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Rockin in the Free World
2003-03-26 21:26:45
I've never felt so drained as I do now. I've had four or five nights of getting to sleep at 4AM and then having to turn around and get up at 8. fun fun! but I'm turning out good work! at least I think I am. Only grades will tell... Anyway...
i see a woman in the night
with a baby in her hand
under an old street light
near a garbage can
now she puts the kid away
and she goes to take a hit
because she hates her life
and what's she done to it
That's one more kid
who will never go to school
never get to fall in love
never get to be cool
keep on rockin in the free world -
heehee
2003-03-25 17:58:35
that was a very brief and distorted glimpse of my jekyll. not even really a glimpse...that was the vapor left behind in it's wake.
still having that problem with the right side of my body though. it has to be circulation because I'm looking at the difference in the veins in my hands, and the right looks like there is a lesser amount of blood going through. hm. hen ta wa!
last night was good because I think I've been inspired (or in reality shaken from my lethargy) across another threshold in photoshopping. maybe...jury's still out. probably will stay out because they don't want to stop playing with the cards they've stolen from my deck.
egg whisk out -
sigh
2003-03-24 20:30:35
why am i so upset...
i just wrote and deleted two very loaded emails to my photoshop teacher...i decided i cannot tell her what a joke i think she is until i've gotten my final grade. i understand resources are limited at this university, but really...she's a photo major trying to teach photoshop, and she totally and completely discounts 70% of the real power behind photoshop.
you see...she is a photo major/graduate...thus she has only dealt primarily with stock images. I highly doubt (judging from her comments in class discounting the worth of filters and encouraging us to do everything with photography and nothing out of those bounds) that she has never created anything from scratch...in essence, a very liberal, liberal arts guru with an outstandingly skeptical creative scope and an even narrower field of view.
...sigh...
i don't know what to do...half of me thinks she doesn't give me credit because i absolutely refuse to come in and work on the school's shitty mac computers...(I hate macs with a passion unparalleled in the digital world...giving me a mac for christmas would be like giving pork to a hindu.)
why the hell do i care?!!!! I've sat here alternately fuming and cooling for over an hour and to no conclusion! i just need to shut up, collect my grade and be done with it. this class, this teacher, these students aren't worth the waste of time! these four years and countless wasted dollars are for a piece of paper that won't mean anything beyond the narrow minds of asthetes who put stock in such things as that and paint on barndoors. my true diploma will be in my ability to make lemonade out of these lemons.
may all other students revel in their polio. -
ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!
2003-03-23 16:14:39
my vcr just died. VERY! PISSED!
I was trying to copy the last parts of utena for a classmate...thank god it ate a tester tape instead of the real ones that he borrowed and gave to me...Wooo! but I still want my damned tape back. you've got admit though...for a $50 sam's club vcr it's been a trooper.
and i now have an idea for my project!!! It's going to be cool because it's semi-creative and won't make too many people cringe. (not that anyone in my photoshop class would actually comment on my work anyway....)
but you know what? why do I care if they comment or not? i hate art students. they are like a gagggle of ostrich except instead of having their heads in the sand, they have them up eachother's asses where the air is so much fresher............................... -
time is not on your side
2003-03-23 14:14:00
i need to come up with a self protrait project in less than an hour, and fiish it before 4ish. due tomorrow, and it needs to be GOOD. ie...i don't think i can get away with what I've done in the past. all of these things add up to me being really screwed right now. the mighty egg whisk is not giving any constructive input either....
on an all time highhhhhhhh....so hold on tight...let the flight...begiiiiiiiin...
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