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hehe hi
2005-01-28 00:46:54
Yeah well my last journal entry was kinda crazy huh? hehe It was so funny that two hours later my body kicked into over drive and I was getting sick in seconds hehe of course there was nothing TO come up but it didn't matter hehe Oh and to clearify one thing I went to get something to eat at well you know where and well I got it to go but I wasn't really hungry by the time I left hehe
So no need to worry about me hehe my will, spirit, and soul are strong but they are trapped in a weak body hehe I went to sleep and slept for about 5 hours I didn't go to my "special" appointment today why? well because I felt SO sick! hehe I am so stupid at times hehe I can never get myself to stay up longer than two nights in a row hehe my body just won't take it hehe my heart rate jumps sky high then I get sick and well I did eat something to help calm my stomach hehe and I feel so stupid I realize that if I am physically weak then I am still no good hehe like today I was SO sick I couldn't even really move hehe (slaps face)
Sorry once again you all know how I write when I am very low on sleep hehe heeeeeeeeeee yep stupidity has a friend and it's lack of sleep it makes me 10X as stupid and slow hehe well I will write later I have a lot to do since I slept most of the day I will catch some more sleep about the same time tomorrow or at least porbably around that time I may get somemore sleep who knows hehe
kisses to all and I will keep you updated and sorry once again for making you worry about me you know that when I am low on sleep you can never really trust what I write hehe sad but true
leala -
good mornig all
2005-01-27 13:19:55
OK first of all I am sorry if my typing is bad hehe I just finished watching kenshin and well (bawls eyes out) Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Ok I got that out of my system and this cigerette is helping majorly hehe OH the amv on here is of kenshin waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
OK I've got to snap out of it (slaps self in face ) hehe ok anyway
I haven't slept in 2 nights but I'm not tired I'm not going to tell my cousler about it I don't want her to up my sleeping meds and well hehe I know I am now going into a mania and it's good I really need one hehe shh this is a secret but anyway with my family crumbling I chant this to myself
I am strong
I am the strongest of all of us
I need to be strong for them
I am a survivor for a reason
I will make my lor proud that he gave me mercy!
I will protect
I will not be selfish
I need not sleep
I need not eat
I will sacrafice
I will give my all
I will sacrafice
I will die before I am considered weak again!!
It is now my turn to be strong
Oh well it goes on and on hehe OOH I feel a tad bit dizy and over heated hehe anyway I have been weak for too long I will no longer be that way. I am now very sorry I did that to my ex it was selfish and mean to lay my problems on him hehe anyway I will keep my problems to myself locking them deep inside but this time I WILL NOT turn weak!!!!!!!!!! I WILL NOT BREAK!
hehe anyway I have more stuff to complete from my list hehe and even though my body is weak and my mind shattered I WILL stand strong! I won't probably sleep till I pass out but it doesn't matter anymore as long as I am alone! when I pass out.. hehe
Oh well sorry to bother you don't worry I have experience in when I turn but this time it will be different! I will even wear make-up to hide the darkness under my eyes I HAVE to be strong for my loved ones and if I fail them then maybe my being left on this earth was a freak mistake. Don't get me wrong I won't commit myself to that kind of crime it would hurt the ones I am trying so hard to protect! I just hope this body of mine holds out till I find the time to get some rest but even then I can take to long the time is now I have to act before my family is sacraficed instead of me heheh
kisses to all
chow leala -
OK
2005-01-27 07:16:21
Ok I am back sorry bout the wait the shower was great Mwahaha anyway hehe I had to write milk-chan a quick note we have been AIM back and forth the past few days and I am finally ready to start my ending hehe and a little preview it is doing to be as ruff themed as the beginning of the fiction hehe It will go out with a BANG! hehe anyway I also finished a very long chapter for blood month the reviewers will be happy along with my beta it is about 10 pages of sex aka smut Hey they reviewed asking for it so being the nice person that I am cough cough I gave it to them I will post it hopefully tonight you see it is now almost 6AM here and yes I didn't sleep again but hey I don't care! As I have said before it seems all I run on these days are diet pop, cigerettes, anime, a lil chocolate hehe, and well reviews! Oh and you guys always make me happy hehe I did as I promised and mentioned this journal in an author's note I put on blood moon anyways
I haven't talked to knives all day today I hope he is okay. Hey knives if you are reading this drop an aim and tell me everythings solid? hehe slang yep it's a slang word and I never use those but I did so there hehehe
Here is my schedule for today when I am done here I will check the replies for my threads at animationinsider.net oops sorry I just did and they seem to be a hit the name I am under is same as here my aim slave 4 anime check it out if you are into doing threads.
