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Harder Than I Thought
2003-05-29 21:04:42
Well I was going to start remaking some of my old AMVs, espcially the EVA ones or at least attempt to make them better but I guess I have a creative black out right now. Perfect timming huh, when I am in the mood for making something or attempting to try I cant seem to get the ideas through but I guess its been like that for awhile. I made a blank CD of music from the AMVs I plan to remake and I just can't seem to get any real good ideas out. I guess I have gotten so used to the style i have now that my old style is almost unapplyable I feel like Metallica right now. I change dmy style so drastically that its hard to get back into what I began with (like Metallica's new album St.Anger, I dont have anything against it, yet but it sounds like they are trying to be what they used to be and they are not doing that much of a good job). Hopefully ideas will come to me, I dont plan on mass producing AMVs at a fast rate, mere when I have the time get what I feel I can do. I am not at a race to remake many of these AMVs only I guess when I have the idea clear in my head, if this continues I may just delete the EVA clips I have right now and when I have the ideas dead set in my mind I will let them out and do the work that needs to be done. Honestly I want to start remaking something by the beginning of June. But I haven't made that decision yet, the only two EVA AMVs I might be able to remake into my new style is No Place To Run or Gendo The Asshole but I am still thinking I haven't even put Living Dead Rei in my mind, if there is something that deserves to be remade its that AMV since the quality on that AMV is the shits because I made the AMV with a crappy VHS recording card (that I have now, I will never take a freidns reccomendation from a friend tha tmay know alot about computers but little about AMV making) and footage from fan subbed EOE. But like the others I can only get bits and peices of ideas for the AMV, not enough tin my opinion to make a full change to the AMV I will only remake it when I know I can make it much much better than it used to be in my eyes like how Mexicanjuinior did with his Cherry Bomb AMV, I remember watching the AMV years ago and my thumbs were down, but whatching the new version, my thumbs are up, great remake.
Right now the only logical choice for me is No Place To Run by Korn for Shinji Ikari. As for the Asshole AMV that will take time and serious though I know once I don't think about making AMVs and hear these songs my imagination will click but ever since working on the TWINE Project (The World Is Not Enough) my imagination is exhasted. But I will do my best.
Her eis some news I will be at Animethon 10 in Edmonton Albert Canada (500 km south of my home in Fort McMurray) my two AMVs History In Anime and in some ways the premeir to the people who haven't donated money to the golden dounut who are going to be there will see my new Gendo AMV. If anyone wants blank CDs of my work e-mail me and I will arrange it before hand. If anyone wishes to meet me or talk, etc I wont really be hard to find I will mos tlikely be the only one wearing a jean jacket covered with metal band patches (espacially the KMFDM - Godlike one on the back) if you see a guy who that coat on, it's most likely me.
I am having serious doubts about winning I have checked out some of my competition and I am worried about two AMVs two very good AMVs. One is by some AMV maker (sorry if I dont know I told you my mind is exhasted) who made possible the greatest DBZ AMV I have seen in a VERY LONG time and I rarelly ever download DBZ AMVs no matter who made them or what its about I am happy I seen the AMV because it is an amazing video about Vegita with a song that suit him well, using the song Black Black Heart by David Usher. Then there is my greater fear, I will be facing on of my favorite AMV makers, Rubyeye. The same guy who got me into Key THe Metal Idol, Queensryche, and Nightwish is someone I will compete with in the AMV contest. All his AMVs throw my older AMVs in the dust creative wise maybe not loudness (I think he said I may just be the loudest AMV maker in the community but I dont know), I learned alot from taking how he makes his AMVs as well as others I have watch and tried to develop a new style for me which began with Victims Of Moira Syndrome got off the ground with Bat Out Of Hell 2, flying by History In ANime and I finally got it down path by my Gendo video. Hopefully I will get swamped too hard by the judges but hey I am willing to lose if it is a fair judge of which is better, I watched his new AMV that will be competing and like always matching great intensity that I always love to see, there is no one in my opinion in the AMV community that can match AMV intensity that he has, no I am not kissing his ass because I think his work speaks for itself but hey instend of looking over others I got to pray that I will at least win some award someday. For the two plus years I have done this I have not won one single award, maybe I can win at least one award this time around if not then maybe at the next Viewers Choice Awards I maybe the most improved AMV maker or something of that nature but I dont think I will ever win award unless I can make a great opus than my incomparable History In Anime and Dramatic Icon (I think my new AMV deserves some credit) The World Was Never Enough. That may be coming soon.
