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:O Meri!
2003-08-03 11:09:04
I said I'd talk about it later, but I totally forgot when I was talking about cosplaying!
But first: MY MONITOR IS FIXED!!! YAY!!!
(For good, now!)
Anyway, yesterday Meri IMed me out of the blue. It's not that big of a deal, it's just that I always IM her, because I'm a big fan of hers(Who tries to stay cool when she talks to Meri >.>)
So when she IMed me I was kind of in shock for a while.
Anyway, I take this as a good sign, maybe we can be friends? :O
Meri, if you're reading this: You still owe me that game of tic-tac-toe!!
If you're going to the AMV Dinner, bring a pen, because we'll be doing it on a napkin! -shakes fist-
I will win, if it kills me!! -
Next Month = AWA!
2003-08-03 11:06:09
I requested a password from Quu's FTP for AWA 9, and It's been like over a week now, and I still haven't gotten it. So I decided to email somebody (Meri suggested it... I'll tell you more about that, later) to see what the heck was going on.
I'm great at writing business letters(Bwaha! Mad negotiation skillz!) so I wrote one about how long it takes to recieve a password.
I was kind of shocked at how unformatted the reply I got back was, but hey, atleast I *got* a reply. Anyway, he asked for my username and I should be getting a password today, and sending in my huffys of TTS, WMUI[R], and Zidane's Home to AWA Expo.
I was thinking about entering other vids to Pro or Masters, but I don't have any blank tapes =[ and not enough time to make an AMV that nobody has seen yet. So I guess I'll just leave that to next year.
Today is going to be a busy day! I'm going to see Seabiscuit at 1pm(Just over an hour from now), and then I have to get a new backpack, and I'm sure while we're out my mom will force me into buying some more clothes and whatnot for school.
Speaking of school, I'll have to go there tomorrow so I can get my schedule fixed. Can you believe the ONLY scheduled class I have right now is Homeroom?! If you read my journal last year, you know that Pope's school scheduling system HATES me.
Last year, I was sitting in the guidance offices for a whole week during first period, because all the classes I wanted were full! ALL of them! INCLUDING Acedemic classes!!!
But that's NOT going to happen this year. -cracks knuckles-
Anyway, school starts on the 11th. So close!!
Did I mention I HATE school?
I've been pretty happy with all of you this summer, but that's only because life has been stress free. As soon as school starts, I'll have all this major stress on me and I'll be all angsty and grumpy and stuff all the time.
Not to mention that I'm taking two classes with e-school as well.
It's like cram school-- For sophmores!(I'm trying to graduate as early as I can).
Anyway, I know it's going to be REALLY hard on me being registered in two schools, and all. But I'm prepared to pay the price... This what I really want! To be free of school earlier then everyone else!
Perhaps even graduate with my new friends!(Juniors, this year. My last bunch of friends already graduated. Me and my lack of making friends with younger people! -shakes fist-)
So that's the future.
Now it's time for more future!
Yay!
Devolution is coming along to AWA(With a few other people) and we're going to cosplay together!! ^o^
Right now, the details arn't set in stone, but we're going to be cosplaying twins-- Koji and Koichi from Digimon Frontier.
The only thing we're debating on is who gets to be Koji, and who gets Koichi.
Really, I don't care. XD
I mean, the both look the same, the only difference is the clothes and their attitudes.
Also, next year, if my parents like Devo, he'll be staying at my house for AWA! Scott free! :O
So, if you're in need of Cheap hotel(FREE)- make sure to get in contact with me and my parents this year. -
2011+ Views!
2003-08-02 10:29:16
I lost the motivation to keep writing down all this stuff about the forces.
I've gotten a lot fo compliments and flames, but I just really lost the motivation all by myself.(Not really from the thread I started).
See, I realized that by writing all this stuff, I was becoming the very thing I hated. Although I CLAIMED I wasn't trying ot convert anyone(Which I really wasn't) I was writing this as if I were explaining Evolution to a super Christian.
And I hate Christians who always try to convert me, and I think it's stupid and absurd how they always go around saying "Christianity = best religion, yeah! You don't believe in God, you're a satanist!" Yeah, well, some Christians arn't like that, but in the Bible Belt, 90% of them are. It's only in the Bible Belt where you find random billboards saying stuff like "Have you spoken with God today?" and some other shit.
Anyway, on the news yesterday, I saw the fights going on in the UK at the Soap Box.(I've actually been there once, the Soap Box, and it was pretty interesting). How the Christians were saying "There's only one God, and it isn't Allah!"
And it was all out war between religions.
So, with all that, I've decided to keep all this information to myself. I don't want to become the very things I hate. I mean, this forces of God and Devil thing-- I really believe in this. As much as I know a^2 + b^2 = c^2, I know that this stuff that I'm writing is true.
