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You like wrong?
2002-06-06 03:08:30
You'll love this:
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WOot!
2002-06-04 01:17:52
it's official..i no longer play UO and i'm $514 richer.
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Right here, Right now.
2002-06-02 14:23:18
I love it when a song forces me to create a new cd for my car. I love fatboy slims right here right now, and I have to thank Great Wang for making the video to VHD:B to the song. Umf. I'm not big into fatboy slim either...in fact, I hate 90% of his garbage.
I'm just starting to come to grips with the fact that detroit is probably going to win the cup, and it'll be great for 90% of the team. why let a few creatons ruin it. (though I still hope carolina stops them.) I hate the idea of a bought team winning in ANY sport, but what can you do. I've liked detroit for 6 years. *sigh*
I wish they didn't get hasek. I'd be rooting for them if they didn't get hasek. .. or hull. blah!! BLAH I SAY! Stupid hockey. Stupid bought team. - Bleh. 2002-06-01 12:48:22 Feeling a bit better today. 10 hours of sleep always does help. :)
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Warning: possble rant fest.
2002-06-01 02:57:55
I'm in a pretty bad mood, and I really dont know what I'm going to type, so you don't have to read this. I think it's just more for me to get it out. It's gonna be an all out whine fest, so if you dont like that sort of thing, please refrain from reading.
I sat here staring at a blinking cursor before I started to type and I still don't even know where to start. I realise we all have pretty fucked up lives and we all deal with them in our own way. I'm 22 years old, and I really dont fit in anywhere or with anyone. I understand that and hang on to the friends I do have to avoid the emptiness of being alone. It's a pretty depressing existance, and I'd probably be one of the first in line to get super-concentrated prozac if the doctor ever saw me for it. But I deal with it. Every so often, it's just a complete overload and I completely break down. It happened tonight.
I'm so utterly terrified of rejection. I cant describe how much. I've always got this feeling like i'm not good enough, no one wants me around, I'm the 3rd wheel in the group, that I'm just there to fill someone elses hole. I want people to know me, to care about me, but I dont. I dont know. I'm sick in the head.
I went to see spiderman with my cousins tonight, who're visiting from out of town. I spent most of the night in a room by myself before the movie playing soul caliber. I dont think I said more than 2 words to anyone the entire night. All I can think about recently is that I'm a complete failure at everything I have done, that I have no direction in life, and everyone is going to disown me when i'm 30.
I cant even get the courage up to tell someone I love them.
I drove around a bit tonight blaring music and generally screaming out the lyrics at 1:30 am to the open road, when Iced Earths Watching Over Me came on. I had forgotten I put it on the cd. that was it, I pulled over on the darkest street I could find, and just bawled for half an hour. I couldn't even breathe. Ever cry so much you couldn't anymore?
When I finally GOT home at 2:30, I sat in my car for a bit just staring blankly into space. I finally got out and started walking up my driveway. halfway up, I considered turning around, getting in my car and just taking off to wherever, and just not bother coming back. I really didn't (don't) want to be around anyone. I hate people, and I hate myself.
Someone get me away from me. I'm so sick of everything. Everywhere I turn is a dead end.
**this is not a nailz wants pity post, this is just to get shit out of my system.**
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