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Gaia
2004-02-02 16:08:44
Opus = off until I get un-addicted to Gaia online.
If you randomly decide to join, say you were referred by Ziko
Because then I get gold! Yay!
And if you already have an account and don't use it anymore, try logging in and trading me all your gold. =p
Thanks in advance! >=p
Also, did anyone else notice that the SAME videos are in EVERY category in this year's VCA?
Man all that disqualifying sucked the awards this year. And when they actually had prizes, too. -
Work, work, work!
2004-01-30 15:22:08
I've decided to stop going to all forums except for demonseal(and I only go there occationally, now). I'd go to Demonseal more often if I were a mod, but do they elect me like they say they will? Nope. They keep Veldrin, and add Darkyre, who I have no idea who they are. S/he's never even BEEN in the art forum. Psh.
So anyway, I've been getting a ton of wierd dreams lately, all involving killing. And I know that killing means change. So I know I am 'killing" something inside of me. In one dream, I killed a random guy because I felt like it, a guy who got on my nerves, and a dude who was attacking me. In last night's dream, I accidentally killed a friend, and I killed Hitler, ending some-odd war. All these dreams keep giving me mixed messeges. They're all jumble dup. I had one really long dream the day before today, and then like 5 dreams last night one after the other.
My headaches have also returned. When I was in middle school, and my freshman year in highschool, I got this bad headaches like everyday, so I had to keep taking advil. I don't remember when they stopped, but they did, and now they're back. It's all so confusing! >_<
I've stopped working on my opus and have begun rping again. We started back up in mirage. Yay!
I have SO much work in school this semester. Last semester was like nothing except for Econ, but now I've got hard stuff! Yikes! Biology we have these long term assignments that we have a week to do... We have to define, well, this LTA we had to define 61 words(And these are LONG definitons) and around 30 workbook pages. I finished all the defining a few days a go, and did all but like 3 work book pages.
I got someone's biology workbook from last semester so I can copy off them, and thnak god I did because it's taking upwards of 3 hours to copy all this stuff, It'd probably take DAYS to actually do!
So all that is due monday or tuesday.
And I had a Laws of Life essay due last wednesday, which I COMPLETELY forgot about(the final draft, anyway), andI found out that if I turned it in the next day I'd get a letter grade off. Youch! He said if I turned it in later that day(not neccassarily in the period) I could still earn full credit. So I worked all through Graphic Arts and lunch to finish the final draft and I did! Yay! I BETTER get a good grade on that... ¬¬
I am now losing my voice because of what Nick did. And you know, I guess I kind of deserve it....
In government(my new e-highschool thing), I have this BIG ass project I have due on Monday. I haven't even started. Econ was all easy-- everything we needed was right there on the website. Government is fucking hard! It basically goes "read these 20 pages and then answer these questions." It feels like busywork a substitute gives, and everyone knows how boring that is.
Not to mention that Government in itself is pretty damn boring anyway. Economics I kinda liked... Government? Fuck... -
Hurting Loved Ones
2004-01-28 13:48:10
Yesterday I was grounded, so it's not like I could write a journal entry.
I stayed afterschool yesterday, because I wanted to play on the media center's computers(bypass groundedness) but I also found out that Nick(a firend of mine) was staying after as well, so I asked if we could hang out.
The thing about Nick and I is that last week I randomly asked him "Do you have a girlfriend?" and he said "no." And I said "Can I be yours?" And he said okay. Which was freaky, cause I thought he'd laugh at me. 0.o
So anyway, I call him and asked him if he liked me more than a friend, and he says "a little" and then I met him yesterday afterschool, and he said that he didn't like me more than a friend. I told him he should've said that on the phone, but he said he couldn't.(Nick's a wierd guy, but also very honest...)
So mainly we just talked for awhile, and it's fine he doesn't like me more than a friend... But then the stupidest thing happened. And it worries me..
