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Hate
2008-02-29 23:14:07
Hate, it rhythms with fate. But thats not the point here.
I really hate allot of things, I'm sad and lonely sitting. Keeping the time going is terribly insane, I just do the same thing over, hoping in vain, that something will happen differently. Trapped in this awful place. I can't seem to find a way out. I need to escape.
Burning an melting, feelings and power. Concentration, my sole destination.
Needing this, wanting this, reaching deeply within myself, I try as hard as my body can withstand but I can't seem to reach the thing of my demand/want a different setting or pace. Waiting patiently for a day of great grace! I want all of this, it is only a few. or perhaps to much, for me to of ask you.
Sickly pup, oh dread the day. Because the light will shine on your pitiful face.
Over the great arch, your body does long. To sleep forever.
Take it away, you awfully caged beast. For if you get out, none shall have peace.
Monster oh-monster. Please spare the little ones. They meant you no harm, teasing with stones, and sticks. They'd pick at your skin, and bone. Kicking you over and watching you learn. They'd laugh and giggle, as you struggled to walk. Not knowing the pain you felt as the talked. Gnawing on a bone, sitting alone. Tasting the once-was-blood.
The marrow of life, between your teeth. You long for more, in your cage the hand reaches.
The red stuff pours, dumping on you, til they reach for that rifle. Your the last one.
The last mutt or dog or beast they'd own. And now your left, dying alone. -
My friends are all gone.
2008-02-28 02:21:06
Well, I felt really bad today, though I'm not sure exactly why....
A friend I used to know replied to a topic I started, and I felt kinda nostalgic about it.
I used to chat with alotta people, and seems like me and them sorta went our own ways.
Though some are closer than others, I really miss all my friends. (I'm kinda'v a loser to be talking about Im contacts this way...) But whatever. They all seemed to out-grow me.
I always felt like a kid among them anyways. Lolz, I really feel...I'm not sure how to put it. I just miss the old days when I would chat with them all and they were always there to talk. But now it seems like they all became just memories in the back of my head.
Well, I guess I couldn't expect to hold them back forever.
Just wanna let you guys know (if by any chance the people I'm talking about read this)
I really miss you guys! I wish you'd throw me a shout-out every once and awhile!!
See ya tomorrow.... -
Sometimes I die.
2008-02-27 01:00:10
When I die, I awake, to the earth when its not day.
The darkness engulfs me, leaving me ablank.
Black, and full, white and empty.
Crying in the day, and smiling in the dark.
I don't make sense sometimes. Not doing anything, when I need to be.
Loving someone when the least they need is me.
I've made mistakes, and I've been a failure. But please forgive me, because I'm not
going to give up. I promised myself as well as others.
I will succeed, before all is over. -
Cascading dreams
2008-02-26 00:30:07
One morning I woke, an I had a strange dream. So if anyone could tell me what it means, I would appreciate it.
I was standing aboard a much gloomier version of the gekko.(Eureka 7)
I had just entered the room and Eureka was with Hilda and Talho.
She had just put on her jacket and had a bag in her hand.
I asked what was going on, and They wouldn't tell me.
Not until Eureka left, that is.
I found out later that she had sold herself to the army, and was being held captive until The military could find a way to use her to stop the Corallians.
I joined the military, under a fake name and gained rank after winning the trust of my captain. He helped me gain access to places that a new recruit couldn't go.
And he became my friend in the long run. Eventually I had collected intel on where tehy were keeping her. I, along with GekkoState, went and rescued her, and I promised her that we'd never be apart again.
Now I know that you people are thinking I'm strange for this, but heres some more crazy to add to it..
When I woke up, I couldn't stop shaking. Something about that dream had scared the shit out of me. I felt completely different than any other day I had ever lived.
This all happened almost a year ago, so I'm not sure why its stuck with me this long.
Anyways, if you have any idea as to what all this might mean, tell me!! -
2008-02-25 03:15:55
I'm sitting here, doing nothing, typing away my life.
I really hate what I really hate, and I really like, what I don't really hate.
I"m kinda short, kinda stocky. Kinda strong, for you to take on.
I'm more powerful than anyone you know, but would I fight you?
Hell no!
I'm a ninja of secrets, and a fighter of justice. A shadow of life, that passes greater judgment. Nothing you do can sway my thoughts. I'm like a bullet proof vest, in a lead box.
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