JOURNAL: Genko

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  • Lousy no lock with girls n' all blah blah blah -_- 2004-09-20 23:13:05 I HAVE NO LUCK WITH GIRLS!!!

    I will no go talk to girls >>; 
  • No Title 2003-10-27 20:05:14 We all struggle with things held within ourselves,
    our pains, our fears, All that has become a part
    of whom we are...

    But there are those of us, who try as we do, can never reach the goal for which we seek.
    Mine is retaining my sanity long enough to find
    a way to destroy all the subdued anger that
    fills my heart.

    Since childhood, life has been one bitter hardship
    followed by the next. And I, forced to deny myself
    the right to emotion, became one whom the world held nothing for.

    We strive to find our place in the world, or in life, only to never fully understand it, or whom we are.

    My struggle with the torment inside my mind has
    cause me to grieve so bitterly that I have had no peace since I was only a young child. I do my best to hide from others this pain, this part of myself which I hate, that I hold inside of myself, but as hard as I try, it cannot be contained anymore...

    Even now,, these things, my binds, my only way of subduing ths pain, this anger, are being removed, taken from me against my will, because the one
    I am inside my heart is trying so desperately to
    free himself from this prison I have created.

    And so I have begun to change once again, this
    time for better or worse I cant say, but a required
    change this is...

    But I cannot do this alone....
    Not without killing myself before I make it.
    So desperetely I want with all that I am
    to call out for help? But to whom can I
    turn, who would be willing to help me?

    We all seek the easy things in life, and when others
    need us we cannot accept the fact that they need
    our help, nor do we offer it.

    But there are those, special and rare, that can
    and will do what they can to help those for
    whom they care for, and are cared for by...

    Not even my own family can help me now, and
    unless I find one of these special ones, will I ever
    be free of my torment....

    Who will help me now.......?

     
  • ¬¬ 2003-10-23 22:25:49 IS IT SO FREAKIN OUTRAGEOUS TO ASK FOR AN OPINION OR REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    GIMME GIMME GIMME!!!!!!!!!!

    *cries* 
  • Inside 2003-10-22 14:58:41 Filled with anger, alone one may walk.
    Filled with darkness, anable to hide it
    anymore, one lives off the strength of others to hide himself.

    The darkness of ones heart can fill
    into all crevases, leaving marks or
    turmoil and anguish as it passes.

    It is this turmoil that binds who
    we are, and whom we know we
    should be.

    Denied one may stand, denied
    the right to be themselves.
    Torutred by memories of
    the past, the find a way to
    live in this world by seeing
    through the eyes of another,
    and by finding meaning in
    people other than themselves.

    Now incapable of living for themselves,
    they live for those they care most about,
    and those that are everything to them.

    What we choose to do now determines
    all that happens next.... 
  • Just updating 2003-10-20 09:33:27 Luckily I have not gone Mentally insane yet.
    But I did manage to get a MP3 player.

    And keep in mind! The Yu-Gi-Oh! Anime needs ALOT of
    work b4 it's really good.
    But the card game is really addictive. ^^

     
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