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And I'd give it all away.. to have someone to come home to..
2002-09-26 13:17:44
Warning: More unhappy blather ahead, proceed at own risk.
Hmm, I hate mapping dungeons out for RPGS.. blah. Ah well. I get to play god, so I'm not really going to complain.
I'm starting to lose interest in everything. AMV's, Hockey, School, nothing is appealing anymore. Nothing except anime really. I'm also starting to blur the line of fantasy and reality. I feel like either nothing is real, or everything is real. It's kind of hard to explain, but try to imagine wanting an Eva and actually, for a split second somehow believing that it's an attainable goal. Mind you, not a long thought, and it exits as soon as it enters, but just the idea that believing it to be a reality is scary.
I'm a psychological mess. I havent slept sleep for 6 days now. I've been asleep, but I'm still half concious. Insomnia owns.
Quit my hockey team, because I realised that it's causing more greif than it is fun. When you play to have fun, and the score ends up 13-1 because your team quits on you, and then they blame you for it... (me = goalie) - it gets under your skin.
Hookay then. What else? My new car sounds like it's going to need a complete front break job. Every time I use my breaks it sounds like I'm torturing a dying lion. not good.
School is fun. I'm 3 days ahead in my Learning Access class, and 3 days behind in my Online Accounting II class. Shouldn't have taken it online. that was the biggest mistake i've made. I'm so gonna fail. WEEE...
You know what? I'm going to end it here. This is rediculious. None of you want to read this crap! =p
Maybe I'll Do some editing tomarrow. AWA SUCKS! -
yay.
2002-09-25 01:34:57
Dreamhost just upped my bandwith another 10 gigs. I'm up to 25 now. yay. I'll throw another video up tomarrow. any requests? send me an email or an AIM.
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bah!
2002-09-24 13:58:57
This is just a quick random note about how SICK TO FUCKING DEATH I am of hearing about AWA. I cant wait til the stupid con is over, and I hope the whole building burns down with all of you in it.
... except for the fire and you all dying part of course..
Seems like everyone is going to awa... Guess I'll be king of the org for a few days, ne? :D - 2002-09-19 03:15:22 Ahh, good night. sometimes you just need to go out and shoot pool, drink beer, eat pizza, and watch movies with friends.
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Just when you think it cant get any worse...
2002-09-18 12:57:28
Just remember that no matter how badly things are going, they can ALWAYS be worse, and life is typically RIGHT THERE to reaffirm that fact, if you ever forget it.
On the flipside, even if you've hit rock bottom, good things can happen. Didn't have a very good last night, but came home and signed in, and found I had 2 unexpected reviews for LoTB and a review for my Nightwish video from Akuma waiting for me :D
Then today rolls around, and I check my mailbox, found I got the Tuatha De Danann cd! SCORE! instantly, all is right with the world. Brazilians who want to be irish folk rockers kick ASS.
No AMV progress at all during the week I was supposed to be intensely concentrating on it. I just have no desire to edit, and I wont edit unless I want to, because I refuse to try to meet a deadline. I figure, if ATTWE is done by november, great, I can give it to the band. If not, shit, they can wait.
Someone's trying to book them in rochester too. *crosses fingers*
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