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Again I feel like a idiot, that isn't hard for me
2004-05-04 03:07:09
Right now I am dealing with an error I can't understand. I am sure its a simple stupid mistake however right now I dont get it. I have kept everything the same about the script for nearly a year and I never had a problem, not one. Now going through the same thing I have always done it gives me these errors. I dont exactly understand it. I checked the quotations and they are as exact as they came be I checked every space and letter. Maybe I didn't check hard enough I dunno but for the past AMVs all I do is copy and paste the same script into the VirtualDub AVS editor then go "save and refresh" then in the background the video would pop up and then I would get the clips I need. Like beofre it wont allow me to. I may re install AMVapp, maybe I got an out dated one but I feel that shouldn't be the excuse I mean doesn't the program run on its own with no connection to the main site or the such. I dont know I have never been a know it all with computers.
Its these such things that make me even more depressed than I am right now. I can get anything right, its like the computer is telling me to give up. I dont want to, I am stubborn little shit. I just need to get through this thing.
song of the night: "New Generation" by The Scorpions (from their new album), tomorrow hopefully if I get out of work early I will cash my pay check and buy the new album, if the stupid CD stores have it but lets face it they suck I mean they dont even know who "Alice Cooper" is. I mean even I knew who he was before I became of fan of his work. I just remembered him as a guy who black face paint. I don't know, forgive me I have been in a bitchy mood for the past week. I need some good rock and roll. This year is gonna be good for metal/hard rock
I mean
Tomorrow Unbreakable by The Scorpions
June 7 - Once by Nightwish
June 22 - Inferno by Motorhead
a new AC/DC album
new Judas Priest with returning Rob Halford
possible new Blind Guardian album
July - Subsurface by Threshold
possible albums from DIO, Slayer, Rammstein, and Fozzy
I mean what is better than that? nothign I think. I was dissapointed in last years line up
Iron Maiden - Dance Of Death (I hate the album, except for Wildest Dreams is the only good song on there)
Anthrax - We've Come For You All (not bad but honestly not enough for me to buy it)
Metallica - St.Anger (I didn't mind it, they are on there way back but honestly they need to lose Bob Rock, I feel it was him who ruined Metallica in the first place.)
Everclear - Slow Motion Daydream (I like this album, much better than their last two albums)
Nickel BackThe Long Road (solid rock album)
KMFDM - WWIII (I didn't like Attak very much, this album is a much needed return of the KMFDM I know)
Meat Loaf - Couldn't Have Said It Better (I liked it, lets just leave it at that)
Vertical Horizon - Up (Great follow up of "Everything You Want".)
Godsmack - Faceless (I wish I didn't buy this album, I loved Awake better)
Black Label Society - The Blessed Hellride (shit ass album except for two songs)
Sepultura - Roorback (ok album but honestly I expected more from them, definitely after their their greatest album, "Nation".)
ok I will shut up now. I need a chill pill - 2004-05-03 14:39:35 Well here I am again a day later nearly, maybe a few hours who knows. Last night I needed to vent out a little bit of emotion thast I couldn't get out for awhile. Either way I am still working on getting clips ready for my next AMV attempt. Who knows anymore but it I will say this, it has something to do with the anime Nadesico.
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Lost inpsiration/Finding Metal Wolf
2004-05-03 01:37:02
Well it seems from my schedual next week if I can beg my boss Bev to give switch my wednesday day off and put it on Saturday then I can go to Vancouver and see Iced Earth. I just seen a clip of Iced Earth live, with Ripper singing and my god that makes me want to get a ticket right now. Of course if Bev says no I will understand. Just as long as I have my July weekend off I dont really care. Its obvious to me that Sait is probably not gonna mail me any answer. I e-mailed them about it, haven't heard a reply. I am expecting a no from them. Either that or a BIG yes but I doubt a big yes, I may be good but I know I am not that good. Inf act I have no faith in myself anymore. Even in my AMV making I have lost faith in anything I wanted myself to make 3 new AMVs for Animeathon and honestly I haven't gottena ny of them done. Yes I got BOOH3 done but that was for Otafest, not Animethon 11. Right now I have to make 3 AMVs in one month. If this was the old Metal Wolf he could do it. But we are talking to the pussy Metal WOlf who has gone soft after the few years. No more anger in my mind not to mention I have no inspiration. I can make AMV if that but I doubt it would be good anyway. Its nobodys fault but mine. Vlad has given me lots of time to ge tit done. I just can't find the drive anymore to make AMV. I ge tin the middle of it, when I am half way there i jus tlose interest and feel like its not worth it.
There is another hope for me, to attempt on AMV, even though I know bringing it into Animethon 11 i know I wont win, that actually doesn't matter to me. The matter for me is to be Elite/Reg at AMVs. If they beat me in AMVs you might as well duck tape my mouth and kick me down a cliff forcing me to listen to ABBA music on the way down. Thats something I dont want to do is lose to them, Reg maybe but Elite is a big HELL NO!
I feel miserable. Physically I feel like superman with a diet that is actually working (i have been toot hin I have been trying to gain more muscle). Mentally like before is just empty. I know Vlad wouldn't accept remakes of old AMVs I have made that I know for sure that no one have seen at least any for the last 2 years. Honestly I wouldn't accept it either. Making this AMV is more about to myself that I can still make an AMV with kick ass metal/hard rock, for th epast years i have gone soft and changed so much that I can't make inbetween, keep my experience withI have not a applying it to making hard rock/metal AMVs. I got one last shot. Making a good AMV is more the less proving to myself that I still got it and to defeat Elite/Reg to prove my point that they can never beat me at my own game.
For those who dont know those are, lets just say I have a grudge against a guy I call Elite (because he thinks himself as so) who loves to bully me at things he good knowingly I suck at them. While he never competes against me at things I am good at. I have been talking trash about him for nearly a year and since he makes video game music videos with the help of an old friend of my named Reg (who made a few AMVs here and there) he plans to beat me if he gets excepted to Animethon 11 or in some other way. I find myself competing against him more than anyone else.
Thats pretty much it, I know if I can come back from the Iced Earth concert in tact I would have the motivation to bring the Metal back in Metal Wolf. For now I am just The Wolf right now in most ways. If you could could describe my AMV likeness as MEgadeth or so I am in my personal "Risk(using other types of music)/Capitol Punishment(remaking my old AMVs" era, I wanna get to my "The World Needs A Hero" era . The only answer could be Motorhead or who knows.
The only good news that in a few days I can get the new Scorpions album hoping that a once great rock band can get back to rocking, fromt he sound bites I heard, they have. I need some new and good hard rock/metal music to get my motivated. The Glorious Burden by Iced Earth is starting to get stale, I love the album but after hearing it constantly, its getting old. I am only 19 and I feel old, how pathetic.
song of the night: "Up For It" by Rollins Band - Progress none the less 2004-04-28 00:30:59 Thats the slogan right now for me, behind schedual with my AMV but I have been working on for hours on end each day to make it good. 36% done it. By tonight I hope to get 40% done with all the special stuff in it done.
- New life 2004-04-24 13:59:20 With the help of SQ, Janzki, and Scintilla (whose always a help). I would work on the AMV right now but I go to work in a short bit. Hopefully when I get home I will work on that part and see if I can make heads or tails out of what the 3 said. I think I can get it done but who knows. With those shrinking scenes out of the way then I can get on to the other things I wanted to do with the AMV.
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