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Updated.
2003-11-08 12:16:31
http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?v=18722
Best of Ctrl + C/V/Z ... The GIF AMV... Updated indirect link and all the typos.. (Aside from the title. =s) -
temp links
2003-11-08 10:50:33
I've been trying to upload what I have of AMP to tripod, but Trellix is being a tard, and won't let me save my stuff as html unless I am publishing to an ftp WHILE doing it. -_-;;
The sucky thign is, Tripod won't connect as an ftp host for some odd reason, so now I CAN'T upload it to Tripod no matter WHAT I do. I need help. ><;;
Anyway, Jacob is being a nice dude. The Pokemon AMV is hosted by him, TEMPRARILY. So go d/l it while you can. Because I'm not putting it on local.
http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?v=26548
And Remember TFF? (The Fanel Fate?)
Jacob and I are working out how to host that, but only for about two weeks. So once it's up, you better d/l it, because it's not going to be hosted ever again.
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Bleh
2003-11-07 16:10:48
http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?v=15397
Fixed the indirect link.
http://sq-.deviantart.com
Recent art is "Gore". Check it out. -thuimb up-
I finished the Pokemon AMV on wednesday... Still debating on whether I should host it or not...
I've given up on AMP. I think I'm going to put up what I have right now, with a message saying it'll never be updated. Too much responibility for me to handle, rigth now. ><;;
Other than that, the appointment to get my meds is on tuesday... We'll wait and see what happens...
In the meantime, though, she wants me to write a life story :!O
Homework from a counselor... Yuck...
So other than that, nothing's really happened... -
Wtf?
2003-11-03 15:47:16
swtstfbaby: Hello Are you there?
Brigrel Q: yes, who is this?
swtstfbaby: X2
swtstfbaby: SORRY
Brigrel Q: ??
swtstfbaby: IT WAS MY FRIENDS IDEA
Brigrel Q: .. to what?
swtstfbaby: TO CALL YOU MR POOPPY PANTS. ARE YOU A GIRL?
Brigrel Q: 0o I'm confused
Brigrel Q: Who is this and where did you get my AIM name?
swtstfbaby: IT WOULD BE CALLED A WEBSITE
Brigrel Q: which one
swtstfbaby: NOT TELLEN
swtstfbaby: OK ILL TELL
swtstfbaby: YOU ARE STUPID.COM/GET A LIFE
Brigrel Q: That's funny, I've never been to those sites. My AIM wouldn't be listed there.
swtstfbaby: YA THINK
swtstfbaby: WOW I THOUGHT YOU PEOPLE DIDDNT HAVE BRAINS
Brigrel Q: You are one of three people... And yes, I do think. But I have no idea what you're trying to accomplish other than to annoy me, and I'm sorry, but this is actually quite amusing. ^-^
[warns swtstfbaby up to 35% before AIm says I'm not allowed to warn him because he's an ICQ user]
swtstfbaby: YOU KNOW YOU GUESSED MY PLAN {SHITY SHIT SHO
Brigrel Q: :!O OH NO! We're all gonna die!
/sarcasm
Brigrel Q: Rot in hell, ya bastard.
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I was actually laughing the whole time. I still wonder who it was and what site he came from, though. =s
Also,
sq-.deviantart.com
Check out the featured deviation. I officially love iMacs and photoshop, now.
^___^
The Sonic Underground DVD came in today.
/me watches -
Seems that little weekend vacation was all I needed.
2003-11-02 12:39:58
Ah, and it was good, too. ^__^ I need ot get out more. I really really miss being an outdoorsy person.
I went to Stone Mountain. That is like the only real tourist attraction in Georgia that isn't an amusement park lol.
I left friday night, and we stayed overnight at the Evergreen hotel.
Now, i've stayed at a ton of hotels, with the way my dad is. I mean, I'm so used to hotels, when I go out and say "Let's go home", I mean the hotel. And when people can't seem to work the cardkey right, I'm thinking "You're stupid! HOw can you NOT know how to do that?!"
