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2005-02-12 02:25:55
ok one aim buddy gave up but he is coming over tomorrow so I guess he figures that he will try then oh wells the other main one is helping me even if I bet i annoy him at how stupid I can be lol oh wells if we don't fix it soon I am taking a shower and vacumming and then bed for me I need to eat but I am way to tired I will eat in the morning I guess LOL oh well I could stand to loose some weight oh well I will actually eat breakfast! I havn't done that in years! ok well my eyes are tired I gotta go see if he has any ideas he is trying to walk me through it but I am kinda ditzy hehe I am listening to the song stupid girl by cold why? cause i am so stupid LOL it's ok don't worry I will get over it today was just a bad day I guess i don't know a friend of mine stopped by for a bit I love her she is so sweet well gotta goes
kisses
leala -
ok deep breath in and then release in and out (sighs)
2005-02-11 20:41:11
ok the stupid aim thingy still doesn't work but I shall keep trying I have done everthing I can do (sighs) stupid thing! anyways I am not even in the mood to clean which is bad but I think I may write some poetry or do some reading as long as it doesn't have a puter involved in it than that is fine.
I talked to me fav aim buddy on the phone I feel kinda bad cause I was kinda distracted with things other than what we were talking about like vannie and zach and so forth but hey that's the add I guess lol anyways if you are reading this I will call you tomorrow before you come over stupid puter thingy (sighs) anyways I meant to tell you I think I shall call you by the shorter version of your name it seems easier to say than the actual name. anyways I have been reading your journal as well so keep up the entries and I shall keep up mine hehe stupid aim thingy! anyways you are welcome to email me it's anime_freak@direcway.com anyways I think I shall go relax this stupid problem with aim is stressing me out I guess that is what i get for being stupid with computer related things. oh well I shall go now relax and finish cleaning later I will conntinue to keep you all posted on my adventures with aim and trying to download it again.
kisses
leala -
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2005-02-11 17:07:53
OK I AM EVEN MORE PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!! NOT ONLY DID THE STUPID AIM THING NOT EVER DOWNLOAD BUT THIS STUPID JOURNAL THE LAST ENTRY DIDN'T GET SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD AND FINALLY MADDER TO MADDEST!
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ok still pissed beyond beleif but oh well if worse comes to worse I can use my rents aim or just call my aim buddy I don't have but 2 units so if you are watching this aim buddy the number will start with a 431 but I will aim you with their puter first before I call
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ok I don't really hate it but damit that felt good to say lol but I very much dislike it but then again if it wasn't for aim I would have never have met anyone I now talk to.
oh well I won't leave any kisses cause they would bruise your lips but geez I'm pissed off
leala -
YES I ADMIT IT I LOVE MUSHROOMS!!!
2005-02-11 16:45:42
hehe and yes I did blush thanks hehe
anyways could this day go any worse!?! Dear lord I hate AIM!!!! I tried to uninstall it but now it won't let me reinstall!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
anyways I am gonna try some other things to get it back on here (beavy sigh) I hate this stupid thingy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh well I will write once I get things back on track
kisses
leala -
STUPID AIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
2005-02-11 15:30:00
hiya there my stupid aim won't work still!!!!!! Oh and aim buddy I don't really mind you talking to her it just seemed well I dn't really know I guess maybe I am stupid It's not so much that I care if you talk about her I'm just stupid I guess hehe Maybe I'm putting things in my head for no reason I don't know lol I just don't wanna get hurt and well that is the jits of it I know I said I would rather get hurt and try then to not try at all and that is true but I would rather not get hurt at all LOL I'll get over it I'm just well alot of people have hurt me and I'm not sayin you will it's just well kinda a reflex for me I guess. LOL stupid reflex oh well like I said I will over come it. I have said before that I trust you why cause I'm like that. It' s just a stupid thing that pops in my head when I am sleepy and easy pray for my mind. I guess I don't know why I am so lucky to have met someone like you and I can't help but think that something might go wrong and ruin it. (heavy sigh) It's a stupid way to be but I can't help it. oh well I hope that my aim will start to work so we can talk. But well the stupid thingy is being difficult!!!!!!!!
Oh well I am almost done cleaning (whew) I'm SO majorly sick of cleaning! but it needs to be done that is what I get for being sick and a procrastinator LOL you all know I am my fiction is on major hold and I feel bad but this is real life and I need to finish with my real life before I start to go back into my fantasy life. I think that I may write some poetry today but don't worry I'm not depressed I just need to vent is all.
Oh vannie gave me a necklace today it's filled with glitter but she says it is dream dust. HOW CUTE IS THAT!!!!!!! she is taking a nap at the moment. I told her I will have sweet dreams now and I know that it may sound wierd for a 3 year old but I think she was worried about me. Oh well as for the other aim buddy I said I felt was trying to control me well yes he doesn't want me to ever go away but I need to do things so I can handle myself I guess I just get pissed that I care so much about people. It is to the point were it hurts me when he talks like he does cause I have been there and know what he is going through. I'm glad to talk to him and help him and I wish that someone had been there for me like I am trying to be there for him. But that is the past and all I can do is things for the future. I hope he doesn't get too upset if I can't talk to him tonight it's not like I don't wanna but this stupid AIM won't work for some reason. Oh well LIke I said before I can handle myself and this situation I am a big girl. And I know if it gets to be too much stress on me I will have him talk to Brian a friend of mine. Brian and I are friends we go to group together and he is an actual counsler but is also bipolar himself. He isn't my counsler that is Randi but we are good friends and email eachother alot. (sighs) I missed group last month but not this month I will go! I also missed my appointment with Randi I was sick which seemed like alot a few weeks ago I just couldn't get well I am better now thank goodness. I am bad though I skipped my appointment with my hip doc and his xrays I will reschedule when I can. OH good news though my mom finally got in to her doc today she was all smiles and I am glad other wise she would have had to wait for march. She is lookin great dresses better and well no matter how small that is it makes me happy. I know that deep inside she is still scared and feels lonely but I will try to help her however I can. I get joy from helping people and it makes me happy. But one thing is I actaully find true happiness when I talk to my fav aim buddy. He accepts me for who I am and not what everyone seems to think I am which is happy all the time without a care in the world but you all know that isn't true but you guys don't talk LOL I know I am cruel but oh wells
I never wrote a journal or a diary for that manner never felt the need and plus I couldn't take the idea that someone I would know would read it. I don't mind so much anymore but then again my family can't read this Mwahaha!! hehe oh well I need to get back to cleaning I will try my Aim again but it probably won't work I hope it gets it's ass oops hehe it's but back on track!
kisses
leala ann
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