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Normality...
2003-06-01 00:52:14
Went to work --> Came back --> Went to party across street --> Now here, waiting...
Seems so normal...I guess that's why I'm feeling this way again huh?
Nothing happened at work. I really want to quit soon. I don't want to work in a grocery store anymore. It's just really boring and really stupid. The managers are starting to get to me. I did have a little fun, because Dirk (cool cashier) and I had the same exact shift. We were checking out girls the entire day. It was kinda cool, but still really boring and messed up.
Starting work again at 7:30 in the morning. It means I have to get up at 6:30. That means that I have 6 hours of sleep if I go to sleep RIGHT NOW, but of course that won't happen because I'm here typing and I'm waiting...Always waiting...
Yeah, so I came back..And uh, that's it!
Then went across the street to the party. It was mostly adults. The other teenagers really bother me, so I can't stand them. Nina actually looked pretty for once, so it was a surprise. They're all Indians, as am I. But I'm not really into Indians or anything. I like women, but I mean you have to be pretty nice and good looking to get my attention. Notice that I said nice first. NICE, and then pretty. Yeah...
Came back here and just checked on stats. Not working on the video tonight. I should, because I have the time, but it doesn't feel right. I just want to write. Write, write, write! Ugh. Yeah, I'm waiting. Waiting online for my friend. She's really nice and everything. Really nice.. Not sure how I feel about her romanitcally, but it could never happen. She's having a blast at her senior ball and I'm stuck her all alone. She'll come online and say that she was lonely, but really she has friends to hang out with over there and I don't have any. Yeah, no friends. None. If I did then I wouldn't really be writing in here. I would be talking to someone at least online. But yeah, no friends at all. No talking to anyone in real life or online. Yeah...It's just me and my music videos...
I hate my life. I really hate my life. I want to make a vide about just hating life. It'd be the total suicide video. That would be very cool. But yeah, I still hate my life..
Someone just came online..yeah, but not responding... Wooohoo! I have no friends! Yay!
I hate my life.
"This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time..."
Sephiroth -
Wow, people actually read my journal! So happy!
2003-05-31 08:39:07
Yeah, er, and what else?
I talked to ladydx online for the first time last night. She's cool, one very cool woman. I like her a lot. She joined our studio officially a couple months ago. I want to download her videos as soon as I get my cable modem back. Lets see. It's really fun to talk to my "girlfriends."
Heh, was going to ask a girl out from work last night. She's quitting so I just really pushed myself through it. I probably won't see her very much then. I like her. My way to find out if she has a boyfriend is so cheap though. I'm helping her out with her work, and I ask "So, how's your boyfriend?" I know it's the sleezy way to go about it, but what can I do? I asked her out for tonight. Well, I didn't really ask her, but I said "So, what are you doing tomorrow night?" I asked her last night remember? She said that she was probably going to go out partying and stuff. It didn't bother me, because I still don't think that she knows that I like her. It's very interesting. Oh, well..
I wanted to talk to my other dear friend online last night, but I guess I went to sleep to early. My feet and arms were hurting like hell, but I don't know why. I must be getting old or something.
What else...Oh, well, if I think of anything else I write it down tonight. Hopefully all of my friends will be online.
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School is out!!!!!!!
2003-05-30 14:37:45
Yahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
I played the Q Game with my friend yesterday night. It was cool, because I found out stuff about her that even her best friends don't know. Very cool. I also started my new job yesterday. I twas really easy, because all I do is sit there and label bottles, tighten caps, etc. There was one very cute girl there. She's pretty, but she's definitely not my type, so there wasn't really any chemistry. Also, my video is coming along VERY nicely. I'm only about 15 seconds into the actual video, but it's going to be a blast. It'll be my best, freakiest, and craziest video yet. I keep getting new ideas and everything. I'm having a blast making AMVs finally. I think that I'm going to enter it and Oh, Deliver Me into Martyr (spelling correct?) Productions' contest and if I can finish it in time for Anime Expo. I never looked at the contest rules for Anime Expo, but it'd be cool if it was just shown there.
School is out!!!! I was the fifth person out of the parking lot! It was cool, because I RAN out of school soooooooooooooooo fast.
My friend thinks that I'm angry with her, because she upset me somehow. She never got me angry, but just a little depressed. I feel fine now, so I just want it to go back to the way it was two days ago.
SAT is next Saturday. On Sunday I'll start studying like hell. I just really need to study a lot of vocabulary words and remember the format of the test. My scores are steadily improving for the ACT. I need to do a lot of work for that. I want to get at least a 30. It'll be hard, becuase Reading and Science are the hardest sections for me. The English section just has grammer and other symantics in it, so it's a peice of cake. Of course, math is no biggie, but I'd like to get a 36 on the math part. School is out and I'm still studying? How sad....Kupo...
