JOURNAL: Chirusea-chan (Chelsea Plumb)

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  • 90 minute delay 2005-03-02 07:45:26 mood: reflective
    music:

    Well, I just got back from Paris the other night, it was a lot of fun. I was there for pretty much my entire February break, and I was also there for my birthday ^_^ I went with my best friend Kate, and her mom, Abbie. We had a lot of fun, saw lots of sites, and did lots of shopping. We went to Johnny Depp's restaurant for dinner on my birthday (and 2 days after, again) it was the most amazing restaurant I've ever been to. I'm not gonna go into details of the trip, because they're not that interesting beyond what I've already said. Except, I did see a dog with dreads, and that was awesome.

    speaking of dreads, my friend Tad is dreading his hair, it's looking good so far, I can't wait till it's done! oh, and on my birthday, I got my hair cut, it looks really good! I've never had anything other than just straight hair before, but now it's all layered and prettyful.

    I have a 90 minute delay this morning thanks to snow, yay! I had one yesterday too, so, this has all been pretty awesome. So, in my time between waking up and having to actually start getting ready for school, I jumped on my muched-missed computer. I haven't listened to Eve 6 in a really long time, I liked them a lot a couple years ago, and I just haven't listened to them.

    Music is one of those things that I associate with past events in my life, like, I'll get really into a band or song, and listen to it a lot, so, if I dont' listen to them for a while, and then pick it up again, it reminds me of what was happening at that point in my life. Eve 6 was a weird time for me, I was a freshmen and very in love with a senior, who felt the same way about me, but said nothing could happen, because he was going into the air force in a couple months, and a bunch of other stuff, not to mention his parents would really object cause I was so much younger. His sister hated me too. one day she instant messaged me and said "stop calling my brother, he wont' be talking to you anytime soon" that really set me off, I was so upset. He had been kinda of distant lately, and that just finished it. I slowly learned that nearly everything he had ever told me was a lie, and that he was a jerk. I cried, but got over it surprisingly quickly. It was summer when most of this ended, and so I had a lot of time to reflect. Then Sam came back to visit for the first time since he moved, and we got together, and that was probably one of the greatest times of my life, or at least when I think I was happiest. actually, I think I have entries about that in the very beginning of my journal, probably like, my first entries or so. I remember Sam's friend Jamie instant messaging me for the first time, he wanted to talk to me, because of what was going on with me and Sam, we ended up becoming best friends, me and Jamie. Anyway, Jamie asked what kind of music I listened to, and I said a lot of things, and added Eve 6 somewhere in the mix, and he said he didn't like them. and that's the end of my Eve 6 memories. haha. wow, that was a lot to take in, lots of mixed emotions with Eve 6.

    I listen to it now, and I don't think of that other guy anymore, I don't think of what happened with me and Sam, I just feel this missing of a time when I was really naive and got hurt, but came out that much stronger, and that much more mature, and then was picked up by the person who would become the best friend I'd ever have. I also feel a twang of the complete bliss I had at that time, but I don't miss it, because, even though I'm not completely happy right now, I'm pretty close, and it's always good to have a little drama.

    wow, that's all. I'm gonna go back and read some old journal entries =P stir up some old emotions maybe. I'm out 
  • what goes up must come down 2005-02-01 21:51:42 Mood: confused and upset
    Music: Phish - Super Mario Brothers theme

    person A told person B that person A and I were going out. Person B happens to be a former love interest. I found out, and inquired to person A. They explained it, and it turned out to be a misunderstanding. Person C comes along, who's person B's best friend, and explains in very clear detail that it was impossible for it to be a misunderstanding. I don't trust person C, but they have nothing to gain from lying to me about this. that means, person A, who I've been slowly gaining trust for, which is a big thing for me, has lied to me. I'm going to talk to person D tomorrow, and talk myself out to them, person D can always make me feel better. Then I shall talk to person A and see what's going on, and if it's even worth keeping our friendship. I think I've been subconsciously looking for a reason to get out of this anyway, so maybe this is the perfect opportunity.

    my brother and I get along really well, and have, ever since his girlfriend dumped him (I just think she brings out qualities in him that I just don't care for, he's nicer when she's not around) but they're still friends, and she came over today -_- anyway, my brother and I have not gotten in a fight in a long time. today I was sitting in my room reading, he came in, started doing stuff, while his ex was in the bathroom, and I asked him to leave. he wouldn't, so I persisted. I was speaking in a loud tone within a few minutes, tiring of his attitude. he got mad at me for yelling at him, and now I'm a bitch because I had to yell at him to get out of my room when I already asked him several times. I'm not saying this is directly related to his ex, but I like to blame things on her.

    my mom never leaves my room when i ask her to, either. I have to password protect my computer now, because she is addicted to spider solitaire, and she doesn't have it on her computer.

