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ugh... school
2004-01-05 23:16:27
so yeah, had school today, that sucked... it wasn't so bad until I had to go on the bus... and then I wanted to shoot myself, because I could feel myself getting stupider and stupider... I hate them all XP My teachers did not hesitate to pile on the work... half of which I don't really plan on doing ^.^' I got an A+ on my Civics in Action project though (a 7 week project I did in 4 days, that I got REALLY stressed about)
Speaking of stress... if you've read any of my other entries, I may have mentioned how I am constantly stressed lately... and I don't really know why. It started with my Civics in Action project, but even once I completed it I was still stressed. So I figured it was because of the holiday, but even once that was over I was still really stressed out, possible more than before. So then I told myself "alright, it's because I have to do that stupid bio project" after 2 days and a total of 10 hours of work with my lab partner, it was finished, and the stress still hasn't ebbed, in fact, I think it's growing. So today, to my emberassment, I confronted my mother and told her about my problem, and asked her to make an appointment with my doctor. It was emberassing for me to tell her that I've been stressed... I dunno why. So I'm gonna go to the doctor soon, before Saturday. My parents are leaving for the caribbean on saturday, and my mother won't be returning until the 23rd.... sweet sweet FREEDOM! it's gonna roxor! then my dad is probably coming back sometime early february. I hope my doctor can help me, or refer me to someone who can, I want to not be stressed out =(
Talked to Sam on the phone for 2 hours tonight... which is funny, cause our conversations for the past month have been like... 30 minutes long, which made me sad... I thought maybe he didn't like me anymore =( but it was nice to talk for a while. then, at like 11:57 (my time) or something like that, he said "well, we've been talking for like, 2 hours, and I have a 6 page art paper to do... so I better go" I was about to say goodbye when someone knocked on my door. I opened it up and screamed. "AHHH! JASON!!!!! YAY!!!!!!" even though Jason has been back from college, and I saw him once or twice already, he's been away with his family in Florida for almost all of my vacation, so I haven't seen him much. Jason is like my brother from another mother... hehehe. But anyway, I screamed, and Sam was still on the phone, I think I scared him =P I also think I woke up my parents... o_O hahaha.
But I have skool tomorrow -_- ergh... and it's quarter after 12... I should probably go to bed... even though I took a 3 hour nap today... but I'm out of stuff to say... so.. I'm out! -
last night was fun, but tomorrow... school! x_x
2004-01-04 18:07:25
Last night, as you may remember me mentioning, Kayleigh slept over. (first she was gonna sleep over, but then she couldn't because her mom was cooking some special dinner so her mom wanted her to stay home, and then after dinner, she got in a big fight with her mom, so I didn't want her to be at home, so she slept over here) We watched like... half of the second season of Fushigi Yugi. We are such dorks about it too, we just kept saying "oh, I wish I had a boyfriend like Tamahome..." hahaha. yeah, so we stayed up till 2am watching Fushigi Yuugi. Then we were like "uh... we should probably go to bed" so we got all ready for bed and layed down... and then we talked until after 4am... I love it when Kayleigh sleeps over, cause right as we lay down, we always end up having really long meaningful conversations. We talk all the time, but when the lights are out, we can be completely serious and talk about suicide, and depression, and family, and boyfriends, and ex-boyfriends, and fights we are having with our other friends, and our futures, and it's really meaningful and deep conversation. I love it.
We woke up at like... 11:30 today o_O we played DDR and watched Bend it Like Beckham. (spelling) And I've decided, I'm going to move to Ireland, cause guys with Irish accents are hot =P *shudder* oh so sexy... hahahaha.