And for the first time, I think I actually feel confident in that, and am actually going through what people who believe in Gods feel when someone disses their religion, or just says it isn't the way it works.
So I am shutting up about it, and just keeping my beliefs to myself, like everyone SHOULD be doing.
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Other stuff:
Been rping a ton, lately. Found this great new place, named Mirage.
http://groups.msn.com/themirage
(go there for info)
It's this awesome futuristic rp and I really like it. It's the first time I'm actually getting somewhere with my character.
Although it was quite a jump from the medieval/fantasy and V:tM rps I'm used to(I've never EVER made JUST a human character until now), I am REALLY getting into this rp.
I also think that this futuristic stuff.. I mean, it takes WAY more out of your imagination then medieval EVER did!
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Today sucked. Or atleast, sleep sucked.
I went ot bed at 11pm, and slept until some really stupid people at 6am started cutting up trees right next to my house. And I mean... Like 5 different people with 5 different machine saws(I forget what they're REALLY called).
I don't know how much longer that carried on, but it stopped eventually and I was able to get some more sleep. Then, at around 8am Mini(one of my cats) started meowing at the door, wanting to get out(Probably to eat).
Me being my lazy AND tired(thanks to the machine saws) self, I didn't want to get up and open the door. I was like "Go open the damn door yourself, you know how.."(And she does.)
Well, she didn't quit whining until 10am, when my mom came and opened the door.
So, after all that, I was still extrememly tired, and wanted to sleep. But, my body, being the stupid thing it is, wouldn't let me. So here I am, wasting my time writing about how little sleep I got.
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Been reading the Mars manga.
It was SO good(or interesting.. I dunno which) that I seriously could NOT put it down(and I can put down everything!).
There's 15 volumes of Mars in all, and my friend has 12 of them. SHe let me borrow them on thursday(she's in my Kendo class) and as soon as I got home I picked one up and started reading it.
WELL! I got all the way to volume 7(And these books are like.. 300 pages long) before I literally just conked out... That was somewhere around 2.30am
The next day, I read 8-12.
I have to say I love Mars! Although if someone actually told me what it was about first, I would have said "No, that's way to boring" which, in context, it kinda is.
Mars is about this shy little girl who hated boys and a popular guy who races motorcycles and is your typical playboy that all the girls love(except for the shy girl.)
So one day these two meet, and the guy, Rei, kinda falls in love with her(but for real, this time). It takes a while, but soon they hook up, much to the other girls at the school's disgrace.
All of that is in volume one.
Then, the rest of the volumes after that are just how their relationship moves along. Boring, huh?
The manga is 90% all talk and no action. That's one of the things that would've turned me off. But it's like... Everything that COULD'VE gone wrong with their past and families DID!
I mean, the girl was raped by her stepdad, Rei had a twin who he killed...
It's SO out there that the boringness is just... Gone.
A year goes by, and in the 10th volume, the very first like ten pages is them having sex for the first time. Then, at the end of that volume, they Rei proposes to the girl.
But man all the hardships. These two people seriously have HUGE psychological problems!
Really good manga... I think you all should give it a read. -thumb up- -
Fate and Destiny
2003-07-31 09:23:06
(Before I get started on this, I'd like ot tell you all that my monitor has randomly been fixed![I got up, turned the comp on, and it was in perfect working order.] Yay for my life!)
So now that I've explained the basics of God and Devil, it's time to detail the forces of Fate and Destiny.
Fate and Destiny are syllables, really. Faith is the connecting of all things where every action has been preordained and you have no conrol what you do with your life.
Destiny is the place in which you were pulled to, as in "this was our destiny". For example, you being married, or winning the lottery, or dying in a tragic way.
Fate and Destiny are similiar to the force which is gravity. Think of that pond I explained earlier, where the living are those things flotaing ontop of the pond water, while everything uner water was Dead, and everything above was about to come to life.
Mentally throw a stone in that pond.
The ripples that are caused by the stone are Fate, the movements of the floating objects on the water are destiny. That is cause and effect.
However, notice how the stone sunk to the bottom. Gravity pulled the stone from the air, through the pond, and to the ground underneath.
The stone went, with the aid of gravity, fate, and destiny, from your hand, resembling the power God, to the bottom of the pond, resembling the power of Devil.
This proves that all life if preordanied.
Although, you may not think this.
We fool ourselves that we can make out own choices in life and do what we want, but in fact it is fate that leads us, and destiny that effects other people. We have no way with our own lives, every plant and animal strives for the same thing: Death.
Death is the sole reason why we live. It is the purpose of Life.
Think about this.
If our purpose in life was to, say, become a singer, then thousands upon millions of people would fail in their goal.
What fo the stillborns? The invalids? The mute? The little children who are murdered, every day? If our purpose in life were to be anything other then die, everyone and thing would probably fail in their purpose.
