JOURNAL:
nickoho (Nick Curry)
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......surrounded by tears and loneliness......
2005-02-19 08:44:40
.....the title says it all. im so utterly and completely lonely i've got lots of stuff happening which is leaving me little to no time for a social life. im either at uni, work, or sleeping (/thinking about my miserable life). like daggers in my heart im getting ripped apart every day. i see and hear about friends and stuff with their gf/bf's and it tears me apart, im happy for them, it just shows me what i haven't got, and every time i see it happen i die a little bit more. for the last 8 or so years i have been the same, i put other peoples happiness above my own, i cant stand to see another person suffer, when i do i strive to take away their pain. neglecting my own it bottles up. i dont know why i do this, i help and listen to other peoples problems but no1 gives me the same privelage.
bit by bit im dying, every day sealing myself into a life of lonieness, i act all cheery but im just bottling it up. to have an outlet to burst is all i want. and it's not as tho my life is going a great way. im doing fine at work and at uni. but people keep dying and any chance of fixing my self and sorting my s*** out get belittled and vanishes. im 18 and have seen 6 deaths in 4 years. im emotionally crippled and in turn i have trouble conversing with ppl. if only somehow i could crack the safe locking me up and move out into the world of happyness..... unfortunately theres no1 outside to welcome me except for superficial friends........
sorry to depress everyone if anyone actually read this but what u feel is only a fraction of what im feeling.
and if anyone cares i havent given up on my previous AMV idea, ive just been bogged down from work/uni etc. once ive gotten further in i might give out some details. dont expect anything too soon tho. ive got personal things ive got to overcome.
thanks to anyone who read what i had to say, that in itself makes me feel that little bit better.
cheers
- Nick
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New Music Video
2004-10-26 09:34:36
well i dont know if anyone cares, but im going to post this anywho, coz i never know whether this will end up being successful or not. bottom line i am making a new music video, and the anime and the song are two tings that arent used very often, which is good, because it will be easier to contend amongst a widely un-explored genre. i'm not going to say the anime or song, because i havent started it yet, and i havent got the entire series yet. none-the-less it will be action/serious, and there may be a hint of romance in it, but ill cross that bridge when i get there. i will update as progress continues, and at about 25% i will see how well it is coming along, and at 50% i will add it to the archive.
i hope you look forward to watching it as much as i do to making it
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Common Curtisy
2004-07-30 07:44:31
i don't know if i spelled that right, but no matter i know what it means. anyway as i was going to say is my video (Naruto - Lost Prophets - Last Train Home, nickoho) have been out for about 1 month and a few weeks so far i've had 277 hits and the only opinion left was by my mate. i must say im very disappointed. granted i dont dowload many music vids, particularly if they are local coz my dl manager doesn't work with that. but when i do.......I LEAVE AN OPINION!!!!!!!!!
"do unto others as you want them to do unto you" - Somewhere in the bible i think
so please if u have downloaded my video and have watched it a few time PLEASE go back to it and leave an opinion i would extremely appretiate it.
cheers~
nickoho~
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my video/s
2004-06-25 05:35:42
ok i know i only have one video and people have been downloading it and rating it, which i greatly appretiate. however if u don't like my video, or if u do, TELL ME!!!! leave an opinion, what you liked about it and stuff. and if u hated it tell me what was wrong so i can keep it in mind for my next video. please, please, please, please, please, please, PLEEEAAASSEEE!!!!!!! LEAVE OPINIONS!!!!.
ta
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First time's a charm...
2004-06-24 08:16:48
well as the title suggest my first entry, and theres quite a few things i feel i need to say:
1: i like holidays
2: after a while the novelty of holidays wears off
3: im bored
and 4: NARUTO & SAMURAI CHAMPLOO ROCK!!!!!
yes that my first half a cent still got 1 and half left. :P
now recently ive been told about an awesome ass anime called 'Samurai Champloo'. Basically the story follows Mugen and Jin and 'Chick whose name i cant remember' on their journey to find the samurai who smells like sunflowers, as the chicks spectacular description goes. so far i beleive there are 4 episodes out and i have 2 of them. (side note: after two episodes had been aired this had been licensed, always a good sign) now despite the fact that downloading licensed anime is wrong i will continue so long as fansubber keep subbing it. WHY? for two reasons.
1: there are some things in this life that are wrong, piracy is one of them, however amongst this there is murder, rape, footballers being pimple fuckers, and Osama Bin Laden, lets focus on the real issue shall we.
2: i haven't got any money :S
so check this fella out go to www.samuraichamploo.com, the officia site to download a trailer, and www.gotwoot.net, to download it via BitTorrent, and www.naruto55.com to download episode 2 direct.
nextly there is another anime which im sure everyone has heard about that crazy ninja anime 'Naruto'. i've only recently tapped into this one as of roughly 3-4 months ago, and i am at about episode 49, (im on 56k btw). absolutely amazing is all that can be said about this one. ummm.... the storyline is pretty much Uzumaki Naruto's quest on become Hokage, the highest ninja rank there is, and...........yeh, its awesome download it, it's not licensed yet which is always good, but dont take that to mean that its crap, i am absolutely shocked that no-one has taken it up yet. 88 episodes and going strong. all of it can downloaded from www.narutochaos.com, they have every episode available via BitTorrent/Direct, and every Manga chapter/volume whatever (haven't got ot that yet), available. get it while they are hosting it, otherwise get it from eMule or Kazaa.
thirdly.........or forthly, possibly secondly..........aww who cares. teh number that follows what i just said. im desperately in love. oh yeh thats right im not gonna hide it (i wont be naming names for privacy sakes), but i love her with all my heart. everything about her is perfect, eyes, hair, skin, legs, other features that will be left out once again but for different reasons :P. but the problem is i am 99.9999999% sure she doesnt feel the same way and now i think i've lost my chance if i ever had one. so im in a state of weird, mixed feelings of whether to find a way or move on, plus she is way too hot for me, and way above my calibur. *sigh* nothing like the pain of losing the one u love.
oh well love wounds recover in time although i wish wouldn't have to bear it i cant avoid it. well thats my two cents, although i think that may have been more, reguardless. thats it
bye bye
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