I am SOOOO not ready to go back to school x_X ergh... I'm not ready to pay attention for 85 minutes straight *cry* oh well, only 5 more days until the weekend... hahaha. Also, Only 2 more weeks until the semester is over, and then I get new classes. Next quarter I have 2 classes with Kayleigh (Spanish and English) 2 classes with Tony (Spanish and Advanced Topics) and a class with Chrissy (Advanced Topics) I'm also gonna try and get an independent study in painting, so I can paint a kick ass picture of Kurt Cobain for Sam, and I also have the urge to paint/draw a really good picture of a guitar... when I was babysitting the other night, after Kira was in bed, and before Allan came back, I was looking at James' guitar, and it was beautiful, I just had to start drawing it! The hard thing is... I'm gonna need to find someone willing to lend me their guitar for like... a week or so... and anyone I know with a guitar, probably isn't willing to give it up for that long... Well anyway, then in the 4th quarter of school, I'll still have Spanish and English and Topics, but I'm gonna have an independent study in Graphics probably at the same time Kayleigh has photography, meaning we'll be in the same class! w00t!
k, well enough rambling, tacos for dinner... I'm out -
Had the most amazing time last night... *ever*
2004-01-03 13:17:33
Oh man... and I thought last night would just be my normal one kid-sleepover-sixty-dollar-babysitting job... oh no... there was much more to come.
Ever Friday, my dad's friend Liz, has to be at work by 6:00pm, and she doesnt' get home till 3:00am. Her boyfriend, James, who lives with her, usually doesn't get home till 1:00 or sometime like that. Kira is the cutest little girl ever, she's 4 years old, and I babysit for her every Friday. I usually sleep in the guest bedroom, but Liz and James had a friend, Allan, visiting, so I could've either 1) slept in Kira's bed, or 2) slept on the couch... I love that couch ^_^ So anyway Allan got in around 12:00 or something, and we got to talking, it was really interesting, I love talking to people who are older than me. Then James came in about 30 minutes later. They were drinking, and I was not, we watched David Letterman, and Conan. Then I mentioned how I absolutely *love* Radiohead, and Allan says "wow you do? because my friend, Mark Mulcahey, is Thom York's major inspiration. After Thom heard a song of Mark's, his thoughts on music were changed a lot. You can hear it when they sing, since it's kinda similar. They also had a band together" So we went online and he brought up Mark's website (www.mezzotint.com) where I could download 4 of their songs, which I love! I'm thinking about buying some of the CDs ^_^ It was fun to stay up till all hours of the night, talking to James and Allan, they are really fun guys.
But... ugh, so tired o_O I had the HARDEST time falling asleep, Liz, James, and Allan were up talking till like, 4 in the morning, I probably fell asleep abour 2:30 3:00, Kira came up to me at like... 6 in the morning "Chelsea, I had another scary dream, can I sleep with you?" well... it's a big couch... why not... I couldn't get back to sleep. I may have gotten 30 minutes of sleep... Then Kira woke me up because she was hungry, so there was more babysitting. Liz didn't wake up till 12:30, I didn't wanna wake anyone up. then my dad came and picked me up... freedom!
Today is my brother's 20th birthday! w00t! Kayleigh is sleeping over tonight! I should probably take a nap first... my lab partner came over and we pretty much finished our game, which is called "The Super-Mega-Ultra-Fun Animal Game: The phylum chordata version (now featuring new and improved black void of death)" I came up with the name... haha, and I love it. we made the CUTEST little clay animal pieces, oh man, that was a lot of work, I made a duck, and a clown fish (like in Finding Nemo) and a turtle (also like in Finding Nemo!) I have to make another animal today, but I dunno what to make... *cry* I'm so overtired o_O School on Monday... carp... Kayleigh sleeping over tonight, sleep patterns will not return to normal... go to bed early on Sunday, that means no calling Sam... pooey, and I wanted to tell him all about Mark Mulcahey and Allan =( and how one of my very good friends is going out with a guy who broke my heart by lying to me more than I've ever been lied too, and abandoning me. but that's alright, I don't really care, I think he's changed... I hope... we're kinda friends now. And while I'm still mad at him for what he did to me... I could never forgive anyone for hurting one of my friends.
ok, well I have too much to say, so I'm just gonna stop now. I need a nap -_-zZ
I'm out -
Hello 2004
2004-01-01 18:47:24
Well, the new year is here, and that totally rhymed... I'll try not to do that again. No new years resolution... but that's only cause I couldn't think of one... maybe I'll come up with one in a couple days =P haha. Got home from babysitting around 10:30, as expected, and earned a nice $30 which was promptly spent tonight, when my brother and his friend Jesse took me to staples... that store is just... wonderful, it makes me happy it does. So what's in store for this year? Hopefully the completion of my music video... which has been in the works for about 6 months, but I haven't worked on it in like... 2... Since I reformatted my hard drive, I need to redownload all these files and stuff so that I can work again, guess I need to have Chris help me with that, he's the computer genious.
