get over it,for anyone who reads this, hope your summer has been better than mine, bye fer now!
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