Anyway, so I've been to a ton of hotels all over the place. But I've never once had room service. It was always too expensive, so we never got it. This weekend we did. ^__^ Man rich people have it MADE! =p
We had dinner in the room, and then this morning we had breakfast in the room... And saterday night we went to a golf club to eat there. I had shrimp for dinner two nights in a row! GLORIOUS!
I've been to Stone Mountain like 6 times, but I gotta tell ya, this visit has got to be the best. =p
Although, while we were out doing stuff, I was mainly thinking about how cool it would be to come and just hike. Like, not up the mountain, but around it, and camp out in a tent up somewhere in the woods or something.
Of course, pitching a tent in the middle of the mountain is kinda against the law, but still the hiking part-- glorious.
There's just so much wilderness I've missed out on over the years because I sit here wasting away at the hands of a keyboard. What the hell am I doing?
Making music videos, role playing... But really? What for?
Is it of any importance? It's not like I'm making money off it, or gaining any sort of happiness...
You know, in reality it's the opposite! I'm spending money, and what used to be fun turned into a huge ball of stress cramped up in my right shoulderblade!
And now I have more acne than ever. But, meh.. That's due to bad hygiene, not the computer.
All I can say is that all my problems would be solved if I didn't have internet. Hell yeah!
I could still make music videos if I wasn't online, I just wouldn't be able to get feedback right away. But who cares? It's the maiking part to me that's fun. And role playing.. PSH. You can do that in person any time! Hell, I've done it in person before, and you know what? I actually had a better social life back then!
This trip made me realise what the computer has done to my life... And it's done bad things!¬¬
... But that isn't going to stop me from wasting away my life. Nope. Not at all.
I mean, I'm too young to go out in the middle of nowhere and livei n the woods, and I can't.. No, I WON'T drag a parent along to some woodsey place just to go hiking.
And there's no place around here where I can sit and listen to nature without some kid coming up to me and saying something really rude, or construction men working nearby. Stupid Atlanta! We suck! There's no nature around that we can TRULY enjoy.
... That's why I like Canada so much. Everybody thinks it's because I want to live with certain people from the interent, but I've wanted to move to Canada ever since I was a little kid-- before I even knew computers(other then those in school) existed.
Canada is one of those places where you can sit down and enjoy nature without a car driving by and the smell of putrid gasoline.
Canada is one of the few places that hasn't been colonized all that well, so there's lots of "in the middle of nowhere" places. And it's "in the middle of nowhere" that I want to live...
Sure, there's how the hell I'm going to get paid for a job to worry about, but that comes later.. I might end up doing something on the internet. -shrug-
Anyway... THAT'S why I want to move to Canada. You guys who want to come to the states are really stupid.. I mean, sure, visit all you want and it's fine but LIVING HERE? Hell no.
Especially not in Georgia. Who the fuck cares about where AWA is. It only happens once a year.
I'll be sure to have a savings account just for AWA.. Because fate knows that I am NOT staying in this horrible place.
... That said, the scariest thing happened to me last night. Well, really early this morning.
I had the most horrifying nightmare I had ever had, EVER, and it wouldn't have bothered me much, if it wasn't for what happened after I woke up.
The dream was basically this...
Everyone who was at Stone Mountain with me, plus Nedra's relatives that we visited yesterday for dinner at the club came to visit my Granfather, who's blind, in some jail cell.(He's not in one irl). We go in, and we're all visiting and stuff, then... I had turned my head at the time, but everyone else in the room saw it(except my grandpa, of course). In the building across(it looked more like an apartment complex/hotel rather then a jail) from our window, a woman was brutally murdered and thrown out the window, over the little porch.
Of course evryone gasped and I looked over to see this woman.. Who was kinda blue looking, her arm stuck in one of the panels of the porch, unable to fall all the way down because her appendage was stuck. She was naked.
Soon after, some jail guy came in, and shut the door behind him(stupid! now we're all locked inside!) explaining that everything was gonna be fine, and he was going to move us to a different room(we found another way out).
