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2005-05-07 23:39:23
you all rock SO hard hmm I can't write now but i will tomorrow.
just wanted to say I LOVE YOU!
ciao and take care
kisses to all
leala ann -
bad me!
2005-05-01 09:38:39
Yes I know I havn't written and told you how it went.... well.... LOL it went wonderful! Couldn't have been better except maybe if he had been here a little longer. We didn't do much just were happy being with eachother. He tells me I have the last puzzle peice to fit (become a memeber of the church) and well now that is possable infact it is two weeks away possable! Everything couldn't be better. I have someone who loves me AND a religion that i love and makes sense to me! But as there is always a flip side there is always a down side.... My mom is doing ok but there seems to be some changes in her I dont' really care for. SHe is no longer sweet and caring and she curses alot. I guess it is ok as long as she is happy but she doesn't seem to care who she hurts anymore or maybe she doesn't see that she does until they actually tell her that. I've thought of just taking vannie and moving away but I love them no matter what.... This is really stressin me out but I'll live. Another thing is well I don't want to talk of it right now but ok well all you girls check this out how would you feel if someone close to you asked another girl how her breasts would compare to your's? yeah I know but well he doesn't oh well life goes on and on and on and now I have to go to church kinda nervous about that I don't want to fall asleep durring service LOL hint hint I kinda kept dozing off the last time I went hehe bad me! I am kinda nervous but hey I am always nervous oh well I gotta go now
take care and god bless
ciao
leala -
NERVOUS!
2005-04-23 12:53:12
OK here in a few minutes I have to go pick up Ryan-chan AKA AEtherryan from the airport. I know that normally I would be ok but well I am nervous and so all these stupid thoughts keep runing through my head like will he like me or will he think I'm ugly and such stuff. I really shouldn't be thinking that He has seen my pictures and yes I dont' know maybe i have put on a few poundage CRUD there it goes again! AHHHH HELP!?! hehe ok anyways I have been completely honest with him in everything which I do with most people lying sucks! lol CRUD I forgot something AHHHHH ok now i really have to go! WIsh me luck all!! PLEASE????? thanks
take care and god bless
ciao
leala
PS I shall write you and tell you how it went when I get back! -
hellllo peoples hehe
2005-04-11 21:14:10
Why hello! Miss me? hmm doubt it lol well today was ok I accidently changed infront of the back door at my mom's house got a nice whistle from the guy mowing the yard next door (blushes) anyways I have to get up early tomorrow I may just skip sleep I don't know a few hours of sleep would be nice though but i have to be over at mom's tomorrow at around 7 am grrr LOL. Well the weather has been wonderful here. I went to get some ice cream at custard cup it was all good and a bowl of sugar LOL hmmm I seem to be kinda playful tonight... oh wells I was a lil perturbed today to find my dad sold his old truck well that was a while ago but anyways he sold it to a old guy friend of mine and now it wasn't one I slept with but he was a REAL jerk to the fullest but oh well that is in the past. I have been reading some scripture and i like it. I actually want to read more it interests me. Yeah does that sound wierd coming from me? hehe :-P wells hmm what else to talk about....
OH daddy hehe or should I say Ryan-chan's visit is coming up I am SO extatic about it all! I can't wait. I am glad he expresses his concern about our having sex but well I guess as hard as it may sound I have learnt to control that and I wouldn't want to hurt him cause I want to get laid it's not like that. I am human but I have alot more control than most I have learnt it through the years not like I wouldn't want to do it with him but I know that it won't be what i would want it to be. (sighs) CRUD I have to go vannie is coming home for tonight and I need to get ready for her LOL anyways
kisses to all
ciao
leala ann -
hello there
2005-04-05 20:35:11
Sorry I havn't written in a while been kinda busy here. Well I am once again sick but this time it is only a cold yay for me! well not really. Ryan-chan's arrival is drawing nearer and i find myself getting more and more nervous. I am extremely nervous about goin to a church here with him. I am scared I will make a fool of myself but hey that is life (sighs) well here is a poem I wrote i have something to relate to it but I shall post it first so you can read it
TITLE: my missing wing
Just when I think my search has ended It begins anew.
I feel as if I am a butterfly with one wing watching as the other butterflies flutter past.
Will I ever fly?
I have searched for my missing wing in others my whole life.
They offer me wings abundant but none ever fit.
Will I ever be complete?
Will I ever be whole enough to fly as the others have?
When I try and fly now I only go in circles forever turning left.
I stop when dizziness over takes me and I break another heart.
I only cause pain to those who care for me.
I hope that if I ever do find my wing I won't fly blindly into glass breaking not only my original wing but also breaking it's match.
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I found a butterfly wing in the cab of the truck today or was it yesterday anyways it was just the one wing no body or a second wing. It was SO cool! it was from a monach butterfly which ryan said comes from mexico and that most of the monachs pass through where he lives it was so cool! but I didn't think of keeping it it simply crumbled in my hand :-( but I did keep a small piece of it and plan on putting it with a print out of the poem yay a scrapbook page! lol well I gotta go I feel all coughy yucky!
kisses to all
leala ann
PS I have gotten umm 19 reviews for this latest chapter of blood month. two flamers meanies and two or three nicely put bad ones and the rest are praise! YAY SO HAPPY! And from the votes it seems there may be a child in the story yet so I have some ideas on how to accomplish that one the voting ends at the end of tomorrow the 6TH so if you want to vote on it then review the story blood month on adultfanfiction.net under the name leala81
thanks much
ciao
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