Kupo!
I have to go to work this afternoon. Hopefully Brigid will be there, so I actually have someone to talk to. I just think that she's a nice girl, nothing more. She's more of a sister to me than anything else. I like teasing her too. I'm trying to find a new job. I want to apply at Circuit City or CompUSA. Those would be pretty cool places to work.
I got straight A's for the semester! I'm pretty happy!
I have to take a shower before going to work, because I"m sweaty as hell. Last day for gym and I went all out, even though I didn't win one single game. My three-point shot gets a lot better if I play longer. Nice to know that I have a lot of endurance.
What else? Oh, well, if I think of anything, I'll post it on here later tonight. Oh! I want to know who is reading my journal. I know that 6 people read it. I know two of you guys already, so who are the other four?? Contact me; I'm in dire need of friends!
Devo hasn't e-mailed me in a while. I'm going to update the site soon, probably after the ACT. This summer is going to be hectic and loads of fun! Wow, I wrote a lot.
Alright, enough blabbering, cya later. I hope I can clear things up with my friend later tonight. Maybe I'll give her a call, but she doesn't like to talk on the phone. We'll see what happens.
Sephiroth -
Start new job tomorrow...Somewhat nervous...
2003-05-29 00:03:17
It's funny, because I said nervous and I'm wearing a NERV shirt. Heh, heh..it's not so funny huh?
Yeah....
I had my math final today. It was pretty easy. There was one problem that I wasn't able to get, so I just didn't care about it. I just handed it in and I got an A on it. It was cool, because I was the first to hand it in, and I had to leave the classroom during the exam to pick up my teacher's mail. I finished it an hour early and five minutes before anyone else. The teacher let me grade some papers and junk. Everyone else in that class was so slow. I've pretty much gareenteed myself straight A's for the semester. I haven't had straight A's since Freshman year. I'm pretty happy.
I came back home, played some AMVs, then went out to eat at KFC. Oh, yeah, we're allowed to go if we don't have any other finals to take after that one. My next finals are on Friday, so tomorrow I'm going to start my second job at my dad's place. I accidentally fell asleep after eating. I should really stop stuffing my face and start exercising soon. I want to lose a lot of weight this summer. After I woke up I started studying. I'm getting a lot better now. My last practice test was completely horrible.
Then I started editing and waited for my friend. She must be busy with homework, so I can't really talk to her. Oh, well, it's good that she's getting something done. I have to write in my video journal, so that I can make all the corrections to my video tomorrow night.
Yeah, I'm definitely getting into a daily schedule for my summer. Hopefully I can squeeze in some more things, so that I can finally do everything that I have planned for the summer. It's really hot in this room, so I'm going to go back to mine in a bit. Boy, do I love my journal.
Sephiroth -
Woooooooooohoooooooooooo!
2003-05-28 00:06:26
Let me start off with the beginning.. School was kind of boring. We started our final early in math class, because it takes around three hours to complete (it takes me around 2 hours actually), and we only have two hours for the exam tomorrow. I was blowing right through it, even though it has material from the entire year on it. It was really easy. Then classes, more junk...We got to AP Lit. Kevin and Steve decided to play each other in chess. Since Kevin doesn't really play, I was trying to help him out. Steve was yelling at me for helping him. Kevin lost of course. Then I played Steve, because he gloats a lot. No one beat him in the class, even though he only play two idiots in it. I beat him so badly in that game of chess. It was like "Check, check, check, check, checkmate!" I was so happy that I made that little idiot shutup.
Let's see...I then came back home and put up all of my wallscrolls and posters that I got from the convention. It's one Gundam Wing wallscroll and another Trigun one. I put up two free posters that SunCoast was handing out. I'll take pictures of them so that I can show everyone. I really like my room now, and it's all clean now that the junk has been cleaned up off of my desk.
After that I did some ACT practice. I'm not that great, so I REALLY need to work on it. Like 5 hours a day work. It's a lot, but I think it'll pay off in the end.
I also worked on my video. I finished the trailer. It's really cool. I can't really say too much about it, but it's cool. I have to write about it in my video journal. I'm glad that I'm keeping a video journal now. Everyday that I work on my video, I'll write down what I did, even if I didn't really incorporate it into my video. It'll give me a lot to write down in my summarry for the videos then. I think most video creators should do the same. It'll really improve editing and everything!
Someone remind me to update my user profile on this website. It's REALLY old and needs to be updated. I'll probably do it sometime this weekend. I also need to update the studio website. I wonder where Devo is, because I need his help for a lot of things. He should be back on his feet soon, maybe even with a new internet connection! I'm glad that he's making it on his own though.
Hmm...guess nothing else is there for me to write for. I have to download this song later. It's called Mission by 30 Seconds To Mars. I might want to buy the CD, if it has a lot of good songs.
Sephiroth
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