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Grr.
2003-02-23 08:08:10
HTML tags don't work. Grr. Oh, well. I'll try the forum tags next time... But anyways, KaZaA is evil. I downloaded the newer version, it screwed up, uninstalled that, installed the older version, kept screwing up, went through almost all of the files on my computer, KaZaA is now gone, stayed up four hours later than I normally do, woke up really late. Well, late for me, anyways. Not fun. Gah...
Jon's 16 now. Hooray! And next week I get to go see my "sister" Adriana. She's getting married! (For the second time.) She's not biologically my sibling, but my parents are her "American parents" because she is from Brazil, and we look after her. That and she is just really close to our family.
I had a weird dream last night. Something about there being two schools; one in the U.S., one waaay down in South America. My friends were split between the two schools, so it was really weird. Then my dad took me from the southern one and brought me up north, where there was this humongous trout fish, and it was all just really weird. I guess I was unconsciously thinking of last night when Chris and I thought about moving to Iceland, and having a pet trout named Chippy that is Republican. (Long story. Don't ask.) -
Just a few things.
2003-02-22 13:52:46
Here is an e-mail my parents sent me that lists things to remember:
The value of time.
The success of perseverance.
The pleasure of working.
The dignity of simplicity.
The worth of character.
The power of kindness.
The influence of example.
The obligation of duty.
The widom of economy.
The virtue of patience.
The improvement of talent.
The joy of originating.
I found that interesting. Also, I remembered something randomly today. Once my mom took me to the grocery store when I was in sixth grade. She let me put some Archie comics in our cart. When we went to go check out, the guy at the cash register (probably in his older teens, whereas I was only 10 or 11) made some comment about it. I didn't say anything, but just looked at him. I don't know what it did, but it did something to make him say something like, "Uh, it's okay, though, I used to read comics... Superman, Batman, that kinda stuff..." The two black girls, both about the same age as him, that were bagging the food just told me to not mind him. Then he saw the chocolate ice cream we had bought and said, "What? Chocolate? They have a billion flavors and you chose <i>chocolate?</i>" My mom just grinned, and the girls said to him, "Hey, she is a woman; she must eat chocolate!" It was pretty funny.
And another thing I just reminded myself of... In <i>Back to the Future</i>, Marty said at one point about all that had been going on, "This is heavy!" The doctor said, "Heavy? Is there some kind of gravitational problem in the future?" Then he started rambling on about the possibilities that could have happened in the following 50 years. (Yeah, so I can't remember the movie exactly, whatever!)
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All right!
2003-02-22 08:36:13
Okay! It's working! Woo. I think that I'll start using this instead of LiveJournal, because here I have better access to multiple things. Besides, how many people I know would actually find it here anyways? And the privacy button would be a life-saver. Yeppers. Why do I always have to ramble so much!?
Anyways, I don't really have much to say. Recently I've seen a lot of couples kissing and hugging out in the bus lanes, but I keep thinking that they will all break up pretty soon (except Amber and Phillip, that's a little different...). That and that I like being single, and that boyfriends are a total waste of my time at this age. I mean, they take up all my time, when I really need that time for school and friends. To me, friends come before boyfriends. (It would different if we were in a serious relationship after high school, because you never know what might happen... Not so much stupid schoolgirl crap, eh?) I know a lot of guys, and some want to go out with me, but I don't want to because I just like being friends with them. It's more fun, and they don't understand that the consequences of break-up are no fun. None of them have been with someone for three months, then the person dumps you, and you don't hang out with them much anymore yet you are still friends(yes, this is based on real-life experiences).
Boy, I really do like to ramble.
So I'll ramble some more!
I don't know what I want out of life. I enjoy just about everything, but what is it that I plan on going in to? Music would be cool, and so would art; but I don't think I'm cut out for something along those lines. Languages would be better, and I'll most likely get into that. Everybody is so worried on taking all the AP classes possible, but it's not like it really matters!! As long as you do your best and give it your all, then be happy with who you are; colleges will really look up to a hard-worker. And unless whatever the class is, you're not going to need it if it's not the field you're going to work in. The only AP classes I'll be taking are language and music related. Spanish III AP cannot be all that hard!!
Changing subjects... I'm pissed off at and jealous of a lot of people. Yasmin, Kristen, Mary, Bethany, Nick, Jesse, Chip, almost everyone... I don't know what is making me so hateful. I mean, the only person I feel like I don't hold something against anymore is probably Thom, or I just can't stand anybody anymore. It really sucks. I hate it not for them, but it's making me angry at myself. Whatever happened to the happy, perky Laura? The one that always tried her hardest to help people, and was always smiling? The Laura that truly meant it when she told others that life is beautiful...? I miss that, but I'm glad I'm not there anymore.
What do I want, one might ask? I want my parents to stop fighting. I want them to discipline me in a more effective way. I want my mother to be happy with what it is she does, and my father to open up a little more. I want my friends to be truthful to themselves and to others. I want them to just enjoy life to the highest extent. I want their families to be at peace and to be happy. I want them to understand the meaning of friendship, and that "best friend" is nothing but a stupid children's title. I want people to accept others without getting surly for no reason at all. I want to not be so hateful and jealous and unaccepting of other people and new ideas and just things in general. I want to understand what is going on in people's minds. I want to be able to play piano, sing, act, dance, draw, make websites, make music videos, play DDR, to just be really good at something. To be something I'm not, and to be number one for once in my life. I want to understand the work that I'm given, to get better grades in school. I want everything and I want nothing. I want to see the world and to create a new one. I want to live and I want to die. I want to stay on earth with the ones I love, but go to heaven with my grandfather and with Peter. I want this all to end but keep going on. I want to stop being confused. I want to stop wanting so much. I want life. I want a life. I want to live.
I want happiness. And I hope for a better tomorrow, even when I'm sad. - 2003-02-22 07:47:22 and again
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