We were in the theater, and Nick began to play CDs(he's the theater tech guy) and I came over and began fussing with the sound board. He said not to do it, and I said(jokingly) "But I must play with th ebuttons!" And he said something along the lines of how he'd get in trouble if the sound board didn't work. I fussed anyway, being the obnoxious mood I was in, and Nick got all wierded out. But at the same time, so did I.
It started out with "What can I do for you to stop messing with the buttons?" And I said nothing. And then we began struggling. Like, fighting, but not physically hurting eachother. Then it finally got to the point where I came up with something that would stop me from messing with the buttons. I said "Hurt me" and Nick told me he wouldn't do that. I answered "Well then I'll just have to mess with the buttons." It was nolonger a joke, we both were extremely serious.
We kept fighting(without hurting eachother) until I finally had had enough. We were both on the ground at this point, and I was ontop of him, and I said "Hurt me." And he said he couldn't. I said "Then you won't like what I'm going to do" and I put all my weight into my knee over his crotch.
We kept struggling, and he still wouldn't hurt me for awhile, but finally he said "Well, I didn't want to do this" and put me in a headlock. Only problem was, he wasn't holding me tight enough. I could still breathe. He let go, and he told me to breathe, but I wouldn't. He kept telling me to breathe, and finally I said, "You did it wrong. You weren't tight enough." And I lunged at him. He got me in another headlock, and this time was tighter, and I couldn't brathe. I've been strangled before(literally, to the point where I could see my life flashing by) so I knew how long I could last in that position. I elbowed Nick in his broken shoulder, and he hung on to my neck tighter.
Then there was a knock on the door. We both smacked back into reality and Nick said "That'd definetly be my mom" and he left. Now my throat still hurts and my voice is hoarse from my neck being squeezed so much.
That really bothers me. I was on meds, I shouldn't have done that. I've NEVER done that in real life. It was always online. Where I scare the shit out of the other person and I never get to see their face. But I lost it for awhile, and I figured "fine, there was nothing I could do". So I'm not so worried about it, I was worried about Nick.
So today I went to the theater during third period, when he was in there, and I told him that I came to fix the sound board. He said it was fine, he came in early today and fixed it. Then I told him I wanted to apologise for the way I acted. And he said "What? messing with the board? That's fine."
And I said.. "No.. The... Other thing." He said, "What other thing?"
And I was about to explain it to him until he ran up on stage to go fix something. He shouted back, "Whatever you did, I forgive you."
And THAT's the part that really worries me. I was depressed all day today. I hope I didn't... Well, Gah.
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Dum dum de DUM!... Animetric productions!
2004-01-25 15:42:42
So yeasterday, I didn't have enough time ot make a journal entry... I got caught up in my opus...
But this is what happened, anyway. Went to go see The Butterfly Effect. The ending was predictable, but boy does it knock the socks of my favorite movies. Now my list of favs is: 1. Island of Dr. Moreau, 2. Butterfly Effect, 3. Last Samurai.
While at the movies, I partook in a survey for a movie TV spot....
It was for Ella Enchanted. Lucky for me, I saw the movie trailer the day before that... So anyway, I'm answering these questions, and then I'm thinking... "Just give me the stupid clipboard and I'll write the whole damn thing down; I obviously know more about editing than you do!"... But it was fun anyway... Got a 5 USD coupon for an arcade place.... Probably never going to use it, though.
I'm half way through my opus right now. YAY! And so far... A whopping 3 people know about it... But guess what? They're not allowed to tell anybody! BWAHAHAHA... It's like Project Genius... But Better! Simply because I'm involved.
Heheheh.... I'm so full of myself... -
Natrix, AIDS, and SQ's OPUS!
2004-01-23 17:52:39
So, I'm making my AMV opus. Yay! I'll just codename it KV. You'll find out what it stands for later. =p
Anyhow, nothing to REALLY write today, aside from the fact that editing for the Natrix has now started(filming is done!) and during the AIDS thingy today at school I just worked on my rough draft.
That is all.
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