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I don't know what to do...
2002-10-09 00:12:42
I don't know what to do with my life...but I have diluted myself into thinking that I have at least a little hope left. I can't exactly say what it is, but it's important to me.
Other stuff..not much...alright..will write later since it's late.
Sephiroth -
Hope connects to Life
2002-10-04 21:42:02
When one loses one's hope, then one has no will to live any longer. I've lost that hope, and now I don't have the will to live.
Sephiroth -
I'm not at AWA...
2002-09-29 05:16:22
Well, since I'm not at AWA, I was thinking that if I post in my Journal at least someone might notice that something was there. I got a job. I work at a grocery store, bagging and pushing carts. My first day is Monday, right after school. I don't want to work at a grocery store. I think that I'm going to find it humiliating, but worth while, because I get to have a little cash.
Here are my current school grades to my knowledge:
Chemistry - A
Pre-Calculus - A
AP Government - B
Spanish III - A
AP Literature - B
Cadet Teaching - A
Business Management - A
I averaged it out and got above a 4.0 on my GPA scale. It's awesome. I wish that all of my grades were like this from freshman year. Things will get harder once I start working. I will have less time to do actual homework then.
I've been playing Final Fantasy VII. I was finally able to get Omnislash. It looks amazing. I can't get my golden chocobo, because I keep getting male chocobos. It's hard! I can't stand it and I've been trying for days. I followed all of the guides, and it's still hard!
I still think my life sucks, so who cares. I don't feel like writing anymore. I think I'll go download something.
Sephiroth -
LOVE AND PEACE! LOVE AND PEACE! LOVE AND PEACE! LOVE AND PEACE!
2002-09-18 23:55:07
I like Trigun.
Anyway, lot of stuff happening in my life. Grades aren't bad. Here's so far what they are:
Chemistry - A
Pre-Calculus - A
AP Government - B
Spanish III - A
AP Literature - C/D
Cadet Teaching - A
Business Management - A
I think that I can bring up my AP Government and AP Literature grades before the end of the quarter. This is the year that I'm supposed to bring up my grades. I'm applying for NHS, but I probably won't get in because I'm not in any activities/sports outside of school.
I'm still looking for a job; I'm going to try to get some serious job hunting done this weekend.
I've been reading. I don't know why, but I've been reading. I read a very good book that my friend sent me. It was amazing. Now I'm reading A Darkness At Sethanon, which is the last part of a trillogy that I started in 7th grade. I also read Ethan Frome for AP Literature, and now I'm reading The Scarlet Letter for it. I mean I'm actually reading. Of course I use the cliff notes to do some of my AP Lit homework, but I'm actually sitting down and reading a book!
I've also been working on my Cloud drawing lately. Since I heard of the art contest at Anime Central 2003, I want to try to get this drawing done within a month. Then I'll be able to start a new drawing, which will hopefully be finished by Christmas break. Then I'll have time for one or two more last drawings for the art contest. I can predict that it's going to be a blast, especially if EK comes to ACen. I'm also entering into the music video contest. I think that I'll be able to make two more videos for the contest. I already finished a new FF9 video, which I'm waiting to debut within about 2 weeks.
We got a free DVD player that my brother won in a raffle. Since I'm the only one who could've hooked up the DVD player, I'm automatically saying that it's mine. I want to buy Neon Genesis: Evangelion DVD 3, so that I'll be able to see it on a larger screen than this one. It's awesome.
Oh! I almost forgot! I've been playing FF7. I'm trying to get everything in the game. I saw Aeris' final limit break two weeks ago. It was awesome. I've never seen anything like it. I'm now at the part, where I'm trying to save the Huge Materia from Fort Condor. I'm going to do everything in this game that I can, including beating all of the Weapons!
Well, now I guess that's all that I've got to write about. This little Journal entry took me about fifteen to twenty minutes to write. I was surprised at how much I've done since I wrote my last Journal entry. Now I'm thinking that I should get in the habit of writing daily/bi-daily again. That way, I'll know what the hell was going on in my life ten years from now. I'll be going now. Goodnight everyone, and sweet dreams.
My dreams are sweet; it's real life that's the nightmare.
Sephiroth -
Obsession and Passion
2002-09-06 01:54:58
It's been a while since I wrote in here. I've been going through several personal problems. Mainly with the one thing I care about in this world. I really hate my family, because they have no brains whatsoever. They just never have any sense of...anything.
I was obsessive at one time until I found passion. Now it's all gone back to obsession. I like this obsession though; I hope that it will one day lead to passion once again.
Well, since I'm on the topic of obsession, I'm very obsessed with Trigun. It's an awesome show, even though I've only seen the first 17 episodes. I have to have my friend burn me the rest. He's coming with me to Anime Central 2003. I e-mailed EK about sharing a room, so I hope that the cost will go down. I still have to fill out my early admission sheet and all of the other junk.
I haven't been really working on my secret project lately. I will try to get a lot of things done in it this weekend. I can't believe that my Oh, Deliver Me video won in the Senpai Productions contest. I saw that there was no runner-up/honorable mention for the Non-Anime category, so I'm guessing that there weren't many anime music videos for it. It could just be a fluke or I might've actually had skill and won it no hands down.
School started, and it's very dreadful. I already have a B- in AP US Government. I'm pretty sure that I'll be able to bring it up more, but it'll be hard. I will have to study more than I do right now. I don't know my grade in AP Lit, but I'm sure that it can't be too good. All the rest of my classes I should have an A in. School is alright, I guess. It's not a big deal. The only problem with it is that I have to wake up at 5:30 to get ready for it. It cuts me right in the middle of my beautiful, loving dreams. I wish those dreams were real though. it would be heaven for me.
Still looking for a job... I want to work, but I don't know how I would find the time for it with all of my homework. I guess I will just have to stay up later to do all of my homework.
I've been reading this book that my friend sent to me. It's a really good book, and I try to read it every chance that I get. I don't really want to say the name of the book, because I want it to be special between her and me. It'll be like a common bond between us.
I'm all the way at Wutai in Final Fantasy VII. My Yuffie doesn't have the power yet to beat her father, so I will wait to get her final limit. Sephiroth is undoubtedly my favorite character. Cloud comes in second like always, even though I'm drawing him. I really haven't worked on my drawing either. I need to find time to do all of the things that I want to do. I wish that I could just stop time and do them. It would be amazing. Of course I wish that my friend was here that I could talk to. We talk about anything and everything. She's my best friend, even if she doesn't consider me her best friend.
I've been studying SAT vocabulary words, slowly. I'll be taking the ACT and SAT tests in December. I want to get my test scores early, because I want to know if I have to retake one or both of them to increase my score. If I get a 1500 then I'll show my entire family that they were wrong about me. I don't really like them. I don't like them at all. I have no respect for them, no matter who they are.
Well, I guess that's pretty much the HUGE update on my life. I'll try to post more often nowadays. This only took me about 15 minutes to write, so it wasn't a total waste of time. I'm going to sleep, everyone. Goodnight.
Sephiroth
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