- first journal entry 2005-12-05 20:53:32 i am a normal boy with unique tastes. i want a slasher, but i want a lover. i care, but i am not loved. i am alone, but surrounded by people. i create life, yet i can't create a good movie. i am a musician at heart, but a suit by trade. i am unique, yet i am a drone. this is my journal entry.