Honestly I dont feel like making any EVA AMVs or at least remaking one I think I have gotten tired of EVA for awhile and need to lay off it once I am back in that angst fevor then I can make the magic I really need to cut loose and see if I can rmake one of my AMVs that had that hard rock kick your ass attitude that made me pretty original at a time. Lets face it I may suck but my hard rock library in my AMVs is much harder than anyone elses or at least more fist pounding who knows i haven't taken notice to anyone els ein awhile the only other AMV makers that I know who make it normal habit to make loud metal/hard rock AMVs is my AMV god Jesmaster and in some ways mentor Rubyeye. Who knows but I should shut up and do something. Well thats the news from me. -
Whats next for the Metal Wolf
2003-05-25 01:13:58
I cant beleive how great it feels that someone liked my AMV, for a long while I thought it was another AMV which everyone would take turns bashing (which is the reason why I spazed out in the past two entries, mainly the first of the two) and the only AMV that would ever get a great review was History In Anime. I guess that review hightened my spirits and at least tells me I am going in the right direction to getting more respect. So whats next for me to venture off into.
Well I have decided that my summer project is merely trying to remake my old AMVs. Yes something everyone likes to insult me about is the amount of AMVs I have made in my to put it loosely "legacy". I want to remake them because comparing my last three AMVs "Bat Out Of Hell 2:Ryoga Hibiki", "History In Anime", and my current "The World Was Never Enough: Case Study Of Gendo Ikari" to my old AMVs (with exception to Wet Obession, Humans Being, Bat Out Of Hell 1) is stifuling. I can't even watch my old AMVs squinting and roaring about how bad it was wondering why in the blue hell didn't I work on it better. I feel I can touch up on it now and try to make it much more watchable without the harsh critisim, and also make them look much better since I have DVD footage to work with, while before when I worked on those old AMVs in the beginning I had nothing but VHS footage. I want to remake them to the best of my ability while I prepare for my next brain child (I already have it clear in my head) which I plan to start on in October if possible (I still need alot of planning and more experience under my belt before I venture on to doing it). I will start reworking on my old EVA AMVs, I still have my EVA clips on my hard drive so I might as well use it to rework on
Gendo The Asshole (remake my very first AMV) -Asshole by Denis Leary
Shinji's Cryin' (A look into what I think Shinji's true feeling for Auska)-Cryin' by Aerosmith
No Place To Run (A typical Shinji AMV, yes so clique today but at the time I did it I dont think it was all that prominent) - No Place To Hide by Korn
Amazing (About Auska rise after extreme depression) - Amazing by Aerosmith
Living Dead Rei (The AMV that surprisingly got the best reviews out of them all I did the AMV when EOE was not out on DVD, now that i have it I can make this AMV much better, this AMV I beleive taken a more decrepid look at Rei insted of peotic or jokingly) - Living Dead Girl by Rob Zombie
Auska's 5 Minutes (Definetly my worst of the EVA AMVs all based ont he serious over used fight scene between Auska and the EVA series, I can make the picture quality better but I guess I can save an already dead duck)
Then I will venture on to remake other AMVs like my Dominion Tank Police, Cowboy Bebop, Devil Man, etc. that is if and when I get the time.
As for the next AMV I creating in possibly October would most likely be rejected to be hosted on the local drive here because I plan this AMV to be a pure blood fest (a horror), it is an AMV I have thought of and planned for for almost 2 years but never done because I thought it was too elaborate and I wasn't ready to make something so complex (still ain't) I guess I don't want to make it for the fact of anyone just for the fact that I done it. As for anyelse I dont know after. But the AMV is my SWORDS project (like my gendo AMV was called the TWINE project, and my History in anime video was called the FIRE project) all I wills ay right now is listen to "I Am The Sword" by Motorhead and guess where I am hinting at it, and no its not truely going to be about Kenshin but it will play a part. The AMV will be my follow up from History In Anime, in the amount of aniem I plan to use for it. ANd I think it is about time I start to cut loose music wise I think I have gone to soft for the past few AMVs music wise with the likes of Meat Loaf, Billy Joel and Garbage It hink I need to get back to my AMV roots and use under used hard rock/heavy metal bands like Motorhead, and others.
Other than that i feel much better now and i hope more people review my new AMV, I guess I would like high rating reviews (look me in the eye and tell me you dont want anyone saying your AMV sucks) but all I can say is be truthful with you AMV I much rather hear/read the cold hard truth about what someone thinks of my AMV insted of someone kissing my ass when in reality they hate it but do it over pity or just plain hate it and trash the AMV just because they want to see me spaz again. Who knows, its 12am here in Fort McMurray, I am going to sleep.