Anyway, 2004, what gives? Alright, so here's what I'm looking forward too... my 16th birthday in... *checks nift day-counter on watch* 54 days! eeks! I can't wait ^_^ 16, that's a good year.. I'll be able to drive! Hopefully I'll remember to sign up for PSATs next time they come around ^.^''' But I finally decided what I wanna do with my life, and that being art, I doubt that SATs are taken into an overload of consideration, but I still wanna take them in case I change my mind, and to prove to the world that I'm smart... even though everyone that matters already knows that... Also, Otakon 2004 this year! I can't believed I missed Otakon 2003! I was so mad! But hopefully this year we'll go! Chris, Chrissy, Jason, and I, maybe even Andrew (Sam's bro, my bro's best friends, lives in Montana) will be attending. Hopefully that is... we wanna do a Chrono Cross group, which would totally rock! Chris suggested I be Kidd... which was weird, considering she doesn't have much in the way of clothing... oh well, not like anyone's looking at me anyway... Alright, back on track. I'm also looking forward too... BOONDOCK SAINTS II!!!!! which I heard, comes out on All Saints Day (the name of the new movie is Boondock II All Saints day, so maybe they're trying to be clever) I can't wait to see it! and I hope all the rumors I've heard about when it's coming out are true. Anyway, I think that's all that's up for this year, who knows what new adventures await me!
As I mentioned before, I've decided to go into art, even though I totally suck at it. But I figured, I enjoy doing it, so if I put my mind to it, and practice a lot, then maybe I can get good enough to be accepted to a nice college ^_^ I'm hoping to attend this nice 10 month photography school near the Berkshires for my first year of college, and then going somewhere else, but I shall never leave the east coast! if I was away from the ocean... oh I don't know what I would do, I don't wanna go much farther than Maryland either... I asked my parents for a 35mm camera for my birthday... "I want a 35mm camera, it's already in my shopping cart at Amazon.com, it'll be about $200, it's my 16th birthday so ya gotta get me something cool!" parents: "that's a little to organized for us... but... alright" I'm also hoping for a 52x speed burner, because, my burner has been... to quote my brother "wonky" which is really pissing me off...
I totally splurged my money when I went to Staples today. I bought 250 business card thingers (ya know, print your own) so I can use them for cards on my board game project. I also spent 37-some-odd dollars on primacolor color pencils, cause I really wanna color that picture I drew, but I don't have any good pencils, so I splurged on some expensive professional ones... 48 pencils, nice ^_^ this pic is gonna kick so much ass! in fact, it's gonna kick it's own ass! I also bought my brother a 52x speed burner for his comp. It was only about $40, and his birthday is in *gasp* 2 days, he's gonna be 20 o_O so old!
I also started playing FFVII today... Has anyone else heard about FFVII-2? I read in GMR that it was announced, and that "all my favorite characters" we're going to be there, including Aeris (Aerith? Aeris? I like Aeris...) But I also know that they are coming out with FFVII: Children of the Advent, which is a movie... I'm hoping they aren't one in the same... I saw a trailer for the movie and... well it looked really cool. Well, I started playing FFVII today, this, I'm assuming, will be the end of me. I've never really gotten into video games, but I think this is gonna be it. it's interesting so far, I get a bit flustered in battles though, since attacks are time based. I'm not very far, I only played for about an hour, and I'm kinda slow, cause I was feeling it out, and this is my first RPG. I tried playing Zelda on Gameboy once... I forget what it was called... something with Wind... I dunno... you had to awake a Windfish I think? whatever, I couldn't do it, cause I suck =P but that was when I was like... 8... maybe now that I'm older, I might be able to do it, and I always have Chris and Chrissy to help me out (or if I'm desperate, I could call up Sam or Andrew... Sam hasn't beat it that I know of, but Andrew is a devout follower of FFVII and was Cloud when we went to the Otakon)
well, this is getting long. I'm out -
hobbies
2003-12-30 23:55:18
I hate the word "hobby" I don't know why... it just rally annoys me, but sometimes the use of it is unavoidable... anyway...
