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WOOHOO! I didn´t suck!
2003-03-13 09:35:16
Just came back from my viola examination. Iīve played viola for the past 14 years and every year we have to go through an examination where there are 2-3 teachers (usually violin teachers) who will listen to you and give you a review of it. This time it was a verbal review and no numbers were given. This is what they told me after they listened my piece:
+You have improved a lot from last year.
+You had the courage to choose such an artistically hard piece.
+You managed to play it artistically, but there is room for improvement.
-There could be more fortes (this means that I should at times play more loudly).
-Your vibrato (Iīm not sure if this is spelled correctly) could use some work. You can do the fast vibrato, but not the slower version which this piece needs.
There was probably something else, but I already forgot the rest. All in all this must be one of the best reviews Iīve ever had, but I did play my song without any major mistakes and I didnīt even stress so much when I was on stage. Afterwards I was so happy that I wanted to just jump around in joy (I didnīt since Iīm supposed to act like an adult =P ). The good review can also have something to do with the fact that this one older teacher wasnīt there and she usually gives much more negative feedback.
The positive feedback always manages to surprise me. I guess I canīt properly appreciate my own skills. The negative feedback was basically the same from last year. In my own mind I played as loudly as I could so that the sound didnīt get all messed up.
Iīve had trouble with my vibration for as long as I can remember and Iīve been practicing it for the past eight years already. I actually can sometimes get it right, but when Iīm nervous it just gets too fast. So the problem isnīt in my hand, but in my brain. Iīve always been kinda embarrassed about my lousy vibrato since everybody else can do it and everybody assume that I can too. I could compare this to a video editor who canīt do fades. Itīs just essential for the piece to be artistic.
One of the teachers said that my song (Max Bruchīs Kol Nidrei) is about the joy and sadness of an entire nation. I was like what the f*ck? I had no idea that it had such meanings. Iīll have to do some research on this one, but Iīm guessing the nation is Germany or something like that. In this piece every note has itīs own emotion. One is sad and some other is cheerful. I should learn to play them so that people can hear the difference. This is the power of music.
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I wrote a personal message to Fluxmeister today (the very first one). On Monday I noticed that he had replied to my review of his Ninja Girl video. He seems like nice guy and has a great sense of humour. O_< Anyway I had reviewed his Ninja Girl 2. version video, but put it on the Ninja Girl 1. versionīs opinion page.
I didnīt even notice this before he pointed ti out to me . I donīt understand how I could be so stupid. Doesnīt this noobiness ever end? You can understand why I made such a mistake if you go see how many videos NHMK has. The list is huge! So I PM:d him and am hoping he isnīt too busy in the near future so he can answer me back.
I did some research on Apocalypticaīs homepage when I was writing to Fluxmeister and found out that they are having a consert here in Helsinki Finland on Friday 28th of May. Iīll go tomorrow and try to get tickets there. I wonder who would like to go with me *scratches head and ponders*. There was also this sorta like a little journal on the first page and in the end there was written kosketelkaa toisianne. I pursted to laughter when I read it because this finnish talk show host from the nineties used to say that every time in the end. You could translate it to something like touch each other. Koopiskeva would just love this one. *Looks around in panic to see if Koop is hiding in some corner.*
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TO FLUXMEISTER: If youīre reading this (seems unlikely to me) and you happen to read my journal entry from 4th of May titled Dreaming about Fluxmeister, just let me know if it makes you even a bit uncomfortable and Iīll make it private. So far my journal has had 64 hits. I promised to myself that I wouldnīt make a journal entry private after I had already made it public without good reason. So far Iīve only made one private journal entry and that was in finnish so most of you wouldnītt understand anyway.
It didnīt seem like such a big deal when I wrote the Dreaming about Fluxmeister entry. I just thought that writing here is the best way to let you know without telling you since Iīm just a little bit ...well embarrassed about it if you read it. Stop sending weird dreams to me (this is a joke). Anyway just PM me or something if you would like me to make that entry private.
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Just to make this entry extra long thereīs still something else. And I know what yīall are thinking : nooooooooo not longer than this. Just bear with me and my hunger to write in here.
There is a bed in the middle of my room since we are furnishing my little sisterīs room. She got a new bed and now her old bed is in my room. I can just barely squeeze to my computer chair because the bed is taking up so much space. I have to stop now because Iīm really hungry and I have to start to move this bed.
I had my first day off of my new job today in order to go to the examination which was in the middle of the day. Lots of free time to write to journal *devil grin*. Thereīs no way Iīm going to read all of this again in order to find grammatical errors. http://efe.scape.net/index.php helped to find the words I didnīt know how to spell.
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Happy Birthday Grekon!
2003-03-11 08:55:53
Todayīs Grekonīs 17 th birthday. Congratulations and may you have many more happy birthdays ahead of you. Lots of *hugs* from me.
*Singing*
Paljon onnea vaan
Paljon onnea vaan
Paljon onnea Grekon
Paljon onnea vaan
Thatīs the finnish version of the song Happy birthday to you. Just in case you were wondering. ^^
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Iīll keep this short because I have to practice my viola before my lesson today. I have a concert tomorrow and an examination on thursday. The piece is Max Bruchīs Kol Nidrei from the 19 th century. Itīs about ten minutes long and thereīs a pianist accompanying me. Wish me luck. -
Dreaming about Fluxmeister
2003-03-04 02:01:05
On Monday when I woke up (before six AM if your interested) I realised that I had a dream where I was talking with Fluxmeister from NHMK. There was also this other girl in the dream, but I didnīt know her. We were in a room. I donīt remember what I was talking about with Fluxmeister and I donīt remember what he looked like in my dream.
