JOURNAL: Daio Kaji (Rogelio Duran)

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  • men...= 2004-08-08 00:08:34 ...don't know why i'm telling this AMV.org journal this.. but there's obviously more to that women schpeel that i had before, there was more to me breaking up with the girl.. but not everything is intended for public knowledge imo

    point is i still miss the girl whether or not she wants to kill me or not or how imo she used me, before i got used, we had good times... so i haven't heard from her since the breakup and that makes it a little hard for me to get over her

    i think i need my friend evelyn (ev) to smack me a good one, i may even ask her to do it just because i wanna know what it's like, lol.... wow, i want to get smacked.... what does that say about me?... nothing good i pressume, well it's not that i wanna get smacked, i just want some closure, whether it's hearing from the girl or letting my friend smack me outta missing her, i need SOMETHING... maybe i'll make a video about it

    (ponders a video idea for using 'Bowling For Soup - The Bitch Song')
    ^_^

    men... the thick-headed ones never know when to move on... as for everything else, i think T.H.M. do everything too slowly.... mentally... and actually... :O

    [watches an AMV/eats dinner/ponders life up to this point/looks forward to movie night tomorrow with high school friend/goes to bed]
     
  • women...= 2004-07-28 01:13:59 lol, it's funny how much a woman/girl can change when you get more and more involved

    ever since i've hooked up with this college girl character, she's really just changed into someone that loves to complain... a lot, and somehow we spend less time together... so i'm calling it quits (after some bashing from my best friend Ev)

    a note to men... woman=tempting=deceptive=hardtounderstand=worth ur wild about 10% of the time... tomorrow's another day i guess is the way the saying goes 
  • ai-caramba 2004-07-26 17:49:26 wow, been a while since i made an entry, let alone logged onto this site

    as always, no new ops on my vids =
    i still need a dvd-burner drive so i can work on my next video that's gonna use Saikano (which i still need to order the dvds of)

    outside of that, it's been interesting times personally

    i went to Mexico (mexico city) for two weeks in the beginning of July to visit my mom's family, that was a pretty rockin' time, we hadn't visited in 6/7 years, but they're still the great people they've always been, just some are married or with kids and some are just older

    but that's not the highlight of my summer at all (not that summer is over)

    i met this girl in the spring semester of college this year and we kept hanging out this summer, she's now my girlfriend which is awesome since i've never had one (i'm a loser like that) and for reasons i can never figure out, she seems to enjoy my company.
    it's still a bit weird cause i don't wanna make any mistakes but i think i just need to get over my nerves and accept that she likes me and wants to be around me (i hope...)
    i feel she really knows me now more than ever and she's made me realize some things that should have been brought to my attention, so yeah, she's awesome and i'm estatic that i met her and i hope she doesn't move away cause then my parents would find that i ran away from home ^_^

    hoping we get over any hurdle that comes our way, this is me saying goodbye to my freetime, lol

    i'll try to get my dvd-burner drive because i'm never gonna give up videos though

    all for now, lataz 
  • twin or opposite stars 2004-06-13 02:40:07 could these really exist?

    an opposite of yourself, always opposing you, contradicting you're every move to maintain the 'balance'?

    ..naaaaaaaaah

    first off all, a complete opposite is impossible, sure there's the girl/boy aspect of it, but it's easy to see opposites in personality and even background, but what's the opposite of a human?... 0_0

    i guess if you look at it in the sense that the anime 'X' does, a 'twin star' would be someone that resembles you instead of being ur opposite, but they are still ur polar opposite because your destinies although intertwinded, are opposing

    ..but considering we all not anime, and this is hopefully not the end of the world as we know it, what good or purpose would a 'twin star' have?

    can't seem to stop wondering if 'balance' is also maintained through life's hardships. it's almost that i'm feeling guilty that my life at this point is relatively comfortable and i may even say that i'm happy... but at closer inspection...

    my best friends are the ones i have online
    my goals in life (besides the standards of having a good home and someone to live with) all basically stem off of a computer
    i haven't talked with any of my old friends besides one girl from work that i went to school with, and she's actually one of my best online friends as well and she'd be my best female friend
    (no not girlfriend)

    but all in all, i guess i'm having fun being a bum living with my parents, i got my own car (it's my mom's, but she has her own) i don't pay rent, although i don't and have never had a gf of my own, sumhow i have more closer female friends than male friends... explain that one to me, i've at least started down the path of being a good AMV creator, my only respectable video is still average, but it's a start

    ...but while i'm enjoying my life to an extent, i'll always reminded of my friends who aren't as fortunate
    -one of my new friends has personal issues, mostly social stuff it seems
    -one of my friends hasn't lived at home for about a year
    -one of my friends doesn't have all the financial support he'd like (not unlike myself)
    -one of my friends can't seem to make other friends... at least not easily

    if i were to look at myself from an outside point of view, i'd probably say that i have a thick shell and don't let people get close to me, i've always been that way, and it's not good... at the same time, it's not that bad though. despite my love of Neon Genesis Evangelion and what it teaches us about accepting ourselves, i still have that problem, i understand myself, but still always find myself doubting myself... but i think that's a problem everyone still has.. it's just human

    but hopefully it's not true that a person's life becoming successful means that another's life becomes a failure... cause that would suck... although it may hold SOME truth to it... since matter can neither be created nor destroyed, everything has to come from somewhere, so you can't have a hamburger without killing a cow, and since you ate the burger, that means there's one less burger to go around... i'd better stop, i'm in one of my psychological/philosophical moods where i could ponder the universe forever
    =
     
  • what irony...lol 2004-06-01 16:15:25 man, i made that comment in one of my last journal entrys that it doesn't matter if a person leaves amv.org, not even if Phade were to leave would it really make the world stop turning, that as long as this site does what it's suppose to do, everything will be kule

    ...but i just looked at the main page... and Phade announced he was leaving, lol, god i couldn't believe it when i saw it

    but i don't take back what i said or anything, yes, it is tru that it's sad that Phade is leaving, and no, no one is going to be pissed off because the site is still gonna be here, but what i said still stands true

    the world will keep turning, phade will come back one day, just like every editor should imo to keep the world of AMVs updated whenever possible

    so let's all rejoice in our good cyber times and welcome the new administrators of AMV.org and wish Phade jr. well

    [applaudes] 
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