JOURNAL: Ryochan7 (Travis Nickles)

  • On the Edge 2003-04-02 22:41:09 Hello to anyone that actually knows of me. I know that it has been a long time since I was here last. These last few months have been the worst in my entire life. All I seem to be to people is a bank anymore. I am always giving money to my family to either pay bills or to help them to improve their computer. The thing that makes me angry about that is the fact that it makes me feel guilty about what I am doing, and that I am doing this for the wrong reason. The main reason I give my family money, especially for their computer, is so they can stop using excesses for needed my computer and so they can get out of my life.

    My motivation has been destroyed because I feel that I, as a person, am worth nothing. I need an outlet for my life. I need something to believe in. I need something to live for. As I approach the end of my senior year of high school, I don't know how I will manage during college. If I can't control my emotions, I think that I might do something that I will regret.

    This journal isn't supposed to be used to express personal feeling about a person beside anything involving AMVs, I know that, but if I don't tell anyone about my dilemma then I will snap.

    I can't stand this anymore. The sun is down and will never rise again. 
  • Stupid me! 2002-10-11 12:43:58 It is finally going to happen! I am going to make a video, even if it will turn out to be a big pile of crap. I just had to buy a new processor for my computer because I accidentally fried my old processor while I was rushing to get many things done at once. After about the third time my computer had to shut down, the processor gave up and stopped working.

    My computer now uses a XP1800 instead of a XP1700. I think I mentioned this in one of my other entries so I apologize to everyone in advance. The main reason I invested in a computer was to make AMVs. However, I have never used it for that purpose. I just need something to do with my free time right now so I will make a fairly noobie quality AMV just to pass time.

    Just like everything else I do, I always feel that I have to make projects controversial in order for them to be noticed. The anime that I plan on using for my video is Tournament of the Gods and the video will be to Disturbed's song Prayer. The footage for this video will be from a VHS copy so I don't plan on receiving high points on capture quality, or any other category for that matter.

    At this time, I think that I will start working on my video tonight and I will release it next weekend. Sayonara. 
  • School is for losers! 2002-09-01 06:46:44 Hey yo once again. School just started last Tuesday and I already hate being in there again. I'm just glad this is my senior year and that I will finally be out of the Peoria High hell-hole next summer. I already have major class requirements to start working on even though I haven't been back for a week. As for other things, I will going to a LAN party this weekend so I actually have something cool to look forward to. Work is the same as always, a cold hell. My brother has been hoging my computer for the past week and a half so I haven't been able to do much on my computer to prepare for the LAN party or to update my site. Hopefully that will all change soon.

    The only other thing that has happen to me is that I have bought an ATI TV Wonder VE. I still haven't put any time aside to start an AMV but I do have a couple of ideas. Whether I will actually make one or not is unknown.

    That's all I have to say about that. I like the way you talk. 
  • Oops 2002-08-19 04:53:01 I was so tired that I forgot to include the site addy. My bad. Later.

    http://bored.onlyhere.net 
  • Me bored = Me make site 2002-08-19 04:51:49 "It's so wonderful to have you beating up random people in our town. Welcome."

    Hello pepoles. As I always do, I make a journal entry when I am tired and bored out of my mind. Nothing is really special about this post, just like the others. I was bored so I decided to resurrect an old idea. I have finally released a website for the Bored Alliance. Now, if I would only resurrect an AMV idea.

    The idea for the Bored Alliance site actually surfaced about a year ago. It was originally intended to let my school chums have a fun place to hang out after school, besides a real place like the ever so popular mall. That idea eventually failed because most people didn't care and I found out that most people in my school don't even own a computer. That version of the site has been erased for a while and I decided that I would make a website because I have nothing else going in my life at the moment. I didn't think that I would bring the Bored Alliance into existence again when I started making the page, but the look and overall lack of content made me think that this should at least start as my once failed project. One reason for the lack of content is that I erased everything from my old site build so I lost a lot of Javascript actions, like the new, glitch-free countdown timer. I guess it was for the best because I actually made some things better than they were before, see comment about the countdown timer in the last sentence.

    Right now, this site is just mainly for hosting my future AMVs, if I ever get around to making some. There isn't much to see, but I would be grateful if some people would give me some hits on my new site.

    I'm pretty tired right now so I can't think of anything else to write.
    School starts in a week. NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! 
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