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2002-12-27 13:30:42
I hate purity
I Hate goodness
I don't want virtue to exist anywhere
I want everyone corrupt
I wonder who you think you are
You damn well think you're God or something
God gave life, but God also took it away, not you
I think you are the Devil itself -
...Because there's no where that I could be without you...
2002-12-27 02:22:52
Music: Manic Street Preachers "Faster"
Mood: good question...
Today was pretty cool. I got to talk to September in the morning. It was kinda funny cuz she usually isn't even awake until mid-afternoon. I guess it isn't summer anymore ^_^
We're gonna see each other on Saturday. I can't wait!
I got my Perfect Blue video finished. RAWK!
I also put together a CD-R (with my video on it) for Jesse as well as filled out an application form for the SC AMV contest. I need to get that to him sometime soon.
I took back some stuff I didn't want today. With some of the money I got back, I bought a comic by the almighty Bryan O' Malley (Hopeless Savages) as well as bought the new Manic Street Preachers album.
I forced my dad to listen to my hide CD. It was fun! ^_^;;
*Sighs* I can't wait till Saturday....for obvious reasons
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Mou hitori de, Arukenai...
2002-12-26 13:11:11
Music: Boogiepop Phantom OST "In Heaven"
Mood: spoiled rotten
Well, Christmas was pretty cool for me this year. Here's a list of everything I got:
CDs:
X-Japan-The Last Live (3 CD set)
hide-Psyence
Ben Folds Five-Selftitled
Various artists-hide tribute spirits
DVDs:
Nine Inch Nails-And All That Could Have Been
Fight Club
Boogiepop Phantom volumes 3 and 4
Chobits DVD episodes 1-9
Hellsing vol.3
I also got a The Vines shirt, a new gi for Karate, a big box of tic-tacs (^_^;;), some socks and underwear (of course), and Peach Girl volume 7!
I also got registered for Sakuracon, and was given $50 spending money from my uncle.
I also got 50 dallors combined from all my relatives.
My mom also got overcharged on the Last Live CD set by over 60 dallors, so I'm gonna get that fixed and get the difference in the cash.
Man, am I spoiled or what? -
I can't face the thought of being alone. I sing for the song still carries on.
2002-12-23 03:33:13
music: X-Japan "Longing~Unchained Melody"
mood: longing (wow, what a coincidence! : P )
BigshotJordan: I'm gonna be really open here...
BigshotJordan: I really want to make love to you
BigshotJordan: *runs away*
Pigskinseason: lol you're adorable
Pigskinseason: ...me too...
BigshotJordan: *blushes*
Pigskinseason: ::giggles::
BigshotJordan: But seriously...um....
BigshotJordan: jeez! ><
Pigskinseason: lmao
BigshotJordan: You looked so pretty and you were so nice...and everything was just so perfect...and... *melts AGAIN*
Pigskinseason: ..thank you # ^-^ #
BigshotJordan: you don't think I got too intense, did you?
Pigskinseason: You were so tender, and so sweet...I love you so much...!!
BigshotJordan: so were you...but just..soo much more!
BigshotJordan: ^_^
Pigskinseason: lol I was wondering how you were able to just--stop...
Pigskinseason: ^-^
BigshotJordan: hehe, I don't know. Not that I wanted too ^^
BigshotJordan: I wish I could have just stayed there with you all night
Pigskinseason: same here--I didn't want to have to leave
BigshotJordan: I fantasize about it all the time--just you and me lying there all night long, just lost in each other
Pigskinseason: ::nods head, unable to speak::
BigshotJordan: If that ever happend...I don't think I could ask for anything more
BigshotJordan: I wouldn't need anything else
Pigskinseason: I don't think I'd ever WANT anything more
Pigskinseason: that would be everything
BigshotJordan: exactly ^_^
Pigskinseason: ^-^
BigshotJordan: someday. I don't know when, but someday it'll happen
BigshotJordan: I'm gonna wish for it every day
Pigskinseason: I already do
BigshotJordan: ^_^
Pigskinseason: ^-^
BigshotJordan: I can't help longing for you
BigshotJordan: Every night I just sit there, staring at the cieling. There just seems to be something missing, like an empty space.
BigshotJordan: know what I mean?
Pigskinseason: definitely--I lay there, and I dunno, I seem cold without you
BigshotJordan: yeah, me too
Pigskinseason: I roll around trying to get warm, but I can't never seem to really get warm without your arms around me.
Pigskinseason: I'm sorry, sweetie, hold on--my mom's home
BigshotJordan: k
Pigskinseason: sweetheart, I have to go
I lvoe you sooomuch
BigshotJordan: me too. I'll try to call you tomoorow, okay?
Pigskinseason: ^-^ alright
BigshotJordan: sleep dreams, hime ^^
BigshotJordan: *sweet ~_~
Pigskinseason: sweet dreams, hinura
Pigskinseason: ^-^
Pigskinseason: *himura
Pigskinseason: ~_~*
BigshotJordan: ^_^ goodnight. I love you with all my heart
Pigskinseason: I love you with everything I am
Pigskinseason: bye, love
Ah...love...
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Endless rain, fall on my heart In this wounded soul. Let me forget all of the hate, all of the sadness.
2002-12-22 00:16:47
music: X-Japan "Endless Rain"
mood: romantic
"I felt so close to you tonight. I was lying there with you, wanting to make
love to you, knowing I couldn't, and I realized that in a way, we already
were. When we were just laying there, you were fulfilling my every night's
dream; just to lay and hold you. Then while there, in that same thought,
something told me you were thinking the same thing, and I realized how close
our souls were; that although all were were doing was laying in another's
embrace, that that was all I needed; that our souls were already touching,
already feeling the love our bodies wanted to feel.
Also, when we were sitting, watching Mystery Science Theatre, and we were
laughing and I was being all creepy, I noticed how much fun I have when I'm
with you. I know I don't always mention it, but you're so much fun, and I
just love doing simple things with you like watching tv and talking about 230
beats in a tempo ^-^ I mean, you're my Himura, and I love you, but you're
also my best friend.
I love you!
Sep"
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