My new hobby is conspiracy theory... which would be, coming up with theories that everyone is against me. I swear to god... the world is lying to me, the whole fuckin world! *hiding in corner* no one can be trusted. Due to my newfound paranoia, I am seriously angered at one of my best friends... I will not say which. And until I find evidence to prove that they have not been deceiving me, then I shall remain angry. I've also sworn off guys for the time being... until someone proves me wrong. No guy is trustworthy... that's all I have to say. not saying I'm a lesbian or anything (and not like there's anything wrong with being one) but I've realized that everytime I fall in love I am either A) abandoned B) lied too, or C) a combination of A amd B. and every time I tell myself "hmm... he's different, he's a good guy, he won't hurt me" I'm naive. I give up, there is not one honest, trustworthy guy on the planet. "Maybe this world is another planet's Hell." -Aldous Huxley (read Brave New World, it's a really good book) to quote an excellent music video, The Definition of Trust... "Trust is a weakness, betrayal is the hidden blade" it's true ya know... if you have gained someone's trust, then you can rip apart their world with just a few words, if you desire too. Too bad I'm an honest person and won't take advantage of people like that...
back to hobbies. ugh, hate that word. I drew a totally awesome pic today! it soooo roxors my boxors! if I had boxers that is... which I don't... maybe I should get some... well anyway, this pic rocks, but I'm kinda upset, cause everything from the waist down looks like a ripoff of Rikku from FFX-2 which is not what I meant it to be. originally, it was going to be, a girl with a really short skirt, and some boots. then I thought "oh man, Rikku's boots for her thief outfit in FFX-2 are the coolest shoes in the entire world, this drawing has to have them!" then when I was thinking of stuff to add to the skirt I was like "hmm... she needs a belt, I like drawing belts with skirts... ooo, and a pouch, cause pouches are cool, and useful!" so that kinda sucks. But if I get off my lazy arse and borrow Paint Shop Pro 7 from my aunt so I can reinstall it, then I will definitly CG this drawing, or maybe I'll even try my hand with Adobe Photoshop 7, which I have on my comp, but don't feel compelled to use, cause I hate it with a passion. I think I may even write a story about it... I get really inspired when I'm super depressed/angry like I am right now... ^_^ hahaha, too bad I don't get inspired when good things happen to me... meh. so yeah, this pic rocks! I think it's the best drawing I've ever done *_* so I'm kinda happy about that.
The second part of Kayleigh's Christmas present finally came in the mail (did I say that in yesterday's entry?) well when I went to my aunts to work today, I picked it up (I get stuff shipped to her house, since I have a PO box) and she got back from Maine today ^_^ she got to go see her cousin Gillian's hockey tournament, and she asked her dad if I could come, but it was too far out of the way =( Gillian was really upset, lol. But anyway, Kayleigh's present, Season 2 of Fushigi Yugi, finally came, so hopefully we'll be able to get together and watch some if it before vacation is over, but I've completely lost count of the days, tomorrow I'm working, and then babysitting until 10:30, so plans for New Years Eve are out of the question, I dunno what I'm doing on the first... my lab partner is coming over again on the 2nd, and then there's only 2 more days of vacation left... sad =(
Wow... I really wanna CG my drawing... I actually WANT to Cg something... this is freaking me out... who knows how long this feeling may last? I better get PSP 7 from my aunt when I go to work tomorrow.
Anyway, I better stop ranting now... I'm out.
"I don't want to be reminded of how happy you made me, because then I may forgive you"
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