- :| 2004-03-26 18:01:11 i never use this anymore :|
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My b-day :O
2003-08-13 07:44:21
It's like 5:21am right now... and i am watching Naruto... >.< SO FUCKING AWESOME!!! goto go back to watching...
Time passes...
>.< DAMNIT!!! I WANTED TO SEE HIM KICK KIBA'S ASS!!! anyway... naruto is probably my new fav.
I have to go take the cats to the vet soon so, bah.. no wait it';s only 5:45... i have plenty of time.
Oh yea it's my b-day. I'll be 19 in 3 hours (dad that i know the exact time eh?) : -
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2003-08-10 06:54:26
A lot of people have been having hard times lately. It makes me remember when i was very depressed. Everything was going wrong in my life. I called myself stupid every day, over and over. i wanted to die. I was also 8 years old. Shit happens in life. Not a lot you can do about it. When things happen to me, i look at the things that make me happy; my family and friends, my accomplishments, my knowledge and experiences. I am now 18, almost 19 (in 3 days), and very little can make me hate life and myself (or others). Yes i become angry, sad, frustrated, about what ever happens, but i don't let it get to me. if i do, i get stuck in a loop, that wont stop.
Tutter, i am sorry about your day. Sounds like it sucked big time. Losing a friend (even if it your pet, it's still your friend) is "the ghey". I've only cried really hard twice in my life (that i can remember). Not when a friend of mine was murdered, but when my dad's cat died. I knew that cat for many years.
Rob, god damnit! i hope your not joing the millitary just so an iraqi can kill you! that's just stupid -_-;;
Pie where the fuck did you go! i miss you ;( burntwolf just doesn't cut it! we're a team (somehow...), we need you back!
Ashton, get that computer running, and dont let it bring you down. Ask questions in the video hardware forum, lots of knowledgeble people there. and if you want i think i have a DDR stick laying around somewhere. i'll send it to you so you can test it, lol. i probably don't have one though... if i did its in my computer already, lol.
If i have never talked to anyone, i probably wouldn't care. But i have this problem of liking every person i meet, and even more if they are nice. So when you guys have bad days, it effects me a bit.
Shit happens, it sucks. Please don't let it get to you so much. in my opinion, try to be positive. If your negitive, it only gets worse. So if your positive it only gets better? not always, but it wont get worse. Oh and don't be afraid to ask for help. your friends and family arn't there just to look pretty, they are their to help you when you need it the most. i hope this all makes sense, and someone reading it will understand.
OK time for some positiveness (that even word?). YAH! i turn 19 in 3 days. I can't wait ^_^ first time i've ever been excited for my b-day. Damn drugs -_- anyway. I have this great plan. I'm going to buy 2 200gb hard drives and a dvd-r/rw. with my current setup i can't put the dvd-r/rw in, so i have to take my other 120gb drive and put that on the raid controller. which isn't a problem ^_^ then i am going to put the 2 200gb drive on the other raid and all will be good ^_^. i'm happy about that. I just hope it works, lol.
What else... The band i am doing a video for wanted to see what i have so far. I feel a little bad though. I have been working on this video for about 5-6 months + and it looks bad IMO. i hope they like what i have so far. If anyone reading this wants to see go to www.pwolfamv.com/download.html
Thats my post for the next month or two, so yea :
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stuff...
2003-06-28 06:43:02
lots of stuff to read...
Read pies journal a few secs ago... i know how you feel. the way i see it, when you find that person, it will be worth the wait (unless is it's the worng person >.<).
on an other note. i am gradually getting into the mood to start editing again/ so far everytime i'v edited i've had like 1 month in between editing again. the last time was only a few days. I find it kinda finny. After going to AX last year i slowed down and didn't edit much. not that the convensions are here i want to start editing more. I think it could be the fact that my videos are getting more known and i want to have better work out there. I have about 38 sucky videos.
AX is coming soon. I hope i am not as nervous as i was at fanime. At fanime i was so nervous i was saying things, that i didn't mean to say doing stuff i didn't mean to do. it was horrible. I was kinda glad i left early, and very glad i didn't win. with that con gone, i really want to try and be calm and be myself. I am totaly different person then i am here online. I hope that the AMV dinner will calm my nervs and let me get on with the weekend.
SWG came out. ive been trying to play it the last few days. Its very interesting. The graphics are awesome!!! with my radeon 9700 pro with everything on full, i only get server lag :O the only problem i see with this game is that it may be to hard to get money. But it is realistic. You can't get money by just shooting critters. you have to kill people that have money or do jobs. I like that. I am not used to it but i like it. The EXP gain system is good. you get skill points and EXP by using the skill. This way you can't power gain. the only thing i don't like is, you have to pay to train. you have to get an NPC or even a play to teach you the skill after you get the required skill points. i can get intermediate pistol but i don't 1000 credits >.< GRAH!
lets see... what else. Oh yea! I am getting my real estate license and i am going to be doing loans for my mothers company. just by being a loan processor i can get very good money (about 300+ per loan)and of course the bigger the loan the more moeny :O once i get the license i will be making much much more. i dunno exactly what to expeect but its a job so i like it.
that it for now... next one will be in a long time... or after AX :P - My thoughts... 2003-04-03 08:26:39 I was thinking yesterday and I am thinking of quitting making amvs. not now, but probably at the end of the year. I have been finding it harder and harder to keep my motivation and focus on making them and it's actually not fun anymore. I had a lot of fun making them in the past and actually had fun making Midnight. But the current projects I am working on aren't really fun. They are more like a bother. They are like a stuck in my mind 24/7 and I can't get them out. What was once a hobby is now a chore. so I think this is going to be the final year for me. Of course I could change my mind later. Nothing is official, I am just saying what's on my mind.
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