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F is for Facepalming
2008-10-26 19:46:45
We totally need a third day in our weekend. >_>
Ugh. I suppose I'm not as hacked off as I have been the last few days, however, I'm still in a horrible mood, and I don't know how long it's going to last. However, it's starting to wear on my optimism, which is really bad. Especially considering that this week is important. It's my second batch of exams. 2 cound for 20% of my grade, and the other counts for 30% of my grade. What's worse is that I'm group leader for my final project in Film class, and we have our first meeting this Friday. I hope my mood is better or I'm probably just going to bite their heads off and be a jerk. And I hate being a jerk. >__>
I'm pretty sure that this all stemmed from the fact that I'm just a idiot. I've been too idealistic my entire life. Now's the time for me to be realistic about some things. Not everything mind you. I still totally plan to be idealistic about the world and people. But I recieved a good bit of advice from a really intelligent person. I shouldn't have "dreams" per se... I should set myself goals instead. Because while it's nice to dream, it's not necessarily the brighest thing to do. You set yourself up for failure, and a big failure at that.
But I'm still irked at myself. Because I just heard my voice for the first time on recorded audio, and I never realized how I sounded before. Needless to say, I'm now embarassed. >_> I never realized how stupid I sounded.... What's worse is that I gave a fecking speech at my high school Graduation. 2 speeches in fact! Gahd... How embarrassing. -____________-
I meet my academic advisor on November 3. Hopefully I'll get some good classes next semester. I'm sure I'm going to be taking an unfortunete science/lab class. And I hate science. -____________________- Soooooooooooooooooooooo much.
You'll have to excuse me now. More facepalming needs to come tonight. >___> - P is for Pissed Again 2008-10-25 18:11:04 Let me elaborate just a bit. My VERY pissy mood contiunes, and I'm pretty sure I'm on the verge of destroying something very valuable and expensive within the hour.
- P is for Pissed 2008-10-25 18:09:49 My pissy mood continues.
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E is for Emo
2008-10-24 11:53:55
Blah. Last journal was really emo.
Because I'm in a friggin emo mood. =|
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S is for Sad
2008-10-23 23:44:27
I've realized what a clown I am. A foolish idiot deserving of a big red nose.
I doubt I'll be able to find happiness. I'm too weak to even look for it. =|
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