This dream is really strange because I have never met him or even talked with him. Iīve made one review of his video, but he never answered back. I have a too wild imagination. *_*;; This could probably qualify as one of those You know that youīve watched too many AMV:s when you start to
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Phade answered to my first forum post!
2003-03-02 14:56:19
I made my first forum topic/post today in the site help section. It was "How do I vote in the VCA 2003 Final Vote?". Few hours passed and I was actually reading a thread of how the mods suck in the Way of topic section when I went to check if anyone had answered my post. First I saw that Phade was the last one to write in the Site help section, but it was a big surprise to find out that he had answered my post. It nearly gave me a heart attack and my hands were shaking for about ten minutes after that. So after some mint tea to calm myself down I answered back to him and thanked him of his reply and help. He had fixed the problem so next I went to vote in the VCA. I just gotta love the guy. ^_^
On a side note I just today decided after much agonizing to quit my studies of culture anthropology in the open university. I really like going to the classes and all, but I canīt make myself to do the homework. That has always been a big problem for me. And since I started on a job a month ago I donīt have that much time either. I really love anime and want to make AMVs and thatīs also one of the reasons Iīm quitting. I also have to decide what Iīm going to go and study for real next fall. This time of the year with the entrance exams and all always depresses me really bad. I didnīt really think that I would actually someday work as an cultural anthropologist, but giving up is always hard. Iīve already been studying there from last fall and have passed all the classes so far. This is just so sad. Itīs almost 11 PM and Iīm going to bed and probably going to cry myself to sleep.
But thank you Phade you managed to make this awful day a little better. Arigato. -
Love: Hack Sign, Apocalyptica´s new album and The Fifth Element DVD
2003-03-01 16:45:07
I just watched ten episodes of Hack Sign and oh boy am I loving that series. Itīs so complicated and full of mysteries. Not to mention the animation which is just beautiful and kind of mystical. The anime is about a virtual game īthe worldī where there are 20 million players on a network together. Itīs a role playing game and since Iīm into that too the anime is just too perfect for me. I wish I could play it too *dreaming*. Anyway the main character is unable to log out of the game and some strange things start to happen. The anime kinda reminds me of Final Fantasy Unlimited which was the first anime I saw. Only this one is much better. Iīm defianently going to add it to my top 10 anime list when Iīve watched all of it.
Iīm listening to Apocalypticaīs new album Reflections right now and it seems they havenīt lost their edge, but itīs still different from their last albums. They are always developing and thatīs good. I have all of their last albums and Iīve been a fan of theirs since they started in the year 1996. The album cover is also really beautiful. There is this back of a naked woman shaped like a cello sitting in the middle of a field. Oh good lord is this song Faraway the most beautiful thing you have ever heard or what *lost in the beautiful cello music*. I just have to see them live some day. Come to think of it why havenīt I done that already since we live in the same country. Iīm also thinking that I could send them AMV:s done to their music like Fluxmeisterīs Endure and Songs of Rage and Sorrow. I think that thereīs also other AMV:s to their music, but I donīt have them yet. I just donīt know if could they handle a CD, but I donīt know how to make a VHS of the AMV:s. Oh well, thereīs no hurry.
The third good thing that happened today besides that I finally got Apocalyticaīs new CD and had time to watch Hack Sign was that mother bought us The Fifth Element DVD. Thatīs my all time favourite non-anime movie. We loaned the video to our cousins and they never returned it and since we all like the movie so much we bought it on DVD. ^_^
I also downloaded a punch of new videos that were nominated for VCA (hope I got it right). There were few that didnīt have a download link and I already had about a third of them all. I had about 20 video downloads running at the same time and I run out of space in the drive were I was downloading them and had to move some videos to another drive. Then I thought what the heck and renamed my Games drive to AMV. I donīt have time to play anymore anyway so now I have 20 GB:s of space for AMV:s. Lol I already have videos worth about 4 GB:s and itīs growing all the time.
Todayīs my one month anniversary of being a member of the org. I still donīt have an avatar, but my first video is starting to be born. I also would like to update my profile so that I could have bold headlines like Anime Jedi or whatshernameYurisomething. Maybe I should write to them and ask how itīs done. I bet itīs really simple, but I just havenīt been able to do it myself. My profileīs kinda long so some headlines could do wonders for it not to mention my journal entries *grin*. Speaking of which I should be getting to bed and Iīm really tired already, but the music...the music just keeps playing *still listening to Apocalyptica*. This Resurrection song is really powerful.
Iīll have admit hat today hasnīt been perfect since Iīve been having trouble with my Windows Media Player. I downloaded a Nimo Codec Pack yesterday and it totally screwed my WMP and my Windows XP. The player kept showing videos upside down. It was kinda hard to watch videos standing on your head. So I uninstalled the annoying codec program and now the videos arenīt upside down anymore. Iīm also having trouble with my cool new Opera since it insistes that I use this stupid password wand to save my passwords to. Doh Iīm not going to tell my passwords to some wand. No way! So Iīm stuck using Internet Explorer to go to amv.org *sigh*.
Two more songs to go of the album and then Iīve listened through it for the first time. Trumbets...strange but fitting *listening to Torreador II*. Iīll run this trough a spellchecking and put it online after that. I finally have a prober writing program (OpenOffice 1.0)...*after words* it doesnīt know how to spell defienently and Iīm too lazy/tired to look it up in my dictionary. Hope you understand what I mean.
Good night and sweet anime dreams to everybody.
Illan tullen tuuli tyyntyy.
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