Well, he does move us all... But to the room where the murder happened!
Apparently some time had passed, though, because we were in what seemed like a living room and it was wet on the floor(like water) and the guy said "Don't worry, forensics already came in and cleaned everything up."
Well, okay, that would've been comforting if I didn't see a bone on the floor. It looked like a chicken's wishbone. Anyway, I bent down and was going to touch it but everyone was like "No, don't touch it, don't touch it!"
So I didn't. But then my mom turns around, and LICKS IT.
WTF?
Then I wake up.
Now, I summarized that a lot, so there's a few things you should know before I continue. One was that there was a TV, and it kept replaying the fall of the corpse over and over on the news, and in the CNN line it kept repeating somethign along the lines of "We don't know if this was a wizard or just a brutal murder".
They also had not found the guy who did it; he escaped, so there was a distinct possibility he was still on the compound.
Now I know what you're thinking: "Q, you've read ONE too many Terry Goodkind Books", but that can't be it. I brought "Naked Empire" with me to Stone Mountain, sure, but I never got the chance to open the darn thing all weekend.
ANYWAY, when I woke up, my heart was racing. I looked around, saying to myself(in my head, of course), "It was only a dream."
But then I see some big black shadow, and then thinking it was the killer in the room come to get me, I almost freaked out. But I stayed still and said "It's just the dark playing tricks on me."
But did it stop there? No.
Remember how they said that they didn't know if it was magic or just a brutal murder? Well, all the sudden, this misty shape comes and races at my eyes(no duh I'm hallucinating, here) and it just completely takes over my vision and I was literally BLIND(except that ghost-like thing right one top of me).
So I made an as out of myself. I threw the covers off the bed(it was on the ground, I was in the roll away in the hotel), and ran across the room to where I thought my mom was(since I was blind), going "mom, mom, mom!"
And jumped ontop of the bed, trying to get her attention, she goes "What?" ANd I'm crying now, going, "Mom? WHere are you! Where are you!".
That was the worst night of my life. I had never felt so helpless.
I ended up sleeping with her, and my grandma moving on the rollaway, instead.
But it didn't stop there.
Of course it was logical I couldn't get to sleep for awhile-- I was terrified.
So instead, I kept looking around for a good thirty minutes, watching those ghost-liek things float around(my vision had somewhat come back, now), trying and failing miserably to convince myself that the dark was playing tricks on me, and the fact that I didn't have mu glasses on just multiplied it.
Well, I look over to the left, to where the closet was, and there was this man in a suit, looking at the bathroom. He even had a little hat on. That scared me shitless. Everytime someone ruffled the covers, I thought the man was walking over to me, going to kill me. Everytime I thought I heard footsteps, I'd scoot up closer to my mom in the bed. One time someone I guess slammed a door in the hallway, and I swear I jumped 5 feet high in that bed while lying down.
Anyway, I finally couldn't take anymore. I knew I probably wasn't going to get any more sleep that night, so I got up and got my glasses, then went back in the bed. I looked around, and sure the ghost-like things had gone, but there was still the dark's little tricks and stuff.
I look over to the closet, and there that guy is again, but he's closer, and he's looking at me, and I can see every little wrinkle in his face now because I had my glasses on. I'll never forget the way he smiled at me.
That time I was petrified. It was a good two hours before I managed to tell myself that the man was the closet. The closet was open and there was a golden hangar hanger thing reflecting on my glasses, and in the closet were coats. Yeah, it took me two hours to convince myself that.
I don't know how long it took me to actually go to sleep again, but I'll be damned if I got more than 3 hours' sleep last night.
..... So I guess it's good news that I have another counselor's appointment on tuesday. But I telll you that's not soon enough.
If I'm hallucinating... God knows I'd kill myself sooner then go through that shit last night again.
I swear I'd do it.
There's nothing worse than knowing you're hallucinating, but you're still scared shitless anyway.
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