    I'm angry!

    here are some good things to lighten to mood:
    -exams are over
    -new classes
    -clothing2 with megan
    -tony got his braces off
    -94 on my chem. study exam
    -english with mr. walsh
    -mulan 2 came out today
    -paris 20 days
    -birthday in 23 days
    -johnny depp is on the cover of rolling stone
    -big johnny depp article in rolling stone
    -I want to have wild sex with johnny depp (that might not be a good thing...)
    -dom monaghan article in rolling stone
    -I printed out some artwork of mine that I no longer have the original copies of, and since i used my printer, the printouts are better than the originals

    alright, stuff doesn't suck as much now. wait... I'm still mad at person A though. jerk!

    I'm out 
  • stuff stuff 2005-01-20 21:13:43 mood: loved and happy
    music: frou frou - it's good to be in love

    hmm, I was just lookin for some new music videos to download, and it's really sad that there are so many music videos that use songs by frou frou, but there are relaly only like... 3 songs, and it's all becasue of the publicity they have. Must Be Dreaming is one of the songs (c'mon people, you can't say that you didn't get into that song from Koop's Euphoria video), Let Go (featured in Garden State, EXCELLENT movie!), and Holding Out for a Hero (Shrek 2) I haven't been around the org in a while since my old computer really sucked at playing videos, but I think I'm gonna try and get back into it, my new computer doesn't suck (yet that is =P)

    As stated in my last journal entry, I'm having so much fun living right now! I mean, sure, my grades are just under my standards (ew, 70's in Chem and Spanish 4 x_X) but other than that, no complaints. My brother's best friend just moved back to New England from Montana (he's Sam's brother) and it was sooooo much fun to hang out with him again! we went to the mall last weekend, it was awesome. It was fun to reconnect with him, it was a total blast from the past.

    Tomorrow is Battle of the Bands at school, I can't wait to go! I even took the night off babysitting for it. Something makes me think Keith is involved in one of the bands, somehow, but I dunno how. And my friend Peter is in one of them too (Peter Brown and The Midnight Sound, woot!) Then me and the gang are going to spend hte night at Kate's house (as usual, it's just the weekend tradition now! go out, sleep at Kate's) I probably won't go till later though so I can spend some time with Keith =)

    I'm in like with him, very very much in like with him. maybe in love (I fight myself to not say it, I hate saying it, the "L" word.) it's sad how I have to fight myself to keep from saying it, it just seems like it would roll off my tongue so easily, but I always misuse it, and it's been misused towards me, so therefore, I don't. I've almost said it to him so many times, good thing I catch myself, don't wanna make any stupid mistakes o_O But we're having fun, we even had a good (yet unplanned and surprising) discussion about what we are and aren't, and what we're doing together. Yeah, I'm really enjoying myself, spending time with Keith, he makes me feel good.

    Maybe the reason I wasn't happy before was because I lacked a significant other, and I was clinging to someone I had lost (of course I would never admit it at the time, and still deny it.)

    -exams on monday! ack! o_O scary!
    -I stayed home sick today, that sucked
    -I'm going to Paris for feb. vacation, I'm going with Kate and her mom, we're gonna be there for my birthday! we're gonna go to Johnny Depp's restaurant! woot!

    I'm out! 
  • revelations 2004-12-30 01:40:33 mood: content with life
    music: Opinion - Nirvana

    Someday I'm gonna stop being a bum and I'll actually do stuff. I've been busy, to busy for myself, but not too busy for everyone else. Lately the activites that seem to take up the majority of my day are babysitting ("working" days) and hanging out at Kate's (every day, except, for now, cause she's away, but I go to her house anyway to feed her cats) I also hang out with my brother a lot, which is fun, especially cause I don't have to leave the house.

    Christmas was cool, my brother gave me a $75 gift certficate to FYE, which rocked my socks, I bought Blow, The Bourne Supremacy, Donnie Brasco, and Spider-man 2. I also recently bought Don Juan Demarco, Garden State, and Napoleon Dynamite. For Christmas I got Moulin Rouge and Fight Club.

