JOURNAL: Anime Jedi

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  • One negative event can erase a thousand positive ones... 2004-01-12 21:55:55 Oh, about my little drama on Saturday (see previous Journal), I got over that soon enough, but not without learning a good deal about myself.

    Today was our Art Show. I got there REALLY early (an hour and a half) but I didn't mind. I'd much rather be early than late. So eventually everyone started arriving, and the show got on the road. Some of my friends came, and some of my family came. I talked to a lot of strangers there whom I have never met, but were interested in my work. Later in the night I had to welcome everyone and introduce our teacher. Imagine having to yell loud enough for 100 people in a long hallway to hear you! Talk about embarrassing. Anyways, I did all that, and then mingled a bit more. But by this time it was about 8:00pm, and no one else seemed to be showing up (we opened at 6:00pm, and supposed to close at 9:00pm). I felt like I should have stayed (since I was the co-ordinator), but my teacher offered me a ride, so I accepted. That was my big mistake!!!

    You see, earlier I had never really gotten a hold of my cousins. So I kinda figured they wouldn't come to the gallery. Well, when I walked in the house at 8:15pm, my mother informed me that she had gotten a hold of them, and they were going over right then and there. -_- It was a good idea to go, considering it was still before 9:00pm, but everyon had left! For the next hour I felt so horrible. It was my fault they never got the information early enough. I should have stayed just incase more people showed up before 9:00pm. I didn't take responsibility, and was now paying the price with an overwhelming amount of guilt. Of course it was comforting to hear (called me when they got home) that they still got to go in and see everyone's work, but I refuse to let myself off the hook that easliy. -_-

    Other than that, I had a good day in school. Found a really nice book of Chinese proverbs in the library. Worked hard in Art class. Nothing too important in French. Did nothing in Math. And got 3 marks back in Physics, all being 80%! I was really estatic about those marks. ^_^ Still have lots of work left to do this week though. lol

    There's now two girls whom I have crushes on in my art class. Guess you could say I was a nervous reck all night. But I kept my cool enough times to say at least one or two lines that made a bit of sense. ~_^

    Kevin (Anime Jedi) 
  • Long forgotten tears... 2004-01-10 20:49:18 There's only one person I know who can bring me to tears, and that's my father.

    I always play the tough guy. If not that, than at least the calm and in controld of his emtions guy. But today, I had to try my very best not to break down when learning how to Parallel Park with my father. I don't understand what it is about him, but I find it hard to stand him almost constantly. He's just too much sometimes. I kept making mistakes when parking today, and had to keep doing it over and over again. Nearing the end, I had to gather all my strength to stop myself from stopping the car, getting out and walking in the house (we practiced just outside). I don't know what came over me. I was overcome with emotion.

    Then later inside, when he wanted to explain why he's pushing me so hard about driving, just listening was about to make me cry. We were just talking, but I was loosing my cool. All I could hope was that I didn't break down right in front of him.

    I can't figure out why I couldn't handle it. I'm always so great at keeping my composure. Though it might be because driving is such an important topic. If this was only my life at risk, I wouldn't care, but everyone on the road becomes at risk, it's too big. That, plus the fact that my father thinks he's always right. No modesty at all with him. He know he's a good driver, so he thinks that gives him the authority to just dismiss anyone's information who does things differently. "Well you're driving teacher doesn't do it the right way". -_-

    I never did cry though today. I shed a few tears when looking at myself in the mirrior, but for the most part was able to hold them back. I'm grateful for that, since I haven't really cried (I'm mean like bawling) for at least 7 years.

    Anyways, I've always taken pride in the fact that I'm in control of my emotions. Doesn't matter if people see me as being cold and emotionless, at least I'm in control. This whole experienced has just resufaced a whole chapter of my life I thought I had gotten rid of forever.

