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hello there
2005-03-16 12:22:01
ok well talked to ryan-chan early this morning. He was having a bad day. I feel kinda bad for causin him so much trouble and pain in his family. It seems that his mom doesn't care for what I have been through but you know what? It has made me who I am and I wouldn't take any of it back. I'm proud that ryan-chan is stickin up for us most guys would have just simply givin up by now :-( It seems that our meeting is drawing closer by the min and I can't help but get more and more excited about it. OH I had the BEST dream last night (blushes)
My tongue's swelling has went down some YAY! But it still hurts and this mouth wash is really ucky! I knew I should have gotten a good flavor lol. On the other hand my mom is getting worse yesterday her attacks where like every five min. I'm scared cause I know I am going to loose her soon and I just want to cry she has such a beautiful soul and it is getting eatin away by this as is my uncle's who is now in jail he went through the same thing and well my mom got abused mainly cause she treid to protect him. It's sad very sad. But as bad as this sounds I would rather her not be here mentally then to have to keep goin through what she is. THe pain I see in her eyes is also slowly killing a part of me.
well I gotta go need to check on her see how she is fairing today,
kisses to all who want them hehe maybe some tongue as well ;-*
ciao
leala ann -
worried
2005-03-16 04:18:20
I'm worried I havn't talked to my ryan-chan I went to sleep but well I got back up to see if he was back on here but no. His bro got on earlier but just said that ryan wasn't home and that is all. I hope he is ok. well I am goin back to bed now
ciao
leala -
yes I made it!
2005-03-15 13:22:24
Yes I made it through yesterdays hell. anyways I repeirced my tongue today YAY! I SO missed my barbell! And yes it did hurt but my pain tolerence is larger than the average person it took like 15 min! but then again it had been closed for a while nice to have it back though just don't care for the mouth wash I have to use all the time now. lol well I gotta go I think my mom is gonna loose it permanently soon :-( but I have to take care of vannie all the time now it is ok I think I can manage ok. WOW I can SO chew gum lol anyways later
kisses
chow
leala - can't take it! 2005-03-14 12:31:45 My mom jstu had a break down I got her calmed down but well I thought she would'nt come back this time. I am SO SO depressed.
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quick note
2005-03-14 09:48:50
oks just woke up I feel like crap! but what's new. Shar is coming over today I have to sign some papers for vannie's preschooling I'm nervous! don't know why I know her but anyways. Ryan-chan is comin here in over a month! I hope atleast. I hope I don't screw what we have up I can be like that sometimes. Must be towards my time of the month cause I was over analizing things lastnight (sighs) anyways people give me a wierd look cause I am already planing for his arrival but I don't care I am excited! I posted some poetry for him here is his link
http://allpoetry.com/poets/AEtherRyan
Check them out they are great! And I'm not sayin this cause i love him but cause they are good! and if not to see them just look and review as a favor for me k? YAY! just review and mention that it came from here and I shall leave a new entry for each one left. hehe I came up with that all by myself! anyways knives if you are readin this I so hope you are ok i havn't heard from you in a long time. keep safe oks? same for you Zio if you are reading this keep safe and I"m sorry i had to block you but it was for the best you know that. well I gotta go
kisses
ciao or chow hehe your choice
leala ann
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