JOURNAL: ShadowbirdCrow (Crow Shadowbird)

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  • 2005-07-20 00:58:45 Prev.;

    Suddenly a few minutes later as they were getting into the part where Drake starts killing off the people who r helping Blade... ( sorry to spoil that but its nothing really big) I hear my Offspring; Americana Cd playing in the yard. So I go outside and hes out there jumping on the Trampoline
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    damn u guys..im sorry...im really screwed up right now..i need to get some ice..and either watch this stupid movie My bro is watching...or just go in my room...*sigh* no one is on yahoo...theres no one i can or will talk to..cu.i dunno..the only one..left..*eyes water* .... how bout i just give u the point and skip the details unless asked for.

    I know im boring and i prob deserved this payback but Dante is like one of my best friends..one i've had sense 1st grade..and i go over there..and all that happens basically is getting in fights w/ his brothers and dealign w/ trash from his "friends"..and then kept disappearing on me..and not even saying anything whatsoever...actually for a period of time about a half an hour i was in his room and he left and then i just went outside to write... he was in the living room with the guys playing a PS2 game or Xbox game..

    When he came out i just changed my page and started sketching and he just sat down and startign doing something in his drawing book. we didn't even say a word. Eveyrthing was just so screwed up..and his mom told me that soemone was giving me a ride home i was kinda relieved but Dante was across the yard and so i tried to wave but he turned and kept walking...

    * bows head* thats all i can take for now...maybe Team America can cheer me up...its pretty funny... dunno..well ill cya laterz..
     
  • What will u do..when tears fall inside..faster then the rain that falls outside..(cont. for the 2nd time) 2005-07-20 00:41:31 Im close to tears now..just thinking of all the shit thats been goign on lately...

    First off..im sick of all these stupid AMV wars... but everyone knows that..

    My b/f has been gone sense Wed and he finally got back today. We started tlaking at 9:00pm and my comp kept acting up.. and at 10:49 pm..he says its late and he has to get off.. The one person i wanted to talk to most after a day like this..has to get off cuz he's tired. I understand why and i respect that he wants to go.. but heres something..

    To me one of the things that u never say..i am not mad at him for it but it just hurt me really bad.. is that 10:49 pm is late...

    I..I can't sleep most of the time...i end up falling asleep anywhere from 2:30 am -4:30 am... 10:49 is not even close to late unless i got hit over the head w/ something..its not like i don't try to go to sleep..but i just can't..and i don't take medications...the only time i can fall asleep early is when im sick, im really comfortable.. ( as in when Tamer stayed at my house for 2 weeks)..or if i got hit with soemthing...or i cried myself to sleep..which i also do a lot. Call my a cry baby if u want... all i'd have to say to u is Fuck off...you don't know me...
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    " So as i burn my tears deeper into my soul I cry within, unable to cry out loud. " - Shadowbird.

    Anyways i shall continue...Last night was just plain..*growlz* just Dante's friends and brothers where getting on my nerves..and he wasn't helping... they kept constantly getting into fights...

    but Today is what has been burned into my head...

    First off... here is " my code"

    My House:

    *Unlike normal people..i got to sleep " Late"...Thus I am the last one to go to sleep most of the time. unless something is wrong..

    * If im asleep during the night and u wake me up...automatically i am up for another 3-4 hrs after waking. In which usually the person who woke me falls asleep so im left to be alone for the hours.

    * I soemtimes wake up at the oddest hours 5, 6, 7, 8, am. When no one is up..then i go back to sleep if im really tired..if not then im restless and groggy for the next hr or 1/2 hr.

    * If i don't do the above i usually wake up after everyone else..or after a few people...but i know them so it doesn't bug me really..

    * If a friend is over..i usually Fall asleep after..and wake up before...
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    At A Friends..

    * I fall asleep after unless something is wrong...

    * i ALWAYS try to wake up before them..i most of the time do..unless as i said something is wrong. I have major trust problems even thoguh they r supposed to be my friends...If they do wake up before me i insist they wake me up...
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    K this is why that was important.
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    I went to Dante's yesterday...no duh,

    But this morning is when it all started. Well first off we were watchign Adult Swim and it was just now going into the second run around stage.. (meanign they were showing Family guy and stuff for the second time. He watched Family guy (( u know the ep were Meg wants to get into the shcool newspaper so her dad writes a fake story saying someone was Gay)) but started falling asleep during Futurama) and he fell asleep.

    So i just stayed up for a little bit and then shut the TV off and layed down. ( of course putting on my " headphone" and listening to Blue Shift). That wasn't that bad..it was actually pretty fun.

    But then i fell asleep not knowing what time it was..( i have this thing abotu knowing the exact time i fell asleep) woke up at who knows what time.. ( i only saw a clock 2 times when i was there..) and looked down to see Dante was gone..

    I got up so fast giving myself a headache and just pissing myself off cuz i dunno..i just..i don't like the thought of people walking around while im sleeping.. ( this doesn't count at my house..well u know the people who live there..)

    So i got my headache of the day..(i get one about everyday..and this one is still going)

    I got up and asked soemone and they told me he was watchign Blade Trinity in the Living room. ( I asked this kid who was there the day before which pisse dme off even more because THEY had come back earlyer this morning and were also walking around while i was sleeping. Damn im paranoid but *growlz* soemtimes its a good thing)

    So i went in the living room and watched a few minutes of Blade Trinity when suddenly Dante left and he said he'd Brb. The door opened to the house and he went outside... So i sat there and simply watched the movie which i've seen who knows how many times...for a little bit..getting creeped out cuz he left me w/ his younger brother. ( I have this thing about little kids..i find them rather.. *growlz* depending on the kid)

    (im gonna cont..)

    Suddenly a few minutes later as they were getting into the part where Drake starts killing off the people who r helping Blade... ( sorry to spoil that but its nothing really big) I hear my Offspring; Americana Cd playing in the yard. So I go outside and hes out there jumping on the Trampoline.



     
  • What will u do..when tears fall inside..faster then the rain that falls outside..(cont) 2005-07-19 23:01:45 K back... as i said he fell asleep...

    But today is when it got really trashy..damn it i already messed up... I spent the night at his house last night..he spent the night at my house the night before...

    The night before last was good..yesterday was ok...last night and today is when it really got sucky..

    errr...damn it...i have too many things going on at once..when things start to clear out..Ill type fully what im thinking k? I promise..

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    Ok but before I go...
    Come on we finally were starting to get things settled down and now someone is getting it all started up again..*sigh* Come on Sammy ur better then that! Don't give into their trash! 
  • What will u do..when tears fall inside..faster then the rain that falls outside.. 2005-07-19 22:49:31 My day was nothing but crap..and i don't think this place is helping...

    I can't tell if Sammy was being sarcastic or not in what he wrote...
    And yet again another war has started here....*sigh*

    Ok..well here goes...

    Dante came over yesterday..that was kewl..like himself he fell asleep early.. like about 2:30 am. I went to sleep at like 3:39..

    brb
     
  • Laterz people 2005-07-17 22:17:21 Wont be on tonight as i usually am..Dante's comign over so im trying ta stay away from the comp as to not bore him. Well better go i have to get changed cuz im in my PJ's and also have to finish up on the computer im working on in my closet. Laterz.. 
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