There is only one, unified purpose, for all living things, so that the balance in everything will stay balanced. If people failed in their duty to their own life, they'd have to keep living to leave their "mark" on the world.
And there would be a major tip in the scale.
So, think of fate and destiny as a tree in the ground.
The vast roots of the tree are fate-- the road leading the way to Devil.
And the ground in which the roots are held is Destiny -- The aftereffects of Fate.
Since all is predertermined to some degree, this is why your fortune can be told! Tarot cards will also work, since all forces-- gravity, fate, destiny, god, and devil-- are at work to guide the cards.
Think what you will, but this is how I believe the forces of Fate, gravity, god, and devil come into play.
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More about this will be written each day. I have a lesson plan, of sorts...
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I've been thinking all wrong!!!
2003-07-31 00:06:22
All this time, I've been thinking that God was a man, and that the Devil was a man. Or atleast, Man in some way. Even though I believe there's no true way to tell whether they exist or not... If they do exist, I knew they'd be basically... just random energy floating about.
But I gave them human characteristics!
I was always like "Well, God, being who he is, would be very selfish and full of himself" and so on.
But BAM! some wierd instant surge of brainstorming informs me that I am thinking in ALL THE WRONG WAYS!
Niether God nor Lucifer can be comprehended in means of our world.
"God" and "Lucifer" are only names given to the force which flows through us all... They are not beings of their own minds, they are forces just liek gravity, with some sort of mathimatical formula to justify them.
Although, I'll admit that formula will be probably just as tricky as the force that's destiny, but "God" and "Devil" are merely names for FORCES, not BEINGS!
If everyone thought of Gravity like they thought of God, then Priests and other things who could contact Gravity would be weighted down much more by force, while sinners would be floating everywhere(Defying the laws of gravity!)
That said, "God" is the force that creates life. Life is brought in, and it lives.
"Devil" is the force that takes life. Once life is lived or created, it must die. So "Lucifer" is the force which takes life.
THAT is why prayers arn't answered! THAT is why people can have so much doubt! THAT is why, regardless of the bible being true or not, "God" is still a FORCE. as is Gravity, as is Devil.
The Devil isn't evil, he is only death. God isn't good, he is only life. Good and evil are perceptions from US, and do not amount to anything. Afterall, everyone's perceptions of good and evil are different. I'd dwelve into that more, but it would be a really long essay.
Think of it as a pond.
The things floating on the top of the pond, plants, leaves, are us. Life.
The things at the bottom of the pond, and under the water, are Death, Lucifer, Devil.
All the air above the pond is God. Giver of Life.
Now you've probably got questions.
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No one can live forever. Immortality is just bogus.
You can't have God without the Devil, you can't have Life without the Death.
How would it be if everything lived forever? If all humans born lived and prospered? If every animal and plant and bug never passed on?
How would eat if we could not kill a cow, or sow a seed? Would we just live a life of never ending pain of hunger?
Not to mention the overcrowding if no one and nothing died. The vines that feed off living trees would probably not even exist! And even if they did, then almost every tree would have a vine sucking the life out of it, but never dying.
Think of viruses, Small Pox! If the diesese can never die, how can we make antidotes and cure ourselves? Sure, the injection is made of a sick or injured cell of the illness, but that's only to help your immune system kill the other cells.
Every white and red blood cell in our body would live. All of us would have some sort of diesese, and live in agony and never die.
So that is why we have Devil, Death, Lucifer. Balance is important.
Without one, you cannot have the other.
If God, Life didn't exist, then niether would Death, Lucifer, Devil.
God and Lucifer are the sides of the same coin. No matter how it's flipped, both are always there...
God does not house the dead. God only creates, brings forth life.
The Devil houses all the dead. Niether of them are good nor evil. There are two sides-- Life, and death.
God gives life, Devil, Lucifer, takes it.
It's that simple.
Regardless, that doesn't make God good, and it doesn't make Lucifer evil.
Lucifer is just the keeper of the dead, and God is the creator of the living.
All dead are housed in one place, and all spirits that are to be brought to life housed in the other.
If that were explained thoroughly, you would have your Heaven and Hell.
But, to keep that Balance I detailed earlier, you'd have to recycle.
Which means that reincarnation WOULD exist, and be used-- if sparingly.
So, I can sum it up like this:
God = force that brings life.
Devil/ Lucifer = Force that takes life.
Heaven = House of spirits.souls that are to be brought to life
Hell = House of spirits/souls of the dead, who are not yet to be recycled (A landfill, if you will).
Since force and matter cannot be created nor destroyed, it is only obvious that spirits/souls would have to be recycled in order to keep the balance.
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Now, you can either think me a blithering idiot, or a genious for thinking this up, but think over what I just said... I know there's a lot of holes in it, but overall, if you think about it, it makes next to perfect sense.
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Yes I realize it's 1am. No, I'm not drunk.
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