    Tony, Kate, Megan, and I all hung out at Megan's the other weekend and had a Johnny Depp marathon, I love him. I'm still trying to buy a Widescreen version of Edward Scissorhands, and a copy of Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, but I have succesfully purchased 3 Johnny Depp movies in the last couple of days (Blow, Donnie Brasco, and Don Juan Demarco) Kate got me addicted to blow *snicker*

    I just finished watching Garden State, what an amazing movie. If you haven't seen it, go see it! now!

    So, I've had a series of crappy times driving in the snow the past week. It's not the actual driving that I suck at, it's things that are related to driving. For instance, the heat in my car doesn't work, so... uh... frost was forming on the inside of my windshield, and I had to scrape it off with my fingers to see where I was going... yeah, definitly almost got into an accident. WHO THE HELL JUST STOPS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD?! Then I couldn't open Kate's door when I got to her house -_- I was getting very stressed. Yesterday I got my car stuck at the bottom of my driveway and had to have my dad tow me out of a "ditch" thing on the side of the driveway, took off a miniscule piece of my bumper, I laughed.

    So, after looking at the "mood" section of my last couple of journal entries, and thinking about the last couple months, I've realized I'm actually quite content with my life. I mean, there's a bad day every now and then (almost accident + can't get Kate's door open + being late for babysitting) but c'mon, that's not life, that's a couple hours. I've got great friends that love me, I'm really close with my brother, my dad has been my hero 2 days in a row, I've got the kind of relationship that's totally care-free and non-commited with a guy that I'm having a really fun time with (not like that you sickos), and I got a 1330 on my SATs. I feel like I can do anything.

    I honestly don't know when I just became so completely content with my life, and what's best, I'm not medicated. I can fall asleep at night without a problem, I'm not nervous, and I'm quite obviously not depressed. What could be the reason for this new outlook and feeling about the way I live? Is it because I'm actually out doing things now? Is it because I'm making money? because I feel somewhat fulfilled now that I'm in a semi-relationship that's just what I want? who knows, but then again, who cares? I'm completely content, and it's the most euphoric feeling ever.

    Here are some goals I have for the new year:
    -Get into Maine College of Art summer program
    -Make a great music video with my brother (we're planning we are!)
    -eat healthy (yeah, vegetables, they're growing on me)
    -work harder in school (especially in Spanish and Chem. study)
    -reconnect with Kayleigh, my best friend, who I've just grown apart from in the last couple months
    -stop talking about my guitar and just play
    -build a kickass portfolio that will completely blow Rhode Island School of Design right out of the water, so they'll accept me when I graduate in 2006!

    being content is good. I'm out 
  • haven't written in a while 2004-11-14 15:27:57 mood: happy =)
    music: Danny Elfman - What's This (from the Nightmare Before Christmas)

    hmm, I really haven't written in a while. well, let's see, what' been going on lately. I just finished exams for this quarter, 80 on Spanihs, 87 on Chem Study, and I'm sure the other two were over 90's, since they were Advanced Design and Gym.

    I just got home from Boston, I took the train up there early in the morning on Saturday with Lily, a semi-friend from school, so that we could visit our mutual friend Brian at college (Brandeis) Lily's a little to mature and proper for my taste, but she's not too bad. She didn't stay too long either, she had to take the 6:40 train home, but I spent the night. I didn't get into too much trouble ^_~ It was a lot of fun, and definitly something I won't soon forget, there were a lot of firsts last night. I'm not gonna go into detail though.

    hmm... what else... lately I've kinda been seeing this guy Keith, he's pretty nice, but he's really anti-social. He says he hasnt' asked me out yet cause he's afraid of commitment since he's had some bad previous relationships, which is fine with me, cause so am I. I'm not even sure I'd say yes though if he did, because he's really antisocial. There was no school on thursday (thanks veterans!) so I had a bunch of friends over on Wednesday night for movie, pizza, fun stuff. I had Kate, Kayleigh, Tony, Sara, and Keith. But Keith really seperated himself from the group and I thought it was kinda rude. it's like... if you're gonna be like that, just don't come. Whatever.

    Tonight I'm going to my favorite resteraunt for my cousin's birthday dinner ^_^ even though his birthday was on Tuesday, he's 17 now. Yesterday was my friend Kate's 16th, and Monday is Keith's... 18th maybe? maybe 17th... I dunno. So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!

    Alright, I guess that's it. I'm out 
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