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A day at the Art Gallery of Ontario...
2003-10-17 17:03:32
What a day. I was on my guard the entire time!
There was an art field trip, so my art class and the photography class got together to go downtown and visit the gallery (AGO). It was really quite nice. We did the same thing last year, but there were still a few new things to check out.
As everyone who reads this probably knows by now, since I can't keep my mouth shut about it, there's 2 girls I really like. And guess what, one is in photography, and the other is in my art class. Therefore, we all went on the trip! You'd think there couldn't be anything better, right? Well think again. I had to watch every single word I said in order to make a good impression. I kept debating whether it was a good time to talk to one of them or not. I couldn't help but be constantly worried about how I looked! And none of my conversations were even close to being called adequate! I feel like a total wreck. It's times like this you appreciate whatever little free space you get. Phew...
Off topic:
Here's a little advice. If you don't want any attention, don't wear band-aids! The other day I over did it with the punching bag, and both my sets of knuckles were bleeding. So I put a band-aid on each hand. The next day I got seriously 16 comments. It got to a point that I started hiding my hands, because everyone asked what was wrong.
Person:"What's wrong with your hands Kevin?"
Me:"Oh, I just cut them"
Person:"Doing what?!"
Me:"Working out"
Person gives me a weird look:"Lifting weights?"
Me:"Actually no, using a punching bag"
Person:"Ohhh... well next time wear gloves!"
It's nice to know people care, but even I couldn't handle that much attention. Anyways, they aren't bleeding now, so I took off the bandages. I don't know if I should workout tonight though, because it might just aggrivate them... Hmmm...
Kevin (Anime Jedi) -
First "in car" driving lesson...
2003-10-16 19:51:43
Well, that was definitely interesting... But seriously now, it was pretty cool. All except the part where my dad wanted me to drive home. I looked at him and said "I've driving one day, and you expect me to drive home right away?!?!". I was not happy about this. Anyways, right out of the school parking lot, I was too slow, and this guy came speeding up to the side and started honking at us. My dad's like "Come on, step on the gas!". I gave him such a dirty look, and kept going. Later on I just said plainly, "Look, you wanted me to drive, and I didn't want to. I know when I'm ready or not. So don't start with me.". I really hate it when he wants me to drive all the time. He's practically obsessed with it. It's pretty much the one thing that he puts the most pressure on me. -_-
I admit, I've been keeping much busier than ever before. I pretty much do something every afternoon, you know, instead of just going on the computer or watching tv. 0_0 What a time to start getting active, considering that in my last year of high school my marks need to be as high as I can get them. -_-
I just can't delete enough vids off my hard drive. I keep deleting the ones I don't like, and keeping the ones I like, but I like too many. I constantly have about 500 MBs to spare from 30 GBs, which is not enough. Argh...
My brother found out about one of the girl's I have a crush on. It seems that he's never insterested in talking about himself, but when it comes to something that I'm not comfortable talking about (about myself), it's right up his alley! Anyways, he got it on his first guess. I was surprised, but when I think about it, he doesn't actually know too many of the girls my age, so it shouldn't have surprised me like that. Anyways, he now knows, and it's kinda cute. I just hope he doesn't tell her... 0_0
Kevin (Anime Jedi) -
It's impossible to understand people...
2003-10-15 22:08:59
My knuckles are ripped up again from my punching bag. This time it's much worse. Not to mention it's both hands, whereas last time it was only my right hand. I'm going to have to start being more careful with my punches, or risk a lot of pain.
My teacher brought his dog to class today. Real hush-hush because he didn't get the schools'a approval, but this was a matter of life or death. Seriously! His dog was really sick the night before, and went to the vet. He was able to go home, but neither he or my teacher got any sleep. So since he had to go back around lunch, and my teacher didn't want to leave him home alone, he brought his dog to school. He was so cute! It's so sad though, because his heart is failing him, his chest was filled his fluids (not good), and somehow he got broken glass in his back (this morning when going to the washroom, my teacher has no idea how it happened!)!
I felt so horrible, and couldn't really work all period. I was really sad, but that all changed with everyone else. Everyone looked sad when my teacher explained why the dog was in class, but they acted so normal right after. I don't have a problem with that, but they got really loud, and I felt like standing up and yelling "Have you all forgotten about the sick dog at the front of the class?!?!". -_- But of course I didn't say a word.
I just love reading about people making threats on the internet. They talk about killing, slicing, butchering and all that, but you know none of this will ever happen. Not only that but I doubt this person would ever have the guts to do so. I don't understand why people feel they need to act all tough. Why pretend to be someone you're not? Are you ashamed of who you are? It's like just a few minutes ago. My dad was watching a show about this mother who was just married, but enjoyed going on public chat rooms. She said it was a place of freedom where you don't have to be yourself, so in her case, she didn't need to be a "mother of two". I'm really disturbed by this information. It's like all those people on the net who enjoy swearing all the time, and don't pay attention to spelling. Is this them in real life? Of course not. Maybe in the smallest of cases, but most of my friends on MSN do this, and it doesn't represent them accurately in the least! I could never pretend to be something I'm not. I can't see what a person can gain from such an act. -_-
I dreamt about the many ways I could admit my feelings to the angel in my art class... 0_0 lol
Kevin (Anime Jedi) -
You lose track of time easily in the Winter/Fall...
2003-10-14 18:08:28
I've been wandering around the house, and when I checked the time, I was so surprised! I thought it was much later, but infact it was only 6:50pm. That was a shocker.
I find that on the days that I'm tired, all I need is about half an hour of "struggling to stay awake", and I'll be fine for the rest of the day. That's what happened today. I spent half an hour trying to play my GameBoy, though to no avail. When my dad walked by (didn't notice me), I sprung awake (because something in my surroundings finally got my attention). Ever since then, I've felt fine. I can't complain, since it's more efficient than actually getting another hour of sleep. ~_^ Though I really should go back to spending half an hour meditating. Also known as what I call "resting sitting up". lol
What's wrong with me? All I've been doing is day dreaming about these 2 specific girls. This is so unlike me! Last time I spent so much time on one subject was when I used to log onto the forums after school, and then go on MSN Messenger for the rest of the day! 0_0 But I guess some things just can't be helped. =^_^=
Kevin (Anime Jedi) -
Pain is my friend (btw Happy Thanksgiving!)...
2003-10-13 22:44:28
I don't know about most people, but I kinda enjoy pain. Sure, there are times when it's rather not fun, but most of the time it's like a driving force that helps push me past my limitations.
It's like when working out. It just doesn't feel like I'm doing it right until it starts hurting. Whether it's weight training, or cardio training, if I'm not sore at the end, I get really disatisfied with myself. The most gratifying times are when I'm finished and I can barely walk, or when I can see blood on my knuckles. Ok, sounds sick, right? But it helps prove to myself that I really did give it my all.
I spent all day, starting from 2:00pm, working on my painting. I don't really like the way it came out, but I can't do much now. It's due tomorrow, and my teacher has already been MORE than generous with the due date. I'll just have to hope for the best now.
I have a Physics test on Friday, plus a Math project due. But that's not the problem. The problem is that I have an Art field trip the same day, and I haven't told those two teachers yet. That means I'll probably have to do both on Thursday now. This bites, especially since it's already Monday night.
Oh, and to all you other Canadians out there, I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving! ^_^
Kevin (Anime Jedi)
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