anyway when I am done here I am going to watch some kenshin it seems to be the first anime that I have crushes mainly on the good well there is fruits basket (LOVE) anyway but my fav there is akito and he's a bad boy hehe anyway but then again there was one guy on kenshin I loved he was the leader of a samurai gang he wore a big white coat hehe he was A diffinate sexy guy hehe anyway after that I will work on my last exile fanfiction FOR milk-chan!! hehe anyway then at 5pm I have a head doctor counseling session (sighs) Then I will visit my mom HEY everyone she is out of that hell hole!!!! YIPPY! anyway she seems to be doing better but I took anything sharp from the house hehe I really shouldn't have them here but I am to busy to be depressed granted I am upset with what is all happening Oh and I SO forgot to wish my baby happy 3rd bday today I am a HORRABLE mom kill me know hehe anyway we played with play-doh today and if I have the time I will go to her doc appointment today at 9am I hate going since I don't know if she gets a shot hehe anyway I'm a whimp when she is in pain OH and don't forget my fear of needles ha you would have never have known my medical history these last 6 months it has been nothing but needles I even had for like 3 months what they call a pick line a permenant Iv sticking out of my arm!!! I have a small scar now but then I took a diff medicine Zyvox cost the state 120 dollars a pill man am I glad I got aprooved for medicaid hehe anyway I had to go to get blood work done every monday sometimes more anyway back to my schedule umm well I think that is it!
OH one more thing I went to harde well you know where by now and my ex waited on me acting like he cared makes me sick he doesn't give a beep beep about me or vannie anyway I was short with him and I have been in a nice mood well kinda hehe anyway he once told me I was a good friend to him and so I called like a chicken and talked to his voice mail knowing that he was at work (bwak bwak) (flaps arms around) hehe anyway I told him to keep it between me and him and well you guys now because you know I always have a loose tongue when I am writting hehe anyhow I thought if he wants to act like he cares then fine I will lay my probs on his shoulders hehe I am so evil anyway I poored my problems into a nice lil message which he probably won't even bother to listen to (sighs) but I can't say I haven't told you before anyway I will write more later after I finish my goals I listed have a great otuku day!! hehe
kisses as always
leala ann -
hiya
2005-01-27 05:37:54
Ok I know I said I would write as soon as I posted the list but I want a shower the usual as you all know boiling hot hehe I will write to you when I get out ok? I have some stuff to share hehe
kisses
leala -
HI I will update in a minute here is an updated anime list for you all hehe
2005-01-27 04:39:09
Inuyasha 1-112 + movies 1&2
RaRoni Kenshin 1-end + all samurai X and movies
Ranma 1/2 1-161 + 2 movies
Cardcaptors sakura 1-79 + all movies and speacials
801 T. T. S. Airbats tape= first strike
akira movie
All you need is love movie
Angel Sanctuary 1+2
Animatrix movie
appleseed movie
Arcadia of my youth movie
armitage dual + polymatrix
Asagirie No miko 1-26
Avenger 1-13
babel 2 vol.2
Banner of stars vol.1
Bastard!! tape=venom
berserk 1-25
beyblade vol.1-3
beyblade Gevolution around 34 episodes all different numbers
beyblade Vforce multiple episodes
Biohunter movie
Bionicle one and two
black magic M-66 movie
blood reign movie
blue seed movie
blue sub #6 1-6
bubblegum crisis tokyo 2040 vol.1&2
burn-up W (file one)
capricorn movie
captain taylor movie
castle in the sky movie
cat girl nuku nuku 1-3
catnapped! movie (my daughter's favorite)
cheeky angel 1-3
cleopatra DC movie
cowboy bebop 1-26 + movie
crest of stars vol.1
cutey honey vol.2-4
cyber city dedd808 tape:data two
dager of karumi movie
darkside blues movie
debutante detectives corps. movie
delinquint in drag movie
deluxe ariel vol.1
Hentai Demon warrior Koji 1-3
devil hunter yohko 1-7
dirty pair 1-3
do ri me 1-17
.hack//integrety complete
.hack//lumnity 1-13
.hack//sign 1-26
dragon drive 1-38
dragon half acts 1&2
hentai dragon pink vol.1&2
earthian angelic 1-3
8 man after vol.3
elf princess rane movie
ellicia 1-4
escaflowne movie
excel saga 1-26
fatal fury 2 movie
fight!! Spirit of the sword movie
Final fantasy unlimited vol.1-7
fruit of olympus movie
full metal alchemist the majority of the series
fushigi yugi complete series
gad gaurd 1-15
gaogaiger vol.1&2
gatekeeper complete
gatekeeper 21 1-6
ghost in the shell movie
ghost in the shell stand alone complex majority of series
grappler baki movie
grave of the fireflies movie
gravion 1-13
gude crest movie
gungrave 1-11
gunslinger girl 1-13
grenaider episode one
hamatro (hehe) the halloween special
harlock saga tapes"clash of the space pirates"&"wrath of the gods"
heaven wars sharuto vol.1-3
heavy metal movie
heavy metal 2000 movie
hour glass summer (ova)1&2
I can hear the sea movie
Iczelion acts1&2
kanon 1-13
key metal idol vol.3
kikis delivery service movie
kimera movie
the knights of ramune tape="blast off"
K. O. Beast vol.2-3
kodomo no omocha (kodocha)(child's toy) 1-102
kotetsu movie
serial experements lain 1+4-13
last exile 1-8+11-26
lensman movie
lets go with the jungle vol.1
luna varga movie
lupin the third tape=greatest capers and mulitple episodes
macross2 movie
macross pluss 1-4
macross seven (complete)vol.1-5
madara movie
magami paradise acts1&2
marmalade boy complete series
marriage movie
megazone parts1&2
mermaids (tapes)"forest" "scar"
metropolis movie
miku metal fighters vol1-5 (missing6)
miyukichan in wonderland movie
millineum actress movie (big disappointment!)
