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SSDD
2004-02-22 15:34:50
Same Shit Different Day. A Motto To Live By.
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Life
2004-02-19 12:28:07
You know I am having seizures, cant remember things and am totally lost.. I hate illness I hate sickness.. I dont know whats going on with my body and it sucks..
Everyone says i should just admit myself to the hospital and the dr would do it if I just tell her to but i know that if you go in with Epilepsy and seizures you stay for a extended period of time for observation and i just dont want to do that..
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OMFG
2004-02-17 13:26:12
IM SO HAPPY.. I just got 6th row tickets to see SARAH MCLACHLAN!!!!!!!! omg...
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My life as a Adult Robot
2004-02-15 11:25:13
Thats what I am, :) I do the same things daily...I have this obsession with cleaning my house.. so thats my plan for today, I think im trying to live up to others expectations, when i havent really set forth any expectations of my own.. But alas, all is good.. No more seizures so the increase in meds is working for me, Im feeling relatively good. which is totally not like me.. I got a beautiful Utena Soundtrack and Utena Wallscroll from MJ for Valentines day.. Its rox mucho... Thank you so much for it Mi Liel.. You are too sweet. I am far too lucky in my life at times.. See you on the 5th hun, im sure we will have a great time at Disneyworld and Universal...
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Life is okay
2004-02-11 16:20:08
Well Life is good, my health is not. The side effects of this dilantin for my epilipsy is like hellish.. Makes me all groggy and uncomfortable like. I'll be okay it just takes like 2 weeks for you to get used to the side effects. :/ i had another siezure.. So she increased the dosage of it also. Sigh. I wish I just felt better.. Ive done so much, been through so much and I cant ever seem to feel better.. Who cares if im skinny, who cares if I wont get diabetes, or have a heart attack from being obese.. Where is my life.. Where is MY LIFE :/
Kim my best friend is like, You look so great, you have come so far dont give up now... I wont give up.. I just hate medicines, and seizures and i hate food.. Makes me uncomfortable too... If anyone out there reads this.. And is considering gastric bypass surgery to beat your obesity.. EMAIL me, i will give you a honest, down to earth opinion of what this surgery has done to me... There are pro's and Cons.. Sure I wear a Xtra Small now, Sure Im 120lbs, sure Im healthier in the aspect that i wont die from diabetes or a heart attack from being overweight.. I dont have to be so self conscious when im out in public, people dont stare at me anymore for being fat.. But you know what.. I would love to sit down and eat food without being uncomfortable, I would love to do alot of things, that this surgery restricts me from doing... Sure I had a tummy tuck, Sure I wear smaller clothes but you know what, Im still a fat person, in a little persons body, I dont think you ever ever stop being fat mentally.. Thats just a word from me. I look at my ass.. its huge.. I look at my hips they are huge.. I still see 300lbs worth of tutter when i look in the mirror sometimes.. and im not anorexic or anything like that, its just Ive been overweight for 25 years up until 2002 and 25 years of body image issues dont dissolve even if you lose weight, and even if you are normal, and WTF is normal anyhow.. Im venting.. My health is such sad shape right now.. I had to get it out.. I gotta clean my house or something.. I need to release some pent up anger.. I need to break stuff
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