    Kevin (Anime Jedi) 
  • Nothing worth worrying about... 2004-01-10 11:19:36 The one thing I like about overly worrying about something, is that if it was all for nothing, you were at least prepared for the worst. Just like my little philosophy on life, "To expect the worse, and hope for the best". It's quite a remarkable to save yourself from much grief. ^_^

    I saw Cold Mountain with some friends last night. Once it was over, most of them wanted to see Big Fish as well. Two award nominated movies in one night, though neither took me as being "execptional". Cold Mountain was good, and Big Fish was also good. But nothing special. The four girls I was with were crying during Cold Mountain, and just plain loved Big Fish. I have to admit though, Cold Mountain really did have some sad parts. I suppose they weren't really my kind of movies.

    One thing I was really disappointed in were the previews. There was nothing impressive at all. The Stepford Wives preview didn't exactly give you much of an idea about the movie. The 50 First Dates preview I've seen too many times. The Big Bounce just looked not interesting. Troy looked ok. Welcome to Mooseport seemed average. Too bad, because I was hoping for something like Spider-Man 2 or anything like that. -_-

    Kevin (Anime Jedi) 
  • -40°C (with windchill)... 2004-01-08 19:42:39 0_0 And I thought it was cold this morning, or even when I walked home after school! Tonight it's supposed to drop down to -40°C (including windchill, so FEELS like -40°C). That's the kind of stuff you hear about in the prairies all the time, but still seems unusual here. Anyways, I was listening to the radio when working on my art (after school), and it started talking about the weather. That's where I heard that tonight it's supposed to get that cold. In addition, they were asking people that if they see any homeless people outside, to call a toll free line to help them. It really gets dangerous when it that cold over night.

    Though it may be cold, today was a great day. So many things I hadn't expected, and almost all were in my favour. When I didn't come home after school, my brother took our dog for a walk. I haven't seen that kind of generosity from him in a long time! The most surprising thing about it was that I never asked him, he just took the initiative.
    Another was that this morning I got extra time to study. The periods at school were modified because of a standarized test the grade nines had to take, so first period was extra long. Which is my lunch period! Good thing, because with the fair yesterday and then hockey, I didn't have much time to study for my two tests.
    And this would have to have been the best part. I got to spend time with these two girls who also needed to work on their art. We all stayed after school and worked in the art classroom. It's hard getting to know people personally in a big class. I always end up being shy around these girls. But working like today, it doesn't take long to finally start feeling a little more comfortable. =^_^=

    New episodes of DragonBall! And to think, all week I'd been avoiding the show because I thought they were still on reruns. -_-

    Kevin (Anime Jedi) 
  • A teacher's life for me (or at least a day)... 2004-01-07 17:18:04 Now I know how teacher's feel when they have to correct an entire class of essays. Today was the Physics Fair at our school. This is the fair where grade 12s have to correct the presentations and essays of the grade 11 Physis classes. We pick a topic, read the essay (ranging from 10 to 50 pages), listen to their presentation, and write comments with the final mark. And we need to do a good job, because we ourselves are being marked on how we mark them. This little fair takes all day. Within that time, each person in my class pretty much read and marked 5 essays and presentations. Some people knew what they were doing, some seemed to have made up all their information! What a job! By the time I had gotten to my fourth topic, I was akready getting tired of flipping page after page of "This does this because..." and "In 1700, boats were used for...". I can understand why teacher can be cranky once in awhile, because that have to put up with a lot of junk (nicer word) from students.

    After all that, I had Art Council, so I stayed after school for an hour as usual on Wednesday. Since busses are gone by that time, I had to walk home, which I didn't mind. Though even I have to admit it's getting a bit chilly outside (-10°C). Tonigh I have hockey, and will have to study for two tests. One of which we were given notes today, but I had to miss them for the fair. -_-

    -_- It's my mispelled banner that's at the top of the window right now. I'm really going to have to e-mail Phade or someone somtime, and ask if they can take that one down, and I'll replace it with one that's spelled correctly. ^_^

    Speaking of banners, there was one that supported pirated software. I don't think that one meets the requirements, considering that even conversations about downloading episodes or anything of that nature is frowned upon and then removed from the forum. o_0 By the way, I'm talking about the banner which comments on downloading Premiere instead of buying it. ~_^

    Kevin (Anime Jedi) 
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