Song that is playing on my winamp: Machine Man by Judas Priest my theme song when I used to play the DBZ version of Bid For Power till those blasted Funimation banned it and copied a reckless crappy version of it in the name of Budokai, lets face it Funimation should have allowed them to make it, get rights to it and try and sell it it would have been a great DBZ game that would imensely be popular, if there was I would make my own DBZ character if possible and reign supreme as the Metal Wolf (namek of course) but I am not a serious fan of DBZ in fact I have serious disliking for it in many ways it is just I like Bid For Power DBZ version, so much freedom and the song fits how I fought, reminded me of the good old days before Funimation ruined it. I was so fgood at it close to the end that even when my friends were using that big moneky to try and beat me they couldn't and they ended up runing from me (no joke, I swear it on both my grand mother's graves) and they didn't suck. Well I should shut up now, I talk too much. - Calmed down a bit 2003-05-19 19:27:33 I have calmed down a bit, sorry if I offended anyone, it was something I needed to get off my chest but I still stand by my words, never the less I ain't quitting if that is what anyone thinks if ther eis one gene I got from my family it is being stubborn.
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I guess hard work and dedication don't matter anymore
2003-05-19 13:52:57
Before I go on my hateful rant about the past few days I will run by the news with me, since I am done my AMV (that no one seems to like from how I read the star rating) in the next few days I will start reworking on my old AMVs to try and make them better. Possibly by June I may make another donation to the golden dounut if my pay check is good. I will rework on all my Evangelion, Cowboy Bebop, Patlabor, Devil Man, Dominion Tank Police AMVs and possibly remake my classic Vampires AMV and revise it with new vampire anime where the AMV needs it the most (weaker parts of the AMV). Now that the news is over time for my hateful rant directed to my critics.
I guess the problem everyone used to say I had with my AMVs was that I didn't try hard enough. I thought i had finally won acceptance from the AMV community with History In Anime. Then I working much more harder of my The World Was NEver Enough and it seems to be getting bad star ratings. I dont know about any of you but that is reallymaking me miserable. Hate to be like a cry baby but I worked on that AMV as hard as I could and for as long as I could to the point where there wasn't anything I felt i could do with it an dhere it gets a bad star rating. I guess the cry baby in me that I have been trying to hide is ugling out to prepare for a childish sprat I feel I need to do one since i haven't in awhile.
Its come to my attension that I seem to be like Motorhead/Megadeth around here to late for old style AMV making, to early for "feel", no matter how hard I try to make something good (Megadeth) it still would never compare to whatever one else wants (Metallica). I guess hard work and dedication don't matter anymore around here. No one wants to review this AMV but the star ratings are completely crap and thats what fustrates me what is bad about this AMV, is it because no one like Gendo Ikari or is it the fact no one likes me, I know at this moment kthulhu would say both since he is usually the one found making the jokes towards me as memory stands.
I guess I been through this before. Fuck them all! Its obivous that I can satisfy anyone who my AMVs because 2 thing, special/digital effects and video quality. I have gone a long way sinc emy old AMVs wher emy video quality used to be crap now that I have learned how to use TMPEG, oh looky looky everyone dont use that old program anymore they all gone to this XVID thing now, like Motorhead always at the wrong place at the wrong time.
I have ask Non-Professional if he would like to review my AMV, no answer but he hasn't given an answer to the others either but hey still the same.
I even on the opinion board went out and said I will try opinions/stars with people meaning in my words they review my AMV and give it a star rating according to how they liked it and I would do so too, I could only download a few for this week but in June I will be able to download more and no one seems to take me up on the offer.
And there is another thing more proof that people dont seem to like me around here, when I did have a host other than the LOCAL one it was under constant attack and only lasted for not even two days. My friend who was holding the server refuses to tell me who done it all I know is that it was three AMV makes, one was a respected one. All attacked the server not allowing anyone to see my AMVs, more proof that I seem unwanted here, my friend even said that one was jelous but I wont take that any far because who in the blue hell would be jelous of me.
SO many people want me out but you know what, I ain't leaving!
Oh fuck everyone in this place I am sick and tired of trying to make them all happy, I am proud of my new AMV, I am proud of all my AMVs and if people are quick to redicule me because of past mistakes (making tons of AMVs while no one helped me when I needed it) fine those people can kiss my ass! - FINISHED! 2003-05-16 13:31:03 I am finished my AMV after two months of busting my ass on it. I worked more hours on this AMV than I ever di on anything. I will put it on the database after I finish this, as for making it a LOCAL download I will do that in a few hours because I also got vamp up my History In Anime AMV, while keeping the censors on it and then upload both of them to the animethon 10 AMV contest FTP server. Then when I am done I will probably upload it to the LOCAL server. So that is what I am doing today, as for future events of AMV wise I dont know I may remake many of my old AMVs over time. But I am not sure.
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