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I'm not freaked out anymore...
2002-12-07 17:45:53
Since I had the night to cool down and think things through, I realized that there was nothing to worry about concerning dreddnott; he's much better now that he has me as his girlfriend ;) It's still kinda weird to think about some of the things he said in his journal entries...which brings up a question...he said 'heaven is an orgasm.' How would he know what that feels like, since it was written before he met me, and I'm his first girlfriend...unless he's not telling me something...
I know, I know, I can't be going all paranoid, knowing his strange and often twisted sense of humor. Guys are a complete mystery...which I intend to solve, using my stalker tendancies! ;D -
too shocked to speak
2002-12-07 00:03:57
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
whoa
I am shaking like a leaf
I just read dreddnott's entire journal. Every single entry. Very depressing, cynical point of veiw he has; even after he met me.
I thought I knew everything about him. I mean, sheesh, I've been his girlfriend for nearly six months.
I thought I could read his mind.
Dude, was I wrong.
I t was totally facinating to read everything he wrote, from the obscene language to the amv updates.
The most depressing entry was the one where he said he was going to kill himself...I know what that's like; I've tried too many times to count. I'm glad he didn't suceed...I never would have met him.
One that made me smile was the entry for the 4th of April this year; a few months after he met me. He said 'I have a beautiful girlfriend.' I had no idea he liked me that much only four months after he met me!
Maybe it's the shrink in me that's so amazed that I got into my boyfriend's thoughts. Maybe now I'll be able to understand him better, since I really know how he thinks when he's not around me.
Jacob, please don't be mad that I read your journal. I'm not mad at you; in fact, I love you more now than ever. I've loved you since the first time I met you, and it tears me up that I can't tell you how much I care about you.
If you ever need to talk, you know I'll listen. If anything bad ever happened to you I'd go out of my mind. I love you so much :-X - hello again 2002-12-06 22:57:06 I was bored so I decided to come here; guess I was hoping dreddnott would be here ;-)
- Konnichi wa! 2002-11-29 13:44:16 I finally figured out how this thing works ;-D hey dreddnott if you ever read this let me know ;-x
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