mortal kombat (animated version) the journey begins
motocross2 movie
mutant aliens movie
nadesco 1-26
narutaru 1-13
naruto 1-96
neon genisis evangelion complete series (missing the last 2special dvds)
ninja scroll tape "jubei ninpucho"
one peice 1-112
only yesterday movie
orange road vol.1-3 complete
patlabor movie
patlabor 2 movie
XW3 patlabor movie
peace maker kurogane 1-24
perfect blue movie (very scary!)
pita ten 1-26
platonic chain 1-24
pom porco rosso movie
power puff girls movie(just thought I would add it cause I LIKE IT!)
princess minerva acts1&2
princess mononoke movie
project-ako vol.1-4 + VRS.1&2
puppet masters complete
rayearth vol.1-5
read or die (ova) 1&2&3 complete
read or die TV1-12(missing#9)
realbout highschool 1-13
record of lodoss wars 1-13
R.G.Veda acts1&2
ronin warriors 1-49
sailor moon 1-202+movies1-4
saint seiya hades chapter complete
sakura wars vol.1&2
samurai deeper kyo 1-26(one of my favs)
samurai hunt for the sword movie
samurai jack various episodes
samurai troopers(ronin warriors ova) complete
shadow skills episodes 1&2
shaman king 1-64
shamanic princess vol.1-6 complete
shingetsutan tsukihime 1-12
silent mobius 1-26
silent service movie
sin movie
slayers complete
slayers next complete
slayers try complete
slayers (lost universe) complete
sol bianca movie
someday's dreamers (ova)1-12
soultakers 1-13
spirited away (my fav hm movie)
starwars:clone wars 1-13 (I know but i taped it for free on cartoon network)
strange love movie (very weird)
street fighter 2 1-4 complete
suikoden demon century
take your mark movie
teen titans 2 season and some of the first
teen witch 1-6
tekken movie
tiny snow fairy sugar 1-26
3X3 eyes 1-13
tokyo babylon acts 1&2
tokyo godfathers movie
the tokyo project movie
my neighbor totoro movie
toward the terra movie
the trapp family vol.1-5 (bought it on a whim but never watched it)
trigun 1-26
twilight of the darkmaster movie
ushio&tora 1-3
the valley of the wind movie
vampire hunter D
Blood:the last vampire movie
vandread 1-26
dominion tank 1-6
video girl AI tape=first date
X movie
virus killer complete
the weathering continent movie
whisper of the heart movie
windaria vol.1-3
the wind rises movie
the wings of honneamise movie
waking life movie (sux)
witch hunter robin 1-26
wolf's rain 1-14+19-25+29-30
wrath of the ninja movie
yu-gi-oh! 1-199
yuyu hakusho1-112
the twelve kingdoms 1-39
stellvia of the universe 1-26
tokyo underground1-26
scrapped princess1-24
D.C. Dacapo 1-26
Ayashi No Ceres 1-24
Saber J marionette 1-25+1-6(ova)+1-4(movies)
Demon city (movie)
Chrono trigger (complete)
Chrono cross (complete)
CHrono OVA (complete)
Judge (movie)
Zoids (movie)
Golden boy vol. 1&2 (complete)
Banner of Stars 1-13
Big O (a few scattered episodes here and there)
Dragon Ball Z some episodes here and there
**************fruits basket 1-26 ************ This is my all time fav! (especially with all the hot guys in it Oh but that isn't why I liked it honestly I'll talk about it in the next entry)
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