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2006-08-29 10:56:46
you guys are too nice.
I guess even a goth can feel emo once in a while
http://youtube.com/watch?v=Jr2DekVszqk
I'll give it a view. -
so....why the hell am I still here??????
2006-08-29 10:43:01
because I couldn't sleep last night. I got 2 hours of sleep....and those 2 hours were filled with dreams of me cutting my arms and wrists with a box cutter.
I got messages saying don't beat yourself up about it cuz other people do it to or its no big deal or whatever. But that doesn't make it right and I SHOULD beat myself up about it. This whole thing has been eating my conscience up...and I can't sleep until I've made it right...like Camillia said to do.....
So....I'll make Katie an AMV....that's just for Katie. It's This is Katie's AMV AMV. With my OWN footage this time.
But otherwise...I dunno what I'm gonna do about the sleep thing. My doctor ordered that I have at least 10-12 hours of sleep so my sleep apnea doesn't act up. I think I'm gonna crash cuz I also have to babysit. I hope my hypoglimia doesn't act up as well. That's when your blood sugar's low.
but don't about the cutting dream...I hate knives of all kinds :/ -
goodbye
2006-08-29 02:25:49
it is said that everyone makes mistakes...I just happened to make the biggest mistake of my life. Not only did I betray Katie's trust but slandered my own reputation and AMV's.
I can't ever make another AMV again. I will soon be more hated then getsarsndie. Perhaps I already am. Even if I decided to make another AMV.....my credibility has been lost forever. And also the trust of my friend. I'm so sorry. But I know that sorry isn't good enough. Sorry doesn't take back what I did.
So....the name of DivineQueenYeiweh will no longer be heard in the org. Because everytime that it is said people will hurl at the sound of it.
I admit that I made a mistake....but it is something I can never take back...no matter how hard I try. No matter how many times i say I'm sorry. It is better that you never hear from me again....not that any one would want to after what I did.
The video has been delete...and soon...so will this whole account. And I will be a distant memory...never to truly repair the damage I've done. Never to regain the friends I've lost.
I am not even worthy to speak her real name....
So you won't have to hear from me again.
Wurgano-You will hear of this and will want to hate me too. Good...I deserve it. But, just in case you don't I must ask that you not seek me out. I am not worthy of your friendship. I am not worthy of this org. My other account will be deleted as well. there will be no more DQY to worry about.
But I am truly sorry I've betrayed your trust and our friendship. All you did was try to help me...and I let you down. But thanks for trying. No matter how hard I try, I just always have to mess things up. Now I've messed it up for good.
Sorry to everyone I've hurt, offended, and such. If you want to hate me you have every right to. But for your sanity I will remove the problem from the picture.
Goodbye org. It's been a great almost year....... -
actually....
2006-08-29 01:46:05
I'm just gonna leave. You don't like me now anyway.
goodbye....for a very long time....
maybe forever.
I'm sorry :( :( :( :( :( :(
but it will be like I never existed.
I'm gonna go sulk in a corner now. Ignore this entry cuz now everyone hates me
So I'll go bye-bye
maybe forever.... -
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2006-08-29 01:38:24
Whoa...I'm confused....????
If it looks similiar to something then I'm sorry, but I didn't steal anything honestly....
I know cuz I ripped the footage from my DVD's from inspiration from other CCS AMV's. I then may have imitated the effects because I was feeling a bit lazy. but I honestly didn't just steal anything and I'm sorry it looked that way. But I honestly didn't just jack clips (why would I do that when I could rip my own clips? I'm not THAT lazy) but I applied the effects in the same manner so that's why it's confusing.
I'm sorry :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
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*bows and prays for forgiveness.....*
*bow* *bow* *bow* *bow* *bow* *bow* *bow* *bow* *bow* *bow*
but if it makes you feel any better, I won't make any videos for a VERY long